Grateful for Pain

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Today it is Thanksgiving 2020 and everywhere across the US, people are celebrating things to be grateful for. As am I……but today my mental processes took me back to the beginning of this year and throughout it. So here is my truth, I am thankful for the pain of 2020.

Let me explain the many ways (briefly) I was hurt this year and what I gained of it.

In January I had a surgery that went wrong and I nearly died. It was supposed to be a simple surgery of thirty minutes but two hours later it wasn’t and I lost more blood than the medical team accounted for. I couldn’t wake up after surgery and lost a lot of blood, so much so that it took 6 bags of blood to pump into me to bring my heart rate back. I was not coherent for most of this but from the stories of my partner, family and staff, I understood it was a close call. While I may not remember all the details of this experience, I very vividly remember being on the other side temporarily and meeting my beloved grandmother who passed away a few years ago. Aside from the excruciating pain of surgery and trying to come back, I had to deal with the emotional repercussions of losing my life and being on the other side for a brief moment.

After that scare, I suffered with mental pain as I had to adjust to being back here on the earth plane. I was depressed. Seeing firsthand how fleeting life is and seeing the other side of life (the beyond), I suffered with depression for a few months because I felt so…..lacking. Was I proud of the life I lived? Did I help enough people? Was I more kind than angry? I fell short in all of these areas and judged myself tremendously. I also missed my grandmother who was and still is an important figure in my life. To see her even so briefly invoked a lot of the old pain of losing her and I had to grieve for her again. Painful.

Then I caught COVID. Yup, right after I came home from the hospital. They didn’t know to test me then for it so they tested me for influenza and everything else but it came back negative. I knew it was COVID because I had a fever of 103 for a week, no taste and no smell and no energy. I just wanted to sleep forever. The pain of COVID drove me over the edge and at this time I also had suicidal thoughts because I felt like life would never be the same for me. I felt so beaten down first by the surgery and then by covid that I started entertaining thoughts of ending my life really to end the pain. Painful.

After I recovered from both the surgery and COVID, I was ready to go back to work but of course the state mandated quarantine came in and I was out of business for three months. In those three months I had to let my whole staff go and downsize from two offices to one. I moved classes and services online and survived but the intense work of completely reorganizing my life and career while still having fresh stitches from my surgery proved too much and I broke the stitches. I now had a very LARGE open wound that put my health back into jeopardy. Doctors were throwing around words like second surgery and at home daily nurse aide which did happen. Everyday I had to endure a nurse pushing a cotton swab INTO the open wound to check the length of it before she cleaned and bandaged it. I remember I would lie there and not cry but tears would silently roll down my cheeks.

You reach a point where there are no more words beyond the pain, you just accept it and receive it without objection.

Beyond Painful.

I recovered. Took me four months but the wound healed, no second surgery was needed and then the business I own somehow miraculously thrived. Whew. We are now in the middle of 2020 and I am beginning to feel……hopeful. Life may get back to what it used to be right? We will come out of this right?

Of course we will but not before one last painful experience, the biggest one of them all-the end of a 5 year relationship with my soulmate, my business partner and my best friend.

I called it off in August due to private reasons and it….broke me. Beyond painful. Gut wrenching tragedy is how I would classify it. This man was MY man and to be my man for all of eternity. But as incidents go, it wasn’t meant to be and when it was time to go, I did. Obediently but not willingly. He was my everything and I really at this point wanted to just give up. Really give up.

I made a will and I made plans with the Universe to check out. No I wasn’t contemplating suicide (heck no!) but I was just in a place of….. acceptance. I couldn’t see how I could move forward in any area of my life- health wise, career, personally or romantically.

Everything died in 2020 and I wanted to die with them.

Painful endings.

And this is where my gratitude came in.

Because the pain that was constant for 8 months did something to me. At first the pain did just that, caused me pain! Hot seering, burning, blinding pain where you rather die than continue on.

But it’s funny being human….we tend to adapt.

After a few months of some of the most excruciating pain I have ever felt (my wound healing needs a seperate blog), I learned to live with pain. It no longer bothered me. I awoke with it and went to bed with it. I made peace with it and pain in some ways even became my friend.

I learned how to read pain. Seering pain meant slow down Uma. This is all you can handle. Constant pain became the backdrop to my life and I learned to smile while gripping my leg to ease it. I learned how to carry on a conversation with a nurse while she jabbed cotton swabs into my open and raw flesh without wincing or screaming. I learned to share love with others even when love left my bed. I learned how to give this year.

That is what pain taught me, how to give.

And I gave. Oh God how I gave.

I gave money to help struggling families even when I was struggling.

I gave my time to arrange house visits and meal plans for struggling families even when I had no time or meals for myself.

I gave tears for others’ pains over mine.

I gave energy to keep others going even when I was drowning.

I kept going because I was going to be damned if pain would win over me.

And you know what? It didn’t.

It gave up and in giving up, it released me to a whole new life. A life I couldn’t see because I was too steeped in pain. A life that is so much different than before. A life I dreamed of.

My health is better than ever and I’ve lost quite a bit of weight and continuing to drop as my new body gets into the flow of LIVING.

My career started to flourish because as I let go of things and people, the presence of ME became more apparent and who knew? The people wanted ME all along. I started booking up and classes were filled again. I was in awe.

My relationships got interestingly better. I now surround myself with girlfriends who are open to authenticity and vulnerability. We don’t hide who we are from each other. We share our mistakes openly and our regrets as much as we do our joys and happiness. I feel supported and truly loved for who I am not who people want me to be.

And love…..well in the love department, that door is still open but I will say this. I have met some incredible men that have motivated me to believe in love again. One in particular opened my heart so wide, it shocked me. I feel like a teenager in high school again when I am around him and that in of itself is worth the experience of dating him regardless of if it works out or not. He gave me the desire to love again and I will be eternally grateful to him for that small mercy.

So this Thanksgiving I am alive and healthy, I am with my family in South FL and I am surrounded on a daily basis by love and truth. I am so incredibly thankful and grateful for the pain of this year.

Friends, we all went through the ringer of 2020, but after reading this little blog of mine, I ask you…..are you grateful for your pain too? Can you see the rainbow after the dark clouds? What did this blog mean to you and what awareness do you have now of your own pain and the lessons it brought?

I hope you do take the time to reflect on these questions because whether I know you or not, this is my prayer for you. “Be happy, be healthy, be peaceful, be love and in the end, do not fear pain, embrace it.”

Be it all because you deserve it.

Happy Thanksgiving and I love you.

xo Uma

Uma Alexandra Beepat is the published author of the Awakened Life by Balboa Press Publishing and the owner of The Lotus and The Light Metaphysical Center in NOVA.

Uma is a bonafide mystic who looks to the patterns and signs in life and lives accordingly. She is also a wild gypsy queen that is a Capricorn Sun, Gemini Moon and Sag Rising. Fun times!

Fight or Flight? Neither! Let’s Flow xo

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Welcome September!

I feel almost like screaming, “GET ME OFF THIS ROLLER COASTER!”

2020 has really been a year hasn’t it? I feel like I have been through the mud several times over and I am deserving of a much needed bath. Rinse and Repeat.

As we face the last quarter of this year, do you find yourself mentally preparing for the fight or flight that will come?

You know, I USE to. I use to anticipate struggles with this mindset and it never worked. Why? Simple, check out the energy behind the actions.

FIGHT- If I choose to stay and fight in a struggle, I am filled with lots of emotions of a lower kind (fear, dread, anger, terror). No one stays to fight because they are filled with love, compassion and understanding. We are ready for WAR and there inevitably will be a winner and a loser. Who wants that?

FLIGHT- If I choose to run from struggles, I am still filled with lots of emotions of a lower nature (fear, worry, anxiety, regret, depression, sadness). No one runs away from struggle thinking, “I am really showing some self love here by not facing an opportunity that has the potential for strong growth within me.”

That’s why these two options feel so heavy because it is not representative of who we are as people.

We were made to love, to crave connection and to desire true intimacy with each other. We are not made to fight or run from connections or experiences so we need to rework these old programmings in our heads.

For me, I choose neither fight nor flight, I choose flow.

FLOW- An option to allow you to stay in the midst of struggle and treat each situation on a case by case basis in a minute by minute breakdown.

Feels lighter already.

We will have many changes coming up as we end 2020, we have the obvious repeat offenders of CoVid19, race wars and pending elections but on top of that, we also have internal struggles we face as we lose jobs/careers, love/relationships or shift into new territories either geographically or spiritually.

Learn to flow and then, no matter what comes your way, you will be prepared to handle it according to your true nature……your nature of love and connection.

Here are three tips I use to allow myself to FLOW through tricky situations or sticky issues, I hope they bring you some clarity and awareness as much as they have for me.

  1. Make a rule-There are NO rules!

In Access Consciousness, I learned that an infinite being (us) can change our mind every 10 seconds. Why? Because when we start to live according to energy, we can allow ourselves to move as the energy moves us.

I have loved/disliked many, many people in many, many 10 second increments and it has been a huge relief for me. When you realize that your perception can change, it doesn’t box you in to force you to fight or run. It allows you to see people or situations as a constant change and therefore accept it. Try it! You can say something like, “In this 10 seconds I am really angry with you but I am open to that changing.”

This is a great way to honor what you feel and then also let the person or situation know that they do not have power over you because you determine how you feel not someone else’s actions.

2. Make no Committments

Whenever I RSVP for an event, I message the host to let them know that it depends on the day on how i feel and whether I will show up or not. I know in this world that sounds flaky but think about it for a second. Do you want someone to attend your event who doesn’t want to be there? Wouldn’t you rather them stay home?

Many struggles come about from trying to keep commitments. Let’s say you and your partner are suppose to go to a party and you decide not to go. You can either create a fight with them to allow you to stay home (gasp not you!) or you can run away from how you truly feel and go with your partner thereby sacrificing your desire. Either case, you aren’t going to have a good time because you aren’t honoring the flow of energy around you.

In the beginning, your circle may dislike this new part of you but in time they learn to accept it and even love it! Because now my circle knows when I show up, I am going to SHOW UP and have a good time! They may miss me in the frequency but they appreciate me in the quality.

3. Live an Obligation Free Life

When we do things out of obligation, it feels heavy because we aren’t doing it to honor ourselves, we usually do it to make someone else happy. This stinks.

Obligation is created by guilt. You don’t fulfill an obligation because you WANT to, you fulfill it because you HAVE to.

An easy way to opt out of the blame game (I bought you this now you need to buy me this, I gave you this so now you need to give me this etc…) is to just stop.

Whenever people give me gifts or host me or do something nice for me, I spend a good amount of time to thank them appropriately and show my respect for their kindness. That’s the end of it.

If anyone was to reach out to me and ask for a favor or something in return, I let them know if I can or cannot do it based on my time. Now this may take some time getting use to doing because most of us will get saddled with guilt.

I had to work through my own guilt by reminding myself that I do not put people into obligation so I expect the same from them too. That is, to not put me into obligation.

By not accepting obligation as a necessary part of relationships, it has actually opened me up to the genuine kindness about people. People really are kind! And if we stop looking for obligations, we can actually experience something magical as kindness. It feels so so light and happy.

So yes, if you are going to fight, then fight to be in flow. If you are going to run then run towards flow. Be the flow you wish to be and open your doors to allow the stream of abundance to flow right into your life.

There is so much here we can receive even during the struggles, we just got to put our fists down and plant our feet to receive them. xo Uma

Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner of The Lotus and The Light Metaphysical Center in Manassas, VA.

Uma is a Soul Alignment Coach, Master Healer, Psychic Medium and the author of The Awakened Life.

Uma does energetic clearings through Access Consciousness and you can find out more about her work here http://www.thelotusandthelight.com

Honoring the Call- A Walk Alone

I am in Bliss right now. I wasn’t a few days ago, but that is the beauty of believing in yourself, having faith in sent messages and taking action with Spirit’s lead.
On Thursday I woke up with a message- create a paid membership group on Facebook and allow people to pay you for your inspirational posts, educational articles and free readings you do. It’s time.
I was excited and immediately contacted a few friends to invite them to do this with me. Sadly they couldn’t sign off on it for various reasons but there was one reason that stung. I had a friend who didn’t believe in me or the message and felt it wouldn’t get off the ground. I was crushed.
I nearly gave up, listening to their wisdom. At the time, it felt right what they were saying:
  • It’s thursday and you want this to happen tomorrow Friday? May 1st? Impossible!
  • I don’t think people will pay to get your posts especially when you are still on social media in other channels
  • You are sometimes impulsive and act on Spirit’s messages without thought and I really believe you should slow down and take your time with this.
They were right because logically it made sense. However, there was this call in my Soul to follow through and so I did. I spent all day Thursday working hard to create a membership group and hardly slept that night. I woke up Friday morning, took a deep breath and then went online to announce my new group. I shared the link to join (https://conta.cc/2YlXXMA) and then I waited.
Well….I didn’t have to wait long. Within 10 minutes, I had 15 people sign up and as I write you today, there are over 70 people registered and joining the group. I was and am still shocked and floored. I had a goal of 100 but it seems like within a few days I would meet that. It makes me wonder… what else does Spirit have in store for me?
This experience really made my heart smile. I was faced with a decision, either follow the logic of my well meaning friends or blindly follow my heart linked to Spirit. I chose the latter.
There are two important points I want to share about my decision and how my choices affect my day to day.
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Point 1: No Spiritual Bypassing
I could have easily seen my friends as negative, haters or debby doubters but I didn’t because the truth is, they weren’t. They were looking out for me and out of their care, voiced their opinions. 
Not everyone who says NO to you is wrong or evil or a lower level than you. They are just people and most likely, people who care about you and cannot see the vision you have because Spirit didn’t give them that vision. It was and is only yours.
Even though it stung a little to not have my friends with me on this journey, I allowed myself to release it and Trust that Spirit had a bigger and better plan for me that involved only me. I allowed myself to make the choice to move forward on my own without them even though I was nervous and afraid.
In hindsight, I see now why I needed to move ahead alone.
In just the three short days of opening the group, I have had to make last minute decisions, turn in new directions and recreate the vision! The energy is very fluid like right now and it is easier to pivot and turn as one person than as several. Spirit knows best and knew this fact too. 
I don’t have any stress of letting people down or seeming wishy washy because of several mind changes and you know what? Because it is only me behind the scenes, it is only me who have to deal with the stress! Which I did very easily.
When you receive a NO graciously, you don’t lose time and you are faster on your way to a YES that will make it worthwhile. 
By allowing myself to receive the Nos from my friends, I was able to keep them in my life AND still have success on this new project by myself. I am in all my feels right now because it feels so so good to let go of control and trust Spirit’s direction.
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Point 2: Sometimes YOU Walk Alone
No one likes to walk alone but sometimes it’s called for. I learned so much about myself, Spirit and our connection in these past few days than I have learned in awhile.
I got to experience deeply and first hand what it is like to be held and kept safe by invisible hands. I got to feel nervousness and timidity about a new launch, something I haven’t felt in years due to my experience in what I do.
I got to feel open and vulnerable, with nothing to lead me except the invisible but powerful presence of God.
I went for it and I was scared the entire way through but there was no need. They delivered on everything they said they would deliver on and I am pleased.
Looking back now, I realize that when I receive messages, I need to hold space for myself. Despite all my years in doing this work, I still have occasional feelings of, “Am I worth this? Can I do this? Why me?”
So if you struggle with these questions now, trust me when I say they never really go away but their power over you decreases.
I will still ask myself those questions from time to time but already the answer forms within me and it is a dialogue on automatic response. I get to be the observer,
“Am I worth this?
You know you are.”
” Can I do this?”
You know you will and you know we will help you.”
“Why me?”
“If not You then Who? And if we come to You then we have deemed You to be the One to do it!”
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Friends, you will be faced with decisions like this too in your lives and I hope my story brings inspiration to you. Keep following your heart and trust the messages you are receiving. Do not categorize people because they cannot or will not support you, love them where they are and trust that Spirit loves you and want what’s best for you and everyone else.
I do hope you heed your calling and step boldly (and sometimes blindly) forward in faith. Jump and trust that they will support you. I did and man….the view up here is exceptional.
xo Uma
Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner and CEO of the Lotus and The Light Metaphysical Center in Northern Virginia. Uma is a Soul Alignment Coach, Intuitive Consultant and Spiritual Mentor. You can find out more about Uma at http://www.thelotusandthelight.com
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Love Scares Me

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So it had to happen eventually……after being single for a few months, it was time to date and date I did.

I have to say that I entered the dating world innocently enough and with high optimism. I will meet a few people, check it out and go out on some safe socially distanced dates. No problem. How hard could this be?

Wrong. Entirely wrong. It’s a hot mess out here and the singles who have been single longer than a year are fucking weird. Like their requests and their moves, all foreign to me.

I was about to give up and just join the nunnery for the remainder of my life when one caught my eye. He….is…..gorgeous.

But not just like pretty boy gorgeous (which he is) but SOUL gorgeous. Someone who I can’t stop looking at…well his eyes in particular. Without meeting him, I knew he was a good person. It just poured out of him.

We met and my instincts were right. He was such a good and nice guy. The problems began with me because frankly I was overwhelmed. Here was a man who was gorgeous, inside and outside, well educated, cultured, funny and definitely attracted to me. We kissed…..and I lost myself.

I left that date unable to stop thinking about him. Just replaying all the video clips of our short time together and wishing I stayed longer. Then he texted me and said the same thing-that he couldn’t stop thinking about me. I became overwhelmed.

If you know or have anxiety, you can understand the rest of this story and if you don’t….well you are about to get schooled.

Overwhelming feelings aren’t good for someone with high anxiety. Couple that with my incessant need to overthink and overanalyze everything (thanks Gemini moon) and I spiraled out of control.

I can’t tell you what he does but let’s just say his work requires him to be in places where his phone is not allowed. So even though this sweet person makes me a priority and makes sure to text me everyday, it wasn’t enough. I spiraled into thinking that he had other women and he was playing me. So I told him that it was ok he was seeing other people to which he denied appropriately as he has no reason to lie to me.

I then began to second guess myself in relation to him. I am not pretty enough or smart enough or confident enough. I struggled y’all, really struggled to be OK but I wasn’t. I met someone who made my heart desire him and only him. I no longer wanted to date other people, I only wanted him and get this……he offered himself to me. Completely in the first few weeks told me without doubt that I could have all of him if I wanted. That he wanted to build a life with me and grow together.

And I froze. I panicked and acted all sorts of crazy.

I started dating other men more but without interest. I started pulling away from this guy and creating drama. One night I couldn’t take it anymore and ended it with him. He was polite and let it go. But I couldn’t.

I waited 12 hours then wrote him that I was sorry and I took it back and asked him to forgive me, which he did. Then he said something that brought peace to my soul. When I asked him if he still wanted to pursue this, he said, “I am open to it but I want you to understand what you are dealing with. I am nowhere near stupid and I allowed myself to be totally open. We connected on all types of things.”

And there it was, the truth in plainsight. Because his truth is my truth too.

I am NOT stupid. I AM open and if I invited this man, this experience into my life, then why for God’s sake am I running from it?

And why is it so hard to believe that I manifested the perfect mate for me? Have I not been doing my inner work all year? Have I not been focused on creating a life I could truly enjoy? Do I not deserve all the good things?

He showed up- the path is presented and I have two choices. I can walk this path or I can leave it alone. Of course I am going to walk it and again two scenarios. I come out of this hurt and pained or I come out of this with more abundance. Either way, I still learn and grow in the process.

So here I am, letting go of my fears and insecurities of all that can go wrong because it has in the past and timidly looking to a future where things actually go right.

And you know what? If it doesn’t go right? I still wouldn’t stop dreaming because its time. It’s my time to receive all the abundance that is promised to me. Love included.

Wish me luck my blog fans! Let’s see where this goes and you can trust and believe, I will be back on here to talk about it, keeping his identity a secret of course.

In ending, here is my advice and point of this blog. Yes love is scary and yes sometimes it is easier to put up barriers to love because it is safer being alone. However, one day your heart will meet someone who makes it excited. Allow it to explore the opportunity. There is something here that I promise you, will be worth the fear. So feel it but do it anyways. You owe yourself that experience more than anything.

xo Uma

Uma Alexandra Beepat is a published author of the Awakened Life by Balboa Press Publishing, the owner of the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center and a hopeless romantic who believes in soul centered love.

Looking for Peace Within & Without

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Sometimes we can be faced with so many overwhelming things that it feels necessary to run and hide or lash out. Sometimes we feel like that is our only choice.

Not necessarily and truth be told, either of those choices rarely lead you to where you want to be anyways.

The best thing to do as life quickly changes around you is to be present, be aware and stay focused on creating more joy and peace in your life. You do that by getting in touch with your higher Self or your intuition and taking direction from them.

I know, you are going to say but UMA! I can’t get quiet or create space for reflection when things are happening. I need to address what is happening!

Well yes and no. Yes if there is a fire on your stove, you need to put it out ASAP. Agreed. But if you are involved in a fight with a partner or feeling out of sorts with friends…you don’t necessarily need to have the answers right away.

You can take time to let it set and wait for more information to present. You can take the path of least resistance and allow things to unfold naturally. I had a friend who use to like saying, “I give people enough rope to hang themselves.”
I add to that by saying either they do and things get revealed or nothing is amiss and we can take the rope and play hop scotch!

As you go through this week, I ask you to do the same. It’s a testy time for many people so with fuses short, it takes literally anything to set someone off. Don’t get into it.

Hold space for everyone around you who is feeling these heavier energies and also for yourself. Take as many time outs as you need and if someone goes off on you, then withdraw. Don’t engage.

This past week I have taken the path of least resistance all week and it has been an enjoyable experience for me. I no longer have expectations of others and so when they show up in a nice way, it’s a pleasant surprise that I enjoy. If they let me down then I release them with loving kindness and keep it moving without judging their behavior.

We are nearly out of 2020 and at this point we don’t know if 2021 is our saving grace or the next sequel to 2020. While we can’t control the future, we can plan for the present moment by just doing the best we can with what we are given.

That my friends is staying present and aware. Enjoy it and be well this week.

xo UMA

Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner of the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center in Northern VA. You can learn more about Uma and her center http://www.thelotusandthelight.com

Don’t feel good about it? Fix it!

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If you have been following social media, you may have seen me go through some visible changes over the past few weeks.

From the outside looking in, you may think, “Uma is in a world of drama!”

BUT actually I am not.

All of these changes were foreseen and I have been ready for them for quite some time. How?

Well about 12 weeks ago my friend Paulina and I decided to trade weekly Access Consciousness body process and BARS sessions in an effort to revamp our lives and make us manifesting machines. Whoa!

While we were prepared, we had NO IDEA just how much our lives would change with these weekly sessions! I started to live for myself and not for other people’s expectations. I started having way more fun than I have had in a long time. Sometimes I laugh so much, my cheeks hurt and that has happened twice this week alone!

As with everything positive, there is a negative association and for me it was the identification of certain events, people and situations from my life that was just beginning to feel heavy.

Getting rid of events and situations are easy because they are products without feeling. Changing relationships in your life is a bit harder because you have to take into account how someone feels and try your best to do it in such a way that they leave feeling empowered and not broken.

I always remember a favorite quote from Brenee Brown to deal with situations like this. It says, “Who you are is how you lead.”

My intent is not to hurt people and to also honor my change of heart. So with each situation, I walk carefully to honor them and me and pray to the highest Goddesses, that it all works out beautifully.

I can say without a doubt, so far it has. I’ve managed to release some working partnerships that no longer felt light to me while still respecting my business associates.

When you are faced with a situation you don’t feel good about, it is quite easy to change, the question is not HOW you can change it but IF you want to.

When I work as a life coach in helping people reset their mindsets, the biggest obstacle I come across is their desire to have a changed outcome without actually committing to any behavior changes. The desire is there but it is not strong enough to warrant change.

I am going to share with you three of my own personal tips that I use to create change in my life when I don’t feel good. I hope it brings joy and lightness to your life as it has for me!

  1. Be Realistic about your Plan and Outcome

When I am creating change about something in my life, the first thing I do is have a self pep talk about what will go down. For instance, it was brought to my attention recently that my October retreat was not selling as many tickets as it normally does for this time of year. Here was my pep talk:

Ok Uma you know from past experience that this retreat should have been sold by now but it hasn’t. Whatever the reason (COVID, Financial struggles, Lack of interest), it feels good to let it go. You know you may experience backlash from the community and the few people who already signed up and prepaid but brace yourself for it. Create time this week to deal with these energies and don’t get stressed. You got this!

By talking to myself (haha) and being realistic about the struggle that is coming up (cancelling an event, refunding clients, taking down ads) it puts me in a mindset of readiness for what is to come as oppose to lying to myself about it and then being caught unawares. Be prepared by facing the outcome and getting yourself mentally and energetically ready for it.

2. Put yourself First

There is a tendency in our lives to want to take care of others before taking care of ourselves first. Call it being a mom or a nurturer or just giving a damn, we like to help people.

Usually that is A-OK however not when you are dealing with a struggle that involves you. Make the committment and put measures in place to honor your thoughts, feelings and emotions and then look to taking care of others.

When you do this, you will feel lighter through the whole situation because you are simultaneously handling stress and providing means for your self care. It IS possible to come out of an unhappy situation feeling peaceful. Make the commitment to yourself first, honor it and it will give you the courage you need to address the struggle in your life.

When I recently went through the craziness in my own life, I kept setting up trades with my friends for my self care and scheduling days and weekends off to regroup and take care of me. I also allowed myself to move at whatever rate felt good. Some days I didn’t do a darn thing and some days I was up until 3am working. Honoring yourself and your energy takes many forms, learn to judge less and BE more.

3. Practice Heavy and Light Exercises

One of my favorite exercises (you probably had enough hearing about it) is the heavy light. According to Access Consciousness, what feels heavy to you is a LIE and what feels light to you is your TRUTH.

Hey Uma, do you want to go swimming with sharks?”

Hell NO! Immediately I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach so I KNOW it’s a lie to me!

Hey Uma, do you want to go on all expenses paid spa day trip with me?”

Yes Please! Immediately my shoulders relaxed and I felt a “brightening” around my heart. Message received.

The bottom line in dealing with not so good feelings is to be aware of that fact and work through it as best as you can. Sometimes we can do it on our own, sometimes we need the help of our social circles and sometimes we need professional help.

Don’t make a judgment, do what feels light to you and work at it. Your day in the sun is near so don’t get lost in the clouds. xo Uma

Uma Alexandra Beepat is a Soul Alignment Coach, Psychic Medium and Owner of the Lotus and the LIght Metaphysical Center. http://www.thelotusandthelight.com

Do You Need A Reading?

First of all, you don’t NEED a reading! You can desire a reading to provide more information into a specific situation. Not a need but a desire.

Most times people clam up when I talk about this stuff. Why? Well instead of explaining it, I can show it to you.

Today I received this message in my dm:

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Ya know……. it’s stuff like this that gives my line of work a bad name.

Sigh, don’t worry folks. I wouldn’t ever reach out to you and tell you this.

Readings are meant to validate what you already know. The truth is we already have inner knowledge of where we are going but yet sometimes we hesitate or have confusion. That’s when you get a reading.

Most of my clients already know the answer and my readings provide them the validation and confidence they need to make the next step.

Sometimes I see things they don’t see because in addition to being a reader, I am a seer. It is an ability I had since I was a child that developed and got more accurate and stronger over the years. In those situations, my seership proves invaluable as it allows my client to prepare for what will come.

Case in point, I read for a few people this year in January as an annual reading. I predicted sudden upsets to their lives and through my guidance, they were able to prepare for what was coming.

None of us KNEW it was Covid but my readings readied them and they were! Several clients wrote me by March to validate the reading and how it helped them so much.

My own readings also gave me this guidance last summer and I was able to prepare ahead of time for this year.

Most people when they reach out to me, have no idea what an intuitive reading is so I wanted to break it down a bit and explain what I do.

Firstly I do three specific types of readings that I will share now including my why and how of what I do.

 

  1. Mediumship Readings- this option is for people who want to connect with a loved one who has passed and is on the other side.

Why:

Most times people want to know that their loved one made it to the other side safely and if they had any last messages for them.

How:

The critic might say that I can make up stuff to tell them and yes they are correct. However as an evidential medium, my task is to provide solid evidence on the person to the client, information they can verify. This weans out the fakes and wannabes who pull on generic information that can be used for multiple people.

When I connect with a loved one on the other side, I present evidential material to my client and once it is validated then I can move on to a message from them. Its a form of checks and balances I use to ensure the quality of the connection and to ensure there is a smooth delivery of communication between the living and the dead.

 

2. Spiritual Assessments- this reading is for people who would like spiritual guidance from their Spirit team.

Why: Sometimes in life we can feel lost or stuck and would like spiritual guidance from a higher Source into our situation. This is the reading people book.

How: In this instance I am not travelling to the realms of the dead for connection, I am going UP to higher realms of consciousness to bring information from people’s spirit guides and guardian angels. I do this by changing my levels of perception and contacting the Spirit world. I have been doing this since as a child so this work comes quite naturally for me and it is my favorite type of reading to do because it helps people understand where they are and where they need to focus on to keep going. Very helpful.

 

3. Intuitive Readings – this option is for people who have specific questions they would like answers to.

Why: Sometimes people feel stuck or confused into which direction to move into. This reading can help by bringing answers from the spiritual realms to provide guidance in next steps.

How: Usually I use tarot cards along with divination tools to help me gain these answers for people. I can see the past, the present and the future in these types of readings and I usually communicate with the higher consciousness of the person or their spirit guides for the answers. Most times when I bring answers, the client already knows the answer so it brings great relief and validation for their next steps.

Doing readings bring me joy because it allows me to truly help people from a spiritual place when they are feeling less than positive or happy. I love to see people happy and thriving so when they leave a reading happy, it makes me happy.

Sometimes I get people who are unhappy with the reading because the messages are not what they want to hear. This usually happens in cases of love readings because due to my ethics, I do not read another person aside from the client without their permission. You would be surprised how many nosey mothers or possessive girlfriends need this! When I refuse to do it, they can get mad or vengeful but I keep my stance because ethically it is wrong to do.

When someone comes to me for a relationship reading, I let them know that I cannot read the person without their permission but I can ask Spirit what advice they would like to give you. Most times people understand and are happy with that and it tends to work out well.

Readings can be helpful if you work with someone who has experience and integrity in this field.

If you have never had a reading, here is my advice for you when booking one.

  1. Find a reader to give you the session you desire. If you want a mediumship reading, find a medium. If you want a spiritual assessment, find a spiritual advisor and if you want an intuitive reading, find a psychic.

2. Whichever reader you go with, experience is preferred. Don’t be shy to ask your reader about their experience and demand for facts not generalities. When people check me out, I can easily tell them I have been doing this for 11 years and have provided over 10,000 private sessions in healing and readings. I also teach tarot workshops and host three mentorship development programs annually.

3. Do your research and check them out on social media. You can pick up on the tone and energy of a reader by what they post and see if it is in alignment with your energy and beliefs.

4. And finally, find someone you are magnetically pulled to. There are just some people you feel good around and that helps. When you feel comfortable with someone, you will trust them more and the reading will flow easily. Remember it is all based on energy and intent so starting with someone you like is a sure fire way to find your way to a great experience.

I hope you liked this article and if so, please feel free to leave a comment! I look forward to meeting you or reading for you sometime in the future. Until then, many blessings for a peaceful life. xo Uma

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Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner of the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center in Manassas, VA.

Uma is a Psychic Medium, Soul Alignment Coach and Spiritual Teacher and Mentor. Uma wrote the Awakened Life and is a retreat facilitator for the New Year New You Retreat in January and Living the Awakened Life Retreat in October.

To find out more about Uma visit http://www.thelotusandthelight.com

A return to decency?

Over the past four days I watched the DNC virtual summit and I have to tell you, I feel good.

I woke up today feeling light. I realized in this moment that for the first time in four years, I feel a little safer. I didn’t realize I was on edge, anxious and waiting for the next shoe to drop. Are we really returning to decency?

Trump was sworn in 2017 and it didn’t take long for a knot to form in my stomach. As a woman and a person of color, I was terrified seeing the build up before he was voted in. But being the holistic person I am, I allowed myself to be  cautiously optimistic because well, if he was voted in, he may do a good job right?

Wrong.

I am going to list below ONLY things that caused me anxiety and worry as a person of color. If I had to list items pertaining to me as a woman and part of the LGBTQ community, we would be here all day.

I am sharing this for perspective. Many of you may not be in my shoes- a woman, a person of color, an immigrant, a single mom with two small kids and a small business owner.

I want to share what life was like for me over the past four years and how I am fighting for a different four years.

No matter who wins this election in the US, I am praying and manifesting peace for us all. We have been divided too long and need to find our common ground of decency and respect.

Below I share certain things that happened that personally affected me. Please read with an open mind. xo

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Only four days after his inauguration, I remember feeling that knot in my stomach when he signed executive orders to advance construction of the keystone and Dakota access pipelines that would taint drinking water and threatening sacred grounds for native Americans. Obama had blocked it. He was undoing it and watching the pain of our first people protest this made me unwell. I couldn’t help but think, “if he is attacking the rights of one group of people, would other groups follow?”

I didn’t have to wait long because the next day he signed an executive order to both bolster the United States deportation force and direct construction of a wall along the Mexican border. The executive order also expanded the definition of “priority for deportation” to include anyone charged with a criminal offense. This meant that people could be deported for even minor offenses such as traffic violations and shoplifting. I was terrified! I am a citizen but also an immigrant! Would there be cause for me to leave? The knot tightened.

In January 27, 2017 he signed what would become known as the ”travel ban,” an executive order which imposed a 90-day ban on citizens from seven Muslim-majority countries from entering the United States, while also indefinitely halting incoming refugees from Syria. Half my family is Muslim but not from these countries. It still affected us though because our thoughts at the time were again, “if them now, when will it be our turn?” I remember my dad and mom talking about moving back to our home country when these news broke and I was contemplating the same thing.

Then the unthinkable happened in August 12 2017: Charlottesville. I don’t even have to remind you. I was nauseous watching the news cover this event in my own backyard in a town only two hours from my own home. Beyond scared for my life isn’t even half of it. I remember kissing and hugging my boys who were growing too quickly into looking like men. Black men and Indian men and that was just as scary.

July 14th 2019: In a series of tweets, Trump attacked four congresswomen of color: Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, Ilhan Omar, Rashida Tlaib and Ayanna Pressley. He said they “originally came from countries whose governments are a complete and total catastrophe.” Trump suggested that they “go back and help fix the totally broken and crime-infested places from which they came.” Ocasio-Cortez was born in New York, Tlaib in Detroit, and Pressley in Cincinnati. If he had no problem tearing down actual American born women, what would he do to someone like me? A naturalized citizen not born here?

There are more, lots more but these I remember.

In the two decades I have been a part of America, I have felt safe enough to exist without carrying a gun and having cameras on my security system. That changed during this presidency.

As much as this sounds like a political post, it is not. It is a genuine cry from someone for peace and harmony. I dedicated my life to service and serving my community at the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center. I have seen different people come in with different races, classes, religions, cultures and more but yet we all maintain a decent amount of decorum when interacting with each other.

As you read this, I ask for one thing- be kind.

As we approach November we are in the thick of election season. Just be kind. There are so many of us fighting private battles that no one knows about and lashing out to someone about their choice of vote is unnecessary.

In the end, love wins and we can count on that. xo Uma

Pivot Like Crazy

As quickly as I was hit with bad news this week is as quickly as I turned it around. That my dears is what we call a pivot in the coaching business.
August was looking really bright to me because I was about to embark on not one but TWO vacations! I was going to make my annual trip to Lilydale to see my beloved friend Joseph and stay at his guesthouse (Southern Comfort Inn) and then my kids and I were headed to the beach to celebrate my son’s birthday.
WELL! The audacity of COVID19 to upset my plans! (some humor here). I found out that both NY and SC required Virginia residents to quarantine for two weeks if we went. There goes the vacations.
On top of that, my mom was suppose to bring my kids back from Florida and she was now a little apprehensive about making the trip to Virginia and being stuck with us, leaving my dad alone. Turbulent times for sure.
We had a group phone call with my partner, my parents and me on the phone. My dad suggested that we come get my kids and in that way, my parents could see me.
Pivot.
I ran with it because i knew that my spidey senses were telling me to get my kids home quicker than I planned so I contacted and apologized profusely to my friend about not coming to New York and I contacted the travel agent to cancel the Myrtle Beach trip. I then shifted all my classes to allow us to drive down to Florida and head back before any more state closures happened.
I am racing against the clock but strangely enough, I feel calm. Part of my work as a spiritual coach is to help people through difficult situations in a calm and thoughtful manner. In a way, I guess my years of coaching people through these situations allowed me to stay calm as well.
What did I do? Three things to be exact and I share them here with you:
1) Remain Calm
When things don’t go your way, be honest, your IMMEDIATE reaction is to freak out. I get it, I do it too but now we are going to change it.
First you are going to allow yourself that initial freak out because well, its a natural response from you to stress. Once you had the experience, you are going to talk to yourself by asking questions to lighten the mood.
Start with, “How does it get better than this?” then go into “Okay, what is the good in this I am not seeing but would like to see?” and finally end with, “How can I pivot this to make it fun and a success for me?”
Even saying it, I feel lighter already. Don’t you? 🙂
2) Be Flexible
The important thing in a pivot is to not hold too tightly to the importance of the previous plan. You have to let that ish go. It’s done, dead in the water, kaput.
Remind yourself that you have choices and if you make the right choices in the right timing, this can actually work out in your favor! So be open to hearing other viewpoints and once you hear one that LIGHTS you up, there! That’s your answer! Run with it to step 3.
3) Don’t Hesitate-Make the Moves
My dad can be credited for the suggestion of us coming to Florida to get my kids yes! But I can be credited to moving quickly to have little to no casualty.
As soon as he made the comment, I felt light and I ran with it. I contacted the two hotels to cancel our reservations and ask for our refunds and then I rescheduled my classes to allow for drive time. I informed my partner as quickly as I could so he could shift his schedule too.
I had to move quickly because if I didn’t, this unfortunate change of plans could have become bigger. I could have had clients and students on the books who would have been upset with me for the last minute notice. I could have qualified for no refunds. It could have been worse.
When you find your way in the pivot, it is important to make the next steps quickly. You can’t second guess yourself now or allow others to taint your drive. Get it done and then after you can think about what you did.
As did I and you know what? I found even more hidden little gems.
After all plans were made, I had time to reflect on the experience. I was still a little sad at not seeing my friend and missing the beach so I did a YES/BUT exercise. This is what I do when I am down. It’s a way of BUTTING out of the sadness. It looks like this,
“Yes I will miss seeing Joseph this year BUT I can see him next year! Also we spent some good time this year working together and he plans to assist me with my current class so I get to see him again!”
“Yes I will miss going to Myrtle Beach BUT I went earlier this year in June and had a great time! I will look forward to going again in 2021 when things are safer.”
“Yes I am sorry my mom isn’t bringing my kids back and staying with me for a bit BUT I still get to see her and my dad. eat her delicious cooking, hang out at their pool and see my kids!”
See? It gets lighter.
I found myself pivoting like crazy in 2020. If you have been resisting change, I hope you can find these suggestions helpful and try them out. Who knows, you might actually start to enjoy the changes as it gives you a chance to exert your pivot power!
This week, be open and ready for change and when they come? Pivot like crazy!
xo Uma
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Riding the Waves of Ascension

Yesterday was a significant day in numerology as the date 4/4/2020 shows up as 444. And as you probably guessed it, everyone around the world was involved in some sort of meditation/gathering to pray/reiki/wish/manifest the virus away. I was not one of them.
I do not doubt that many people attending these gatherings had the best intentions but sometimes ignorance is not bliss, it is downright harmful.
Ascension is a lengthy process and it is often filled with rife and struggle, pain and discomfort.
While it would be easy to rid the planet of the virus through a combined collective of all our intentions, my polite question is, “Why?”
We are in the midst of an ascension process (in my opinion only not facts!) and it is about to get ugly. If we stop now, what would we have accomplished? A half journey to enlightenment and change? All those souls who passed on during this time, would their passing be in vain?
There is no right or wrong answer here, just theories and philosophy. The beauty of having a mind is to use it and create thoughts about current events.
Here are mine: We are experiencing the biggest global ascension right now moving firmly from a 3D world focus on material gain into the 5D world of unconditional love and compassion. The shift is happening NOW and many of us will make it but some will not.
The most important thing (again IMO) to do right now is to practice Ahimsa (non-violence) to ourselves and others. We can practice Ahimsa for ourselves by allowing ourselves to feel all that we feel without judgment and for others by holding space for them and forgiving them when they have a bad day or a rough time going through this. They may take it out on you and that’s when you can hold space for them.
We all wanted this didn’t we? To ascend to that next level but we didn’t expect it to come at such a cost or with so much pain. That’s ok, there is no “I told you so” coming from me, only love. Sweet love as I hold you my dear brothers and sisters in light and comfort.
Even if you did participate in the global meditations, your heart was in the right place and you meant well. So now, don’t wish this virus away.
Let nature run the course, let’s pray for our loved ones to be safe and sound and pray that we and them do not get swept up in the aftermath. Let us pray to hold the line and stay optimistic even on the darkest days. Because in the end, we need each other and it is perfectly ok to say that.
xo Uma
PS- I will be doing a talk on youtube about ascension and deprogramming on Wednesday April 15th.