Over the past four days I watched the DNC virtual summit and I have to tell you, I feel good.
I woke up today feeling light. I realized in this moment that for the first time in four years, I feel a little safer. I didn’t realize I was on edge, anxious and waiting for the next shoe to drop. Are we really returning to decency?
Trump was sworn in 2017 and it didn’t take long for a knot to form in my stomach. As a woman and a person of color, I was terrified seeing the build up before he was voted in. But being the holistic person I am, I allowed myself to be cautiously optimistic because well, if he was voted in, he may do a good job right?
I am going to list below ONLY things that caused me anxiety and worry as a person of color. If I had to list items pertaining to me as a woman and part of the LGBTQ community, we would be here all day.
I am sharing this for perspective. Many of you may not be in my shoes- a woman, a person of color, an immigrant, a single mom with two small kids and a small business owner.
I want to share what life was like for me over the past four years and how I am fighting for a different four years.
No matter who wins this election in the US, I am praying and manifesting peace for us all. We have been divided too long and need to find our common ground of decency and respect.
Below I share certain things that happened that personally affected me. Please read with an open mind. xo
Only four days after his inauguration, I remember feeling that knot in my stomach when he signed executive orders to advance construction of the keystone and Dakota access pipelines that would taint drinking water and threatening sacred grounds for native Americans. Obama had blocked it. He was undoing it and watching the pain of our first people protest this made me unwell. I couldn’t help but think, “if he is attacking the rights of one group of people, would other groups follow?”
I didn’t have to wait long because the next day he signed an executive order to both bolster the United States deportation force and direct construction of a wall along the Mexican border. The executive order also expanded the definition of “priority for deportation” to include anyone charged with a criminal offense. This meant that people could be deported for even minor offenses such as traffic violations and shoplifting. I was terrified! I am a citizen but also an immigrant! Would there be cause for me to leave? The knot tightened.
In January 27, 2017 he signed what would become known as the ”travel ban,” an executive order which imposed a 90-day ban on citizens from seven Muslim-majority countries from entering the United States, while also indefinitely halting incoming refugees from Syria. Half my family is Muslim but not from these countries. It still affected us though because our thoughts at the time were again, “if them now, when will it be our turn?” I remember my dad and mom talking about moving back to our home country when these news broke and I was contemplating the same thing.
Then the unthinkable happened in August 12 2017: Charlottesville. I don’t even have to remind you. I was nauseous watching the news cover this event in my own backyard in a town only two hours from my own home. Beyond scared for my life isn’t even half of it. I remember kissing and hugging my boys who were growing too quickly into looking like men. Black men and Indian men and that was just as scary.
July 14th 2019: In a series of tweets, Trump attacked four congresswomen of color: Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, Ilhan Omar, Rashida Tlaib and Ayanna Pressley. He said they “originally came from countries whose governments are a complete and total catastrophe.” Trump suggested that they “go back and help fix the totally broken and crime-infested places from which they came.” Ocasio-Cortez was born in New York, Tlaib in Detroit, and Pressley in Cincinnati. If he had no problem tearing down actual American born women, what would he do to someone like me? A naturalized citizen not born here?
There are more, lots more but these I remember.
In the two decades I have been a part of America, I have felt safe enough to exist without carrying a gun and having cameras on my security system. That changed during this presidency.
As much as this sounds like a political post, it is not. It is a genuine cry from someone for peace and harmony. I dedicated my life to service and serving my community at the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center. I have seen different people come in with different races, classes, religions, cultures and more but yet we all maintain a decent amount of decorum when interacting with each other.
As you read this, I ask for one thing- be kind.
As we approach November we are in the thick of election season. Just be kind. There are so many of us fighting private battles that no one knows about and lashing out to someone about their choice of vote is unnecessary.
In the end, love wins and we can count on that. xo Uma