This is an important time in history and by that, I am referring to the Dr. Christine Blasey Ford’s testimony against Brett Kavanaugh. It is important on a personal scale between these two people, on a community scale as the decisions are made to appoint or not appoint Kavanaugh and on a global scale as the Divine Feminine energy rises around the world.
Whichever side you are on, whatever your beliefs or opinions, it’s about to get ugly….. and not for reasons you think.
- The pain is still fresh years later
For many women and men who have been sexually abused or put in uncomfortable positions, this case is reopening old wounds. I have heard the testimony from Dr. Ford myself and it created a lot of discomfort and unease within me due to my own sexual abuse history. I watched Brett Kavanaugh defend his name and deny the claims, and it angered me as I personally thought of my own attacker and how he would act if I called him out.
Even though many of us suffered sexual abuse or misconduct at the hands of another many years ago, no amount of time or healing will wipe that memory clean. It still hurts on some level.
I have been active in my personal healing concerning this issue and for many years I thought I had a grip on it. I was able to heal my past, forgive my attackers, cut old cords and even get involved in a loving relationship with my soulmate. I am the mom of two boys and I am able to provide unconditional love and acceptance to them as boys who will later become men. Life was rosy, clean and full until….until it wasn’t.
As I sat glued to the TV screen watching in discomfort as Dr. Ford rehashed her memory of the event, I felt sad. As the senators grilled her and asked the questions, I felt anger. Many of those questions I could have answered myself.
“Yes I didn’t come forward because I didn’t think anyone would believe me or it wouldn’t get addressed.”
“Yes I only came forward now because circumstances created forced me to.”
As you can see, I am writing from a personal perspective….and this is what I want you to be aware of. That everyone who is watching this unfold, will come from a personal perspective.
- People who have been abused will identify with this event in support of Dr. Ford
- People who have been in Kavanaugh’s shoes or close to it, will try to simmer it down or be less involved with it, hoping for it to go away.
- People who have not been abused but have loved ones who have, will be in support of Dr. Ford.
The list can go on. On some level, it affects us all. Whether it affects you personally or you are a parent of daughters and think of their lives….it will affect us.
So my request is for us to be kind to each other. As we create space to hear each other’s viewpoints on this matter, let us not only see from our viewpoint but from others as well.
2. Men are being held accountable
It is no coincidence that Dr. Ford’s testimony came the same week Bill Cosby was sentenced to prison for a number of years. The Divine Feminine principle is on the rise and many are already hearing and feeling her call. Women are being asked (no longer politely) to stand up, unite and fight back against the men who were not honoring the Divine Masculine principle in healthy ways.
Not all men are to blame. We KNOW this. If you are a man and worried about being attacked for being a man, you are not getting the idea. ONLY men who have abused the privilege of masculine energy, love and higher principles are being called to the bar right now. Only those who fed on the weak, are on trial right now. So let’s not make this a divide between the male and female societies. It is a call to conscious trial for those who have abused power. Innocent men are not blamed or called up and for innocent men I thank you for living in unity with the Divine Feminine principle within yourselves and with the women in society. May you continue to grow in love, strength and spirituality.
This call to trial is not to humiliate or demoralize the accused either. At least I don’t believe so. I believe it is the Universe’s way to get the wayward Soul to go straight again, at least before they check out of this earth school.
Bill Cosby will have alot of time to think and hopefully make amends with his past behavior while in jail. No interviews, shows or books to write-just him and the walls. May he come clean to himself at least and receive his awareness at the age of 81. Better late than never.
The same for Brett Kavanaugh. At some point, I hope he is able to look at his situation from another perspective and see why his actions were hurtful to another. Ego will probably keep him from sharing that awareness with anyone else and that is fine. It takes a big person to admit their mistakes. If he can at least see it from Dr. Ford’s perspective and from the perspective of others who have come out with allegations against him, it may be a big learning lesson for him.
Let us not allow this event to divide us, but to unite us in compassion for each other and for ourselves. Women can do the same things men can do. They can abuse the Divine Feminine principle as well. As we continue to watch events unfold, let us remember this. One bad apple does not ruin a barrel of apples. Similarly we do not throw out a barrel of apples over one bad apple. It is about justice within reason, compassion and servitude. May we work together to heal our society.
3. Awareness is growing in our society
I know for myself I am becoming much more mindful of my own behavior and speech towards others. I liked to call myself the “truth teller” or the “strict teacher” because I am passionate about helping people move past their excuses and getting on their path of success. I love hearing people talk about their goals in life and even more so when they make me part of it. I feel its my duty to help them get there when they entrust their lives in my hands.
As these worldly events unfold, I am taking a deeper look at myself and how my passion for helping may come across to those I am helping. Is it really helpful? Is it actually hurting more than helping?
I can see awareness growing in myself as I ask these questions and I know that other people in society are also having the same awakening.
We will never be perfect, we don’t need to be. What we need to do though is understand our roles, be compassionate with ourselves and others and do our best every chance we get.
Whatever the outcome with Dr. Ford and Brett Kavanaugh, I am praying for both of them to receive healing, grow in awareness of self and contribute this new awareness to society. For me, I am going to do the same.
I am aware enough to know that I have not hurt people purposefully. I am aware enough to know that my drive and passion in thoughts, words and life can inadvertently hurt people and for that I am sorry. I am sorry for anyone who has come in contact with me and left with a bitter taste in their mouth. I am sorry and it is my promise to do better.
I do not need the Universe to make me take a stand for my actions, I chose to do it now with my awareness and I hope I can motivate others to do the same. Let us be accountable for our actions and make amends. We are all in this together and it is time for us to stand together as an united whole not parts divided. We are stronger as a collective and together we can rise.
May you all be well.
xo Uma Alexandra Beepat