If you have been following social media, you may have seen me go through some visible changes over the past few weeks.
From the outside looking in, you may think, “Uma is in a world of drama!”
BUT actually I am not.
All of these changes were foreseen and I have been ready for them for quite some time. How?
Well about 12 weeks ago my friend Paulina and I decided to trade weekly Access Consciousness body process and BARS sessions in an effort to revamp our lives and make us manifesting machines. Whoa!
While we were prepared, we had NO IDEA just how much our lives would change with these weekly sessions! I started to live for myself and not for other people’s expectations. I started having way more fun than I have had in a long time. Sometimes I laugh so much, my cheeks hurt and that has happened twice this week alone!
As with everything positive, there is a negative association and for me it was the identification of certain events, people and situations from my life that was just beginning to feel heavy.
Getting rid of events and situations are easy because they are products without feeling. Changing relationships in your life is a bit harder because you have to take into account how someone feels and try your best to do it in such a way that they leave feeling empowered and not broken.
I always remember a favorite quote from Brenee Brown to deal with situations like this. It says, “Who you are is how you lead.”
My intent is not to hurt people and to also honor my change of heart. So with each situation, I walk carefully to honor them and me and pray to the highest Goddesses, that it all works out beautifully.
I can say without a doubt, so far it has. I’ve managed to release some working partnerships that no longer felt light to me while still respecting my business associates.
When you are faced with a situation you don’t feel good about, it is quite easy to change, the question is not HOW you can change it but IF you want to.
When I work as a life coach in helping people reset their mindsets, the biggest obstacle I come across is their desire to have a changed outcome without actually committing to any behavior changes. The desire is there but it is not strong enough to warrant change.
I am going to share with you three of my own personal tips that I use to create change in my life when I don’t feel good. I hope it brings joy and lightness to your life as it has for me!
Be Realistic about your Plan and Outcome
When I am creating change about something in my life, the first thing I do is have a self pep talk about what will go down. For instance, it was brought to my attention recently that my October retreat was not selling as many tickets as it normally does for this time of year. Here was my pep talk:
“Ok Uma you know from past experience that this retreat should have been sold by now but it hasn’t. Whatever the reason (COVID, Financial struggles, Lack of interest),it feels good to let it go. You know you may experience backlash from the community and the few people who already signed up and prepaid but brace yourself for it. Create time this week to deal with these energies and don’t get stressed. You got this!“
By talking to myself (haha) and being realistic about the struggle that is coming up (cancelling an event, refunding clients, taking down ads) it puts me in a mindset of readiness for what is to come as oppose to lying to myself about it and then being caught unawares. Be prepared by facing the outcome and getting yourself mentally and energetically ready for it.
2. Put yourself First
There is a tendency in our lives to want to take care of others before taking care of ourselves first. Call it being a mom or a nurturer or just giving a damn, we like to help people.
Usually that is A-OK however not when you are dealing with a struggle that involves you. Make the committment and put measures in place to honor your thoughts, feelings and emotions and then look to taking care of others.
When you do this, you will feel lighter through the whole situation because you are simultaneously handling stress and providing means for your self care. It IS possible to come out of an unhappy situation feeling peaceful. Make the commitment to yourself first, honor it and it will give you the courage you need to address the struggle in your life.
When I recently went through the craziness in my own life, I kept setting up trades with my friends for my self care and scheduling days and weekends off to regroup and take care of me. I also allowed myself to move at whatever rate felt good. Some days I didn’t do a darn thing and some days I was up until 3am working. Honoring yourself and your energy takes many forms, learn to judge less and BE more.
3. Practice Heavy and Light Exercises
One of my favorite exercises (you probably had enough hearing about it) is the heavy light. According to Access Consciousness, what feels heavy to you is a LIE and what feels light to you is your TRUTH.
“Hey Uma, do you want to go swimming with sharks?”
Hell NO! Immediately I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach so I KNOW it’s a lie to me!
“Hey Uma, do you want to go on all expenses paid spa day trip with me?”
Yes Please! Immediately my shoulders relaxed and I felt a “brightening” around my heart. Message received.
The bottom line in dealing with not so good feelings is to be aware of that fact and work through it as best as you can. Sometimes we can do it on our own, sometimes we need the help of our social circles and sometimes we need professional help.
Don’t make a judgment, do what feels light to you and work at it. Your day in the sun is near so don’t get lost in the clouds. xo Uma
I feel almost like screaming, “GET ME OFF THIS ROLLER COASTER!”
2020 has really been a year hasn’t it? I feel like I have been through the mud several times over and I am deserving of a much needed bath. Rinse and Repeat.
As we face the last quarter of this year, do you find yourself mentally preparing for the fight or flight that will come?
You know, I USE to. I use to anticipate struggles with this mindset and it never worked. Why? Simple, check out the energy behind the actions.
FIGHT- If I choose to stay and fight in a struggle, I am filled with lots of emotions of a lower kind (fear, dread, anger, terror). No one stays to fight because they are filled with love, compassion and understanding. We are ready for WAR and there inevitably will be a winner and a loser. Who wants that?
FLIGHT- If I choose to run from struggles, I am still filled with lots of emotions of a lower nature (fear, worry, anxiety, regret, depression, sadness). No one runs away from struggle thinking, “I am really showing some self love here by not facing an opportunity that has the potential for strong growth within me.”
That’s why these two options feel so heavy because it is not representative of who we are as people.
We were made to love, to crave connection and to desire true intimacy with each other. We are not made to fight or run from connections or experiences so we need to rework these old programmings in our heads.
For me, I choose neither fight nor flight, I choose flow.
FLOW- An option to allow you to stay in the midst of struggle and treat each situation on a case by case basis in a minute by minute breakdown.
Feels lighter already.
We will have many changes coming up as we end 2020, we have the obvious repeat offenders of CoVid19, race wars and pending elections but on top of that, we also have internal struggles we face as we lose jobs/careers, love/relationships or shift into new territories either geographically or spiritually.
Learn to flow and then, no matter what comes your way, you will be prepared to handle it according to your true nature……your nature of love and connection.
Here are three tips I use to allow myself to FLOW through tricky situations or sticky issues, I hope they bring you some clarity and awareness as much as they have for me.
Make a rule-There are NO rules!
In Access Consciousness, I learned that an infinite being (us) can change our mind every 10 seconds. Why? Because when we start to live according to energy, we can allow ourselves to move as the energy moves us.
I have loved/disliked many, many people in many, many 10 second increments and it has been a huge relief for me. When you realize that your perception can change, it doesn’t box you in to force you to fight or run. It allows you to see people or situations as a constant change and therefore accept it. Try it! You can say something like, “In this 10 seconds I am really angry with you but I am open to that changing.”
This is a great way to honor what you feel and then also let the person or situation know that they do not have power over you because you determine how you feel not someone else’s actions.
2. Make no Committments
Whenever I RSVP for an event, I message the host to let them know that it depends on the day on how i feel and whether I will show up or not. I know in this world that sounds flaky but think about it for a second. Do you want someone to attend your event who doesn’t want to be there? Wouldn’t you rather them stay home?
Many struggles come about from trying to keep commitments. Let’s say you and your partner are suppose to go to a party and you decide not to go. You can either create a fight with them to allow you to stay home (gasp not you!) or you can run away from how you truly feel and go with your partner thereby sacrificing your desire. Either case, you aren’t going to have a good time because you aren’t honoring the flow of energy around you.
In the beginning, your circle may dislike this new part of you but in time they learn to accept it and even love it! Because now my circle knows when I show up, I am going to SHOW UP and have a good time! They may miss me in the frequency but they appreciate me in the quality.
3. Live an Obligation Free Life
When we do things out of obligation, it feels heavy because we aren’t doing it to honor ourselves, we usually do it to make someone else happy. This stinks.
Obligation is created by guilt. You don’t fulfill an obligation because you WANT to, you fulfill it because you HAVE to.
An easy way to opt out of the blame game (I bought you this now you need to buy me this, I gave you this so now you need to give me this etc…) is to just stop.
Whenever people give me gifts or host me or do something nice for me, I spend a good amount of time to thank them appropriately and show my respect for their kindness. That’s the end of it.
If anyone was to reach out to me and ask for a favor or something in return, I let them know if I can or cannot do it based on my time. Now this may take some time getting use to doing because most of us will get saddled with guilt.
I had to work through my own guilt by reminding myself that I do not put people into obligation so I expect the same from them too. That is, to not put me into obligation.
By not accepting obligation as a necessary part of relationships, it has actually opened me up to the genuine kindness about people. People really are kind! And if we stop looking for obligations, we can actually experience something magical as kindness. It feels so so light and happy.
So yes, if you are going to fight, then fight to be in flow. If you are going to run then run towards flow. Be the flow you wish to be and open your doors to allow the stream of abundance to flow right into your life.
There is so much here we can receive even during the struggles, we just got to put our fists down and plant our feet to receive them. xo Uma
Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner of The Lotus and The Light Metaphysical Center in Manassas, VA.
Uma is a Soul Alignment Coach, Master Healer, Psychic Medium and the author of The Awakened Life.
First of all, you don’t NEED a reading! You can desire a reading to provide more information into a specific situation. Not a need but a desire.
Most times people clam up when I talk about this stuff. Why? Well instead of explaining it, I can show it to you.
Today I received this message in my dm:
Ya know……. it’s stuff like this that gives my line of work a bad name.
Sigh, don’t worry folks. I wouldn’t ever reach out to you and tell you this.
Readings are meant to validate what you already know. The truth is we already have inner knowledge of where we are going but yet sometimes we hesitate or have confusion. That’s when you get a reading.
Most of my clients already know the answer and my readings provide them the validation and confidence they need to make the next step.
Sometimes I see things they don’t see because in addition to being a reader, I am a seer. It is an ability I had since I was a child that developed and got more accurate and stronger over the years. In those situations, my seership proves invaluable as it allows my client to prepare for what will come.
Case in point, I read for a few people this year in January as an annual reading. I predicted sudden upsets to their lives and through my guidance, they were able to prepare for what was coming.
None of us KNEW it was Covid but my readings readied them and they were! Several clients wrote me by March to validate the reading and how it helped them so much.
My own readings also gave me this guidance last summer and I was able to prepare ahead of time for this year.
Most people when they reach out to me, have no idea what an intuitive reading is so I wanted to break it down a bit and explain what I do.
Firstly I do three specific types of readings that I will share now including my why and how of what I do.
Mediumship Readings- this option is for people who want to connect with a loved one who has passed and is on the other side.
Most times people want to know that their loved one made it to the other side safely and if they had any last messages for them.
The critic might say that I can make up stuff to tell them and yes they are correct. However as an evidential medium, my task is to provide solid evidence on the person to the client, information they can verify. This weans out the fakes and wannabes who pull on generic information that can be used for multiple people.
When I connect with a loved one on the other side, I present evidential material to my client and once it is validated then I can move on to a message from them. Its a form of checks and balances I use to ensure the quality of the connection and to ensure there is a smooth delivery of communication between the living and the dead.
2. Spiritual Assessments- this reading is for people who would like spiritual guidance from their Spirit team.
Why: Sometimes in life we can feel lost or stuck and would like spiritual guidance from a higher Source into our situation. This is the reading people book.
How: In this instance I am not travelling to the realms of the dead for connection, I am going UP to higher realms of consciousness to bring information from people’s spirit guides and guardian angels. I do this by changing my levels of perception and contacting the Spirit world. I have been doing this since as a child so this work comes quite naturally for me and it is my favorite type of reading to do because it helps people understand where they are and where they need to focus on to keep going. Very helpful.
3. Intuitive Readings – this option is for people who have specific questions they would like answers to.
Why: Sometimes people feel stuck or confused into which direction to move into. This reading can help by bringing answers from the spiritual realms to provide guidance in next steps.
How: Usually I use tarot cards along with divination tools to help me gain these answers for people. I can see the past, the present and the future in these types of readings and I usually communicate with the higher consciousness of the person or their spirit guides for the answers. Most times when I bring answers, the client already knows the answer so it brings great relief and validation for their next steps.
Doing readings bring me joy because it allows me to truly help people from a spiritual place when they are feeling less than positive or happy. I love to see people happy and thriving so when they leave a reading happy, it makes me happy.
Sometimes I get people who are unhappy with the reading because the messages are not what they want to hear. This usually happens in cases of love readings because due to my ethics, I do not read another person aside from the client without their permission. You would be surprised how many nosey mothers or possessive girlfriends need this! When I refuse to do it, they can get mad or vengeful but I keep my stance because ethically it is wrong to do.
When someone comes to me for a relationship reading, I let them know that I cannot read the person without their permission but I can ask Spirit what advice they would like to give you. Most times people understand and are happy with that and it tends to work out well.
Readings can be helpful if you work with someone who has experience and integrity in this field.
If you have never had a reading, here is my advice for you when booking one.
Find a reader to give you the session you desire. If you want a mediumship reading, find a medium. If you want a spiritual assessment, find a spiritual advisor and if you want an intuitive reading, find a psychic.
2. Whichever reader you go with, experience is preferred. Don’t be shy to ask your reader about their experience and demand for facts not generalities. When people check me out, I can easily tell them I have been doing this for 11 years and have provided over 10,000 private sessions in healing and readings. I also teach tarot workshops and host three mentorship development programs annually.
3. Do your research and check them out on social media. You can pick up on the tone and energy of a reader by what they post and see if it is in alignment with your energy and beliefs.
4. And finally, find someone you are magnetically pulled to. There are just some people you feel good around and that helps. When you feel comfortable with someone, you will trust them more and the reading will flow easily. Remember it is all based on energy and intent so starting with someone you like is a sure fire way to find your way to a great experience.
I hope you liked this article and if so, please feel free to leave a comment! I look forward to meeting you or reading for you sometime in the future. Until then, many blessings for a peaceful life. xo Uma
Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner of the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center in Manassas, VA.
Uma is a Psychic Medium, Soul Alignment Coach and Spiritual Teacher and Mentor. Uma wrote the Awakened Life and is a retreat facilitator for the New Year New You Retreat in January and Living the Awakened Life Retreat in October.
Over the past four days I watched the DNC virtual summit and I have to tell you, I feel good.
I woke up today feeling light. I realized in this moment that for the first time in four years, I feel a little safer. I didn’t realize I was on edge, anxious and waiting for the next shoe to drop. Are we really returning to decency?
Trump was sworn in 2017 and it didn’t take long for a knot to form in my stomach. As a woman and a person of color, I was terrified seeing the build up before he was voted in. But being the holistic person I am, I allowed myself to be cautiously optimistic because well, if he was voted in, he may do a good job right?
I am going to list below ONLY things that caused me anxiety and worry as a person of color. If I had to list items pertaining to me as a woman and part of the LGBTQ community, we would be here all day.
I am sharing this for perspective. Many of you may not be in my shoes- a woman, a person of color, an immigrant, a single mom with two small kids and a small business owner.
I want to share what life was like for me over the past four years and how I am fighting for a different four years.
No matter who wins this election in the US, I am praying and manifesting peace for us all. We have been divided too long and need to find our common ground of decency and respect.
Below I share certain things that happened that personally affected me. Please read with an open mind. xo
Only four days after his inauguration, I remember feeling that knot in my stomach when he signed executive orders to advance construction of the keystone and Dakota access pipelines that would taint drinking water and threatening sacred grounds for native Americans. Obama had blocked it. He was undoing it and watching the pain of our first people protest this made me unwell. I couldn’t help but think, “if he is attacking the rights of one group of people, would other groups follow?”
I didn’t have to wait long because the next day he signed an executive order to both bolster the United States deportation force and direct construction of a wall along the Mexican border. The executive order also expanded the definition of “priority for deportation” to include anyone charged with a criminal offense. This meant that people could be deported for even minor offenses such as traffic violations and shoplifting. I was terrified! I am a citizen but also an immigrant! Would there be cause for me to leave? The knot tightened.
In January 27, 2017 he signed what would become known as the ”travel ban,” an executive order which imposed a 90-day ban on citizens from seven Muslim-majority countries from entering the United States, while also indefinitely halting incoming refugees from Syria. Half my family is Muslim but not from these countries. It still affected us though because our thoughts at the time were again, “if them now, when will it be our turn?” I remember my dad and mom talking about moving back to our home country when these news broke and I was contemplating the same thing.
Then the unthinkable happened in August 12 2017: Charlottesville. I don’t even have to remind you. I was nauseous watching the news cover this event in my own backyard in a town only two hours from my own home. Beyond scared for my life isn’t even half of it. I remember kissing and hugging my boys who were growing too quickly into looking like men. Black men and Indian men and that was just as scary.
July 14th 2019: In a series of tweets, Trump attacked four congresswomen of color: Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, Ilhan Omar, Rashida Tlaib and Ayanna Pressley. He said they “originally came from countries whose governments are a complete and total catastrophe.” Trump suggested that they “go back and help fix the totally broken and crime-infested places from which they came.” Ocasio-Cortez was born in New York, Tlaib in Detroit, and Pressley in Cincinnati. If he had no problem tearing down actual American born women, what would he do to someone like me? A naturalized citizen not born here?
There are more, lots more but these I remember.
In the two decades I have been a part of America, I have felt safe enough to exist without carrying a gun and having cameras on my security system. That changed during this presidency.
As much as this sounds like a political post, it is not. It is a genuine cry from someone for peace and harmony. I dedicated my life to service and serving my community at the Lotus and the Light Metaphysical Center. I have seen different people come in with different races, classes, religions, cultures and more but yet we all maintain a decent amount of decorum when interacting with each other.
As you read this, I ask for one thing- be kind.
As we approach November we are in the thick of election season. Just be kind. There are so many of us fighting private battles that no one knows about and lashing out to someone about their choice of vote is unnecessary.
In the end, love wins and we can count on that. xo Uma
As quickly as I was hit with bad news this week is as quickly as I turned it around. That my dears is what we call a pivot in the coaching business.
August was looking really bright to me because I was about to embark on not one but TWO vacations! I was going to make my annual trip to Lilydale to see my beloved friend Joseph and stay at his guesthouse (Southern Comfort Inn) and then my kids and I were headed to the beach to celebrate my son’s birthday.
WELL! The audacity of COVID19 to upset my plans! (some humor here). I found out that both NY and SC required Virginia residents to quarantine for two weeks if we went. There goes the vacations.
On top of that, my mom was suppose to bring my kids back from Florida and she was now a little apprehensive about making the trip to Virginia and being stuck with us, leaving my dad alone. Turbulent times for sure.
We had a group phone call with my partner, my parents and me on the phone. My dad suggested that we come get my kids and in that way, my parents could see me.
I ran with it because i knew that my spidey senses were telling me to get my kids home quicker than I planned so I contacted and apologized profusely to my friend about not coming to New York and I contacted the travel agent to cancel the Myrtle Beach trip. I then shifted all my classes to allow us to drive down to Florida and head back before any more state closures happened.
I am racing against the clock but strangely enough, I feel calm. Part of my work as a spiritual coach is to help people through difficult situations in a calm and thoughtful manner. In a way, I guess my years of coaching people through these situations allowed me to stay calm as well.
What did I do? Three things to be exact and I share them here with you:
1) Remain Calm
When things don’t go your way, be honest, your IMMEDIATE reaction is to freak out. I get it, I do it too but now we are going to change it.
First you are going to allow yourself that initial freak out because well, its a natural response from you to stress. Once you had the experience, you are going to talk to yourself by asking questions to lighten the mood.
Start with, “How does it get better than this?” then go into “Okay, what is the good in this I am not seeing but would like to see?” and finally end with, “How can I pivot this to make it fun and a success for me?”
Even saying it, I feel lighter already. Don’t you? 🙂
2) Be Flexible
The important thing in a pivot is to not hold too tightly to the importance of the previous plan. You have to let that ish go. It’s done, dead in the water, kaput.
Remind yourself that you have choices and if you make the right choices in the right timing, this can actually work out in your favor! So be open to hearing other viewpoints and once you hear one that LIGHTS you up, there! That’s your answer! Run with it to step 3.
3) Don’t Hesitate-Make the Moves
My dad can be credited for the suggestion of us coming to Florida to get my kids yes! But I can be credited to moving quickly to have little to no casualty.
As soon as he made the comment, I felt light and I ran with it. I contacted the two hotels to cancel our reservations and ask for our refunds and then I rescheduled my classes to allow for drive time. I informed my partner as quickly as I could so he could shift his schedule too.
I had to move quickly because if I didn’t, this unfortunate change of plans could have become bigger. I could have had clients and students on the books who would have been upset with me for the last minute notice. I could have qualified for no refunds. It could have been worse.
When you find your way in the pivot, it is important to make the next steps quickly. You can’t second guess yourself now or allow others to taint your drive. Get it done and then after you can think about what you did.
As did I and you know what? I found even more hidden little gems.
After all plans were made, I had time to reflect on the experience. I was still a little sad at not seeing my friend and missing the beach so I did a YES/BUT exercise. This is what I do when I am down. It’s a way of BUTTING out of the sadness. It looks like this,
“Yes I will miss seeing Joseph this year BUT I can see him next year! Also we spent some good time this year working together and he plans to assist me with my current class so I get to see him again!”
“Yes I will miss going to Myrtle Beach BUT I went earlier this year in June and had a great time! I will look forward to going again in 2021 when things are safer.”
“Yes I am sorry my mom isn’t bringing my kids back and staying with me for a bit BUT I still get to see her and my dad. eat her delicious cooking, hang out at their pool and see my kids!”
See? It gets lighter.
I found myself pivoting like crazy in 2020. If you have been resisting change, I hope you can find these suggestions helpful and try them out. Who knows, you might actually start to enjoy the changes as it gives you a chance to exert your pivot power!
This week, be open and ready for change and when they come? Pivot like crazy!
I am in Bliss right now. I wasn’t a few days ago, but that is the beauty of believing in yourself, having faith in sent messages and taking action with Spirit’s lead.
On Thursday I woke up with a message- create a paid membership group on Facebook and allow people to pay you for your inspirational posts, educational articles and free readings you do. It’s time.
I was excited and immediately contacted a few friends to invite them to do this with me. Sadly they couldn’t sign off on it for various reasons but there was one reason that stung. I had a friend who didn’t believe in me or the message and felt it wouldn’t get off the ground. I was crushed.
I nearly gave up, listening to their wisdom. At the time, it felt right what they were saying:
It’s thursday and you want this to happen tomorrow Friday? May 1st? Impossible!
I don’t think people will pay to get your posts especially when you are still on social media in other channels
You are sometimes impulsive and act on Spirit’s messages without thought and I really believe you should slow down and take your time with this.
They were right because logically it made sense. However, there was this call in my Soul to follow through and so I did. I spent all day Thursday working hard to create a membership group and hardly slept that night. I woke up Friday morning, took a deep breath and then went online to announce my new group. I shared the link to join (https://conta.cc/2YlXXMA) and then I waited.
Well….I didn’t have to wait long. Within 10 minutes, I had 15 people sign up and as I write you today, there are over 70 people registered and joining the group. I was and am still shocked and floored. I had a goal of 100 but it seems like within a few days I would meet that. It makes me wonder… what else does Spirit have in store for me?
This experience really made my heart smile. I was faced with a decision, either follow the logic of my well meaning friends or blindly follow my heart linked to Spirit. I chose the latter.
There are two important points I want to share about my decision and how my choices affect my day to day.
Point 1: No Spiritual Bypassing
I could have easily seen my friends as negative, haters or debby doubters but I didn’t because the truth is, they weren’t. They were looking out for me and out of their care, voiced their opinions.
Not everyone who says NO to you is wrong or evil or a lower level than you. They are just people and most likely, people who care about you and cannot see the vision you have because Spirit didn’t give them that vision. It was and is only yours.
Even though it stung a little to not have my friends with me on this journey, I allowed myself to release it and Trust that Spirit had a bigger and better plan for me that involved only me. I allowed myself to make the choice to move forward on my own without them even though I was nervous and afraid.
In hindsight, I see now why I needed to move ahead alone.
In just the three short days of opening the group, I have had to make last minute decisions, turn in new directions and recreate the vision! The energy is very fluid like right now and it is easier to pivot and turn as one person than as several. Spirit knows best and knew this fact too.
I don’t have any stress of letting people down or seeming wishy washy because of several mind changes and you know what? Because it is only me behind the scenes, it is only me who have to deal with the stress! Which I did very easily.
When you receive a NO graciously, you don’t lose time and you are faster on your way to a YES that will make it worthwhile.
By allowing myself to receive the Nos from my friends, I was able to keep them in my life AND still have success on this new project by myself. I am in all my feels right now because it feels so so good to let go of control and trust Spirit’s direction.
Point 2: Sometimes YOU Walk Alone
No one likes to walk alone but sometimes it’s called for. I learned so much about myself, Spirit and our connection in these past few days than I have learned in awhile.
I got to experience deeply and first hand what it is like to be held and kept safe by invisible hands. I got to feel nervousness and timidity about a new launch, something I haven’t felt in years due to my experience in what I do.
I got to feel open and vulnerable, with nothing to lead me except the invisible but powerful presence of God.
I went for it and I was scared the entire way through but there was no need. They delivered on everything they said they would deliver on and I am pleased.
Looking back now, I realize that when I receive messages, I need to hold space for myself. Despite all my years in doing this work, I still have occasional feelings of, “Am I worth this? Can I do this? Why me?”
So if you struggle with these questions now, trust me when I say they never really go away but their power over you decreases.
I will still ask myself those questions from time to time but already the answer forms within me and it is a dialogue on automatic response. I get to be the observer,
“Am I worth this?
“You know you are.”
” Can I do this?”
“You know you will and you know we will help you.”
“If not You then Who? And if we come to You then we have deemed You to be the One to do it!”
Friends, you will be faced with decisions like this too in your lives and I hope my story brings inspiration to you. Keep following your heart and trust the messages you are receiving. Do not categorize people because they cannot or will not support you, love them where they are and trust that Spirit loves you and want what’s best for you and everyone else.
I do hope you heed your calling and step boldly (and sometimes blindly) forward in faith. Jump and trust that they will support you. I did and man….the view up here is exceptional.
Uma Alexandra Beepat is the owner and CEO of the Lotus and The Light Metaphysical Center in Northern Virginia. Uma is a Soul Alignment Coach, Intuitive Consultant and Spiritual Mentor. You can find out more about Uma at http://www.thelotusandthelight.com
Yesterday was a significant day in numerology as the date 4/4/2020 shows up as 444. And as you probably guessed it, everyone around the world was involved in some sort of meditation/gathering to pray/reiki/wish/manifest the virus away. I was not one of them.
I do not doubt that many people attending these gatherings had the best intentions but sometimes ignorance is not bliss, it is downright harmful.
Ascension is a lengthy process and it is often filled with rife and struggle, pain and discomfort.
While it would be easy to rid the planet of the virus through a combined collective of all our intentions, my polite question is, “Why?”
We are in the midst of an ascension process (in my opinion only not facts!) and it is about to get ugly. If we stop now, what would we have accomplished? A half journey to enlightenment and change? All those souls who passed on during this time, would their passing be in vain?
There is no right or wrong answer here, just theories and philosophy. The beauty of having a mind is to use it and create thoughts about current events.
Here are mine: We are experiencing the biggest global ascension right now moving firmly from a 3D world focus on material gain into the 5D world of unconditional love and compassion. The shift is happening NOW and many of us will make it but some will not.
The most important thing (again IMO) to do right now is to practice Ahimsa (non-violence) to ourselves and others. We can practice Ahimsa for ourselves by allowing ourselves to feel all that we feel without judgment and for others by holding space for them and forgiving them when they have a bad day or a rough time going through this. They may take it out on you and that’s when you can hold space for them.
We all wanted this didn’t we? To ascend to that next level but we didn’t expect it to come at such a cost or with so much pain. That’s ok, there is no “I told you so” coming from me, only love. Sweet love as I hold you my dear brothers and sisters in light and comfort.
Even if you did participate in the global meditations, your heart was in the right place and you meant well. So now, don’t wish this virus away.
Let nature run the course, let’s pray for our loved ones to be safe and sound and pray that we and them do not get swept up in the aftermath. Let us pray to hold the line and stay optimistic even on the darkest days. Because in the end, we need each other and it is perfectly ok to say that.
PS- I will be doing a talk on youtube about ascension and deprogramming on Wednesday April 15th.
Recently, a very dear client of mine passed away suddenly. I was one of the family healers for him and his wife Peggy who passed last year. This is a bittersweet moment for me. Bitter because I miss them and sweet because they are now reunited in love on the other side.
I wrote this below for the family as they are putting together a memoirs journal. I wanted to share our story here because the lessons are eternal and inclusive. It can benefit everyone. Please have a read and even though you may not know them, please send a prayer of thanks for them to hear on the other side. I want them to know they are very much loved and cared for.
Dominick and I have some history that will forever be remembered fondly. I am so very grateful to have been part of his and Peggy’s life for so long and as much as I miss them both, I am so thankful and happy they are together again. Dancing in the stars ayyy Dom? Dancing in the stars.
I am happy to share my story with them and yes it is them for me, because they were interchangeable Dom and Peggy. I have my fondest memories of them both and to speak on one would be impossible. They were a team, soulmates and twin flames. They were inseparable. So here we go, here is my story of Dominick…and Peggy.
Dominick breezed into my life like a magician, full of whirlwind energy, questions, jokes and always debates. This is the story of the Mystic and the Engineer, both coming from different worlds but uniting in love of wisdom and healing.
I first met Dominick in 2014 when he brought his wife Peggy to me for massages. She liked it (yay) so I began what I would later discover, a journey of spiritual growth and emotional maturity for me with this couple. I started by seeing Peggy once a month to once every two weeks (by her request) and then to once a week. I started with massages but eventually moved into spiritual healing which she thoroughly enjoyed. For many years, I was her weekly healer and our visits were like a visit to the salon. Peggy would take every opportunity to “bash talk” Dominick and he would just smile and wait patiently in the waiting room for her. He never got cross or upset, he took it all in stride and his eyes….his eyes shown with love for Peggy. She could do no wrong by him and I was in awe of that.
That was my first lesson- a lesson about love. I learned from this amazing couple about the true nature of long term relationships. I learned you could love someone faults and all. I learned that love never dies when Peggy passed and Dominick still talked about her with a smile on his face as if she was still there. Truthfully, she was. She visited him every chance she could get and it proved to me that love truly never dies.
Dominick knew about the metaphysical side of life and he kept trying to convince Peggy about it. She wouldn’t have it! He would try to convince me to convince her and I would laugh. Have you met Peggy? That woman is strong willed like you Dominick! He would laugh at me and say, “But Uma if anyone could get her to see this side of life, it would be you. She loves you and listens to you.”
The funny thing is, Peggy did come around but not because of me. One day while I was doing her energy work, her Father (who is in Spirit) came into the room. He told me details that Peggy could verify and told her he was concerned about her strength and wanted her to use small dumbbells. Of course these messages shook Peggy up, she cried during the session and related it to Dominick. She then demanded to go to the store right now and buy dumbbells. She was a believer from there on out.
This was my second lesson- We don’t have to impose our will on someone else about the spiritual side of life. Leave it to God, He will make it known in a special and meaningful way.
After that session, Dominick wanted a reading with me. I was hesitant honestly because I knew his skepticism. I also knew his determination to get what he wants! So we planned the appointment. Immediately one of Dominick’s old friends came through, his friend Bill and talked about the old days and the bars they went to and where they worked. Oh Dom loved it! He cried in his session too but tears of joy! He said it felt like a visit with an old friend, he was grateful. The only thing he couldn’t verify was the red convertible that Bill kept showing me. He said I was mistaken, I said I wasn’t and there we entered into one of our weekly fights.
When he left, he received a call from Bill’s nephew- someone he did not speak to for many years and he thought, what a coincidence! He told the nephew about our visit and all the things I said. He ended by saying I only got one thing wrong- the red convertible. Bill’s nephew said, “Oh Uncle Dominick, you wouldn’t know about the red convertible, that was before he met you but man he loved that car!”
Dominick was shocked and astounded. He later wrote me an email and then apologized to me in person. He said, “Uma I always thought mediums were hocus pocus. I thought they were really psychics reading people’s minds and memories. What you and Bill did, has changed my mind. I understand now that we can communicate with the other side. Uma you are truly a medium.”
This was my third lesson-Spirit is intricate and intelligent. They will answer the call and do so with infinite wisdom. As a medium, I just have to trust and follow the messages.
After Peggy started improving under my care, Dominick decided to see me for sessions too. He would schedule two sessions a week with me, one for Peggy and one for him. His sessions were metaphysical in nature. He loved healing and readings, so we did those. Without fail, Dominick would debate me every time! He would question my technique, my logic and my knowledge. He would bring books for me to read and one time a photo of my eyes! It came to him in a meetup he went to with a medium who manifested these eyes on paper and he said this was Dominick’s spiritual guide. We both knew it was me and to this day I still have it in my office.
This was my fourth lesson- as much as I am the teacher, I am also the student. Dominick and I interchanged the student-teacher role many times and I can’t help but scowl a little because he finally won over this battle. He will now be the ultimate teacher from the other side as he got there before me. You won this round Dom!
When Peggy’s health started declining, I knew it was time for her to rest. There was one session, the last session that I knew I would see her. I got her comfortable on the table and went to lay hands on her for her weekly healing session and she gently moved my hands away. I sat there with tears in my eyes. We knew, it was time. So I talked to her for the rest of the session and at the end, I told Dominick that I would call him. We talked and I told him that I cannot see Peggy anymore, she is ready to move on. True to form, he at first argued with me and then accepted it. He asked me a difficult question, about the timing of her passing, I was hesitant to respond because I don’t do readings like this but all I could see in that moment was a frightened man who didn’t know for the first time, what his future held. So we talked about it, I told him to skip the idea of the adult nursing home, she would pass within the year and she did. Our twice a week sessions went down to one- just Dom and in this timeline I was able to see a range of emotions from him. Dom was always pleasant and a joker almost. But I could see behind the facade and one day, I called him out on it. He tried at first to lie to me but then he gave in and let out a whirlwind of expletives. I matched him. We cursed back and forth for thirty minutes and then we both broke out laughing until we cried. Dom was under a lot of pressure to do the right thing, to take care of Peggy and also to atone for past mistakes. He was in the belly of the beast now and with every deterioration of Peggy’s health, he came closer and closer to his truth.
After Peggy’s passing, we saw less of Dominick. He moved out of the area and began traveling and dating! This was his second wind, I was so so happy to see this for him. See for five years, I have only really seen him as the caretaker. Now I was able to see him as him- a man full of life, love and desire to learn and grow. He was unstoppable.
The last time I saw Dominick was this summer. He came to our tent at the Manassas First Fridays in Old Town and it was such a beautiful surprise. Rob and I hugged him and chatted with him for awhile. He was full of life and joy. That is the memory I will hold on to of him. It’s funny because after that day, Rob and I said to each other, “This is the last time we will see him. This is our goodbye.” At the time we thought it was because of his move to MD, we did not know it was to be his final goodbye.
This was my fifth lesson- you never know when it will be the last time you see someone, so make every moment count. I am glad that my last farewell with Dominick was true to our form- him laughing and having a good time (at my expense) and me working and doing what I love. It was a beautiful sunny day and Rob was eating an ice cream with Dominick. It couldn’t have been a more perfect day.
These people, Dominick and Peggy became more than clients to me. They were friends. They came to my house, to my personal parties and more. I knew about their children and grandchildren. I am so very thankful to the family for letting me know of Dom’s passing. Even though I have work, I am cancelling it so I can be there. Life is precious and death is an opportunity to celebrate someone one last time. I plan to celebrate the engineer, the nurse and all the lessons we learned together.
Have you ever had the thought: How Conscious Am I?
Probably not. It’s not something to think about….or is it?
I myself did not have the thought until recently when I noticed the shifting within myself was so vast and the changes were so noticeable that I had to ask this question.
A little backstory. At the time of writing this blog (trust me it’s not the day you are reading it!), I had completed 100 days of daily meditation. Consistently.
I am an avid meditator and have been meditating since 2009 but let’s be honest, life happened and I missed a day or two or six months. But no matter what happened, I would always get back on the serene horse and meditate again.
-Because it made me feel good
-Because it set the mood and intent for me to have a peaceful and calm day
-Because my partner, kids, anyone who was in my life required it
-Because I noticed that I stopped poking my nose into other people’s businesses (hello FB) and started minding my own
and the list goes on. I am not one to have habits but meditating is a habit I just can’t seem to break. SO being that it is stuck with me and I am stuck with it, I decided to do a little research into what meditation can do for me.
Of course this idea came to me today (the day I wrote this blog) on the 100th day of meditation. Well played Universe, well played.
So this is what I found. Read on and learn. Keep this question alive as you read, “Where do I see myself in this list?”
It is in Vedantic philosophy and Vedic Psychology of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi we can find knowledge on something called the seven states of Consciousness. Maharishi Mahesh Yogi is the founder of the Transcendental Meditation (TM) movement. He describes the seven states of consciousness as:
The first three states of Consciousness are accessible to every human being with a nervous system. They are part and parcel of the whole human existence thing.
Deep sleep we know (or would like to know some nights!) because we all sleep. What is interesting is that even though we sleep, we still have some level of awareness. Take for instance if there is a fire or the alarm goes off, most of us, if not under the influence of drugs or alcohol, can and will wake up. It is almost as if the mind and body are asleep but the Spirit is still awake and ensuring our safety.
In dream states, there is much activity that plays out in stories our minds create from our subconscious realms. It feels real! Even though we are dreaming, they are so vivid and real that we cannot tell it is a dream until we awake.
Waking Consciousness is supposedly our awake and aware state. I say supposedly because I actually prefer Vedanta’s take on it. According to Vedanta (Hindu philosophy), in life we wake from the dream states and enter another dream (smile). All of life can be seen as a dream! What is real and not real depends on the viewer and how they respond to it….just like a dream.
The fourth stage and above is not available to every being. It is only available to those who go higher. Mostly this means meditation and self awareness.
A large body of research has indicated that during practice of meditation a fourth major state of consciousness, transcendental consciousness, is produced (Chalmers, Clements, Schenkluhn, & Weinless, in press; Orme-Johnson & Farrow, 1977).
This level of consciousness represents a state of restful alertness or awareness without drama as I like to call it. It can be seen in someone with a calm mind, peaceful purpose, inner knowing and contentment.
It is wholeness, aware of itself, devoid of difference, beyond the division of subject and object—transcendental consciousness.
In this state, a person is in company for blissful experiences not bound by thought or perceptions that create division, suffering or judgment. This state differs from the waking consciousness where the person perceives objects of experience as external and separate from himself. The individual self is experienced as localized or bound in time and space. This is why Maharishi (1969) refers to the status of the self experienced in the normal waking state as the small or lower self. This lower self is only concerned with egoic desires such as money, career, relationships, clothing, etc….
A person who wants to master themselves have to master the lower self first and this means taking the mind from the gross fields of existence to the subtler fields, until the subtlest field of relative existence is transcended.
The fifth level of consciousness is often referred to as the “Witness Consciousness” because it is here that you determine the consciousness is YOU everything else is your Self.
When you meditate and achieve transcendental consciousness, that is the first step beyond the normal realms of living. When you consistently meditate and stay in the fourth level, your nervous system stays in contact with this state of consciousness and you develop the ability to keep that inner silence while you perform other things such as thinking thoughts, being active and participating in life. Eventually it stabilizes and becomes a permanent state of consciousness which is this fifth level or Cosmic Consciousness.
Everything becomes….quieter. The Ego that was raising hell to be seen, noticed or heard now dissipates. You begin to see the transitory state of everything, people, life, relationships, material possessions.
As uncommon as this state is for most people, it is still only one of the unfoldments in consciousness development. It is in fact the first of the permanent awakening but it is the beginning step.
The beauty of unfolding is that there are still deeper layers to go and this is the case of the 6th Consciousness or God Consciousness.
As you transcend thought, you reach the inner Self, the Atman as Vedic Studies refer to it. It is here that you find the deepening of the bliss received from the 4th and 5th levels.
Your perception changes. You no longer see the surface issues presented to you and this is why you become Love. Your heart is expanded and your knowing is increased. You can only find joy and delight in everything, including the uncomfortable or setbacks in life. You are able to see how everything plays a role in the grand opera of life and this knowledge brings peace and bliss to you.
As this develops, so too does devotion. Devotion can be seen in a religious, spiritual, universal way or even more generalized. You have reverence for everything and everyone, every experience in life and this is why we call it the God Consciousness.
In Unity Consciousness, we see no difference. I am myself and myself is All. “Where once was the inner and the outer, the real and the unreal, the Self and the non-Self, the absolute and the relative, the eternal and the temporal — there is now only One.”
It is the full awakening where a person can be at peace and love with life wholly and fully. Completely engrained within the living of life and also completely engrained within all.
“This seventh state of consciousness could very well be called the unified state of consciousness because in that state, the ultimate value of the object, infinite and unmanifest, is made lively when the conscious mind, being lively in the unbounded value of awareness, falls on the object. The object is cognized in terms of the pure subjective value of unbounded, unmanifest awareness…. In this unified state of consciousness, the experiencer and the object of experience have both been brought to the same level of infinite value and this encompasses the entire phenomenon of perception and action as well. The gulf between the knower and the object of his knowing has been bridged. When the unbounded perceiver is able to cognize the object in its total reality, cognizing the infinite value of the object, which was hitherto unseen, then the perception can be called total or of supreme value. In this state, the full value of knowledge has been gained, and we can finally speak of complete knowledge.”(Maharishi)
I have to say that even though I am an avid meditator, it is only now (ten years later) that I am reaching if not fully engrained on the last two stages. It took awhile, but I am not hard on myself about it. I am just glad to be here.
Some of you might ask me, “What does it feel like Uma?”
While I cannot be a spokesperson for everyone who has touched the last three levels, I can speak from personal experience and this is what I have felt myself:
I am happy
All of the time. Even when my water heater breaks down in the same week my dishwasher sprung a leak and after I worked eight hours to produce 85 slides for a class and none could be shown because the laptop wouldn’t connect to the TV…..all of the time happy! I know, sounds weird, but truly I floated through all of it.
2. I am peaceful
My partner and I have been together for four years now and those early years were rocky! I needed and required so much of his attention. Now it’s different. I no longer require him to be part of my process. I in fact am quite happy by myself. There are weekends I actually request time to myself for no particular reason. I just like the presence of me, and this (for a recovering codependent personality) is refreshing.
3. I am more intimate in my connections
Having touched the deeper parts of my Soul somehow makes it easier for me to do the same with other people. People have always been drawn to me because of my personality but I have noticed a shift. It seems like people are drawn to me now by my presence. I can feel it too, it feels like I emanate love without trying. From my limited perception, I would say that in my successful quest to knowing myself and knowing the world intimately, I have maintained the essence of that journey and it is a scent picked up by new hunters. They thirst for the same experience and I exude a fountain of it.
4. I am Aware.
The best part (to me) of reaching higher states of consciousness is the amount of awareness that I have about myself, people and life. I don’t fall for the *bs* anymore. Even better, I realize the *bs* is most times unknown also to the person feeding it to me.
This proved a dilemma in the beginning of my awakening. How do I proceed?
At first I would call people out on it. The lack of comeback because they were too stunned to respond made me realize that I was calling people out on things that they themselves did not realize. The reality of my words hit them so hard that it made ME feel bad.
So then I stopped doing that and instead tried to tell them what I knew and what I saw. This backfired too, because I was speaking to most people in a waking consciousness state. I literally had people say to me, “I don’t understand the words coming out of your mouth.” Even though I was speaking casually and normally, it sounded like a foreign language to them. Interesting.
So now, with my state of awareness, I say nothing. I do not engage. If I see someone acting from a place of unconsciousness, I leave it be. If they ask my opinion or want to know what my perspective is, I am happy to share. Otherwise, I keep my mouth shut, my heart open, my awareness on fleek and continue to have a peaceful existence.
It is with consciousness my life has improved. And now because of how much it has helped me tremendously, it is my deepest desire that we have the majority if not all people living from a state of consciousness. I can imagine what this world would look and feel like if we were all consciously living. It would resemble something like this:
Husband and Wife having a disagreement:
Wife: “You are so lazy, I can’t stand it.”
Husband: “Are you saying I am lazy because there are things to do around the house and I am not doing as much as you think I should?”
Wife: “Yes that’s it. I do everything around here and you just sit around and watch t.v”
Husband: “Do you think I can do more than what I currently do so you can have the opportunity to relax in your own way as well?”
Wife: “I would love to relax! But I am always working! And yes seeing you relax makes me angry because I have no time to relax.”
Husband: “Ok what can I help you with today in this moment so you can take some time for yourself to relax?”
Wife: lists all the things she has to do and works with husband to finish them or put off until tomorrow.
Husband: “Now that we have created some space before dinner, would you like to join me in watching this show?”
Wife: “Actually no dear, you continue. I am going to draw myself a nice bath and soak for a bit before dinner. And I apologize for calling you lazy. I am projecting my own issues onto you instead of taking the time to communicate with you about them.”
Husband: “Apology accepted and I too apologize for not tuning into your frustration and stepping up to talk with you about what you were going through. Let’s make the rest of this evening a peaceful one.”
Hey I can hope and dream right? 🙂
Well, I can do more than that….I can educate, inspire and gently nudge people in the right direction….the path to meditation and unfoldment.
So here is your gentle push. Start today. Start with five minutes a day of complete silence and work your way up. I now meditate 30 minutes a day sometimes twice a day. I am working my way up to 40 minutes. You can be here too. Trust me, just start with 5 minutes and see what happens.
In the meantime I am going to go back to my regular schedule of staying in a state of awareness. Love to you all and blessed be
Uma Alexandra Beepat is an intuitive consultant, psychic medium and spiritual teacher located in Northern VA. To learn more about Uma, visit http://www.umalotusflower.com