Have you ever had the thought: How Conscious Am I?
Probably not. It’s not something to think about….or is it?
I myself did not have the thought until recently when I noticed the shifting within myself was so vast and the changes were so noticeable that I had to ask this question.
A little backstory. At the time of writing this blog (trust me it’s not the day you are reading it!), I had completed 100 days of daily meditation. Consistently.
I am an avid meditator and have been meditating since 2009 but let’s be honest, life happened and I missed a day or two or six months. But no matter what happened, I would always get back on the serene horse and meditate again.
-Because it made me feel good
-Because it set the mood and intent for me to have a peaceful and calm day
-Because my partner, kids, anyone who was in my life required it
-Because I noticed that I stopped poking my nose into other people’s businesses (hello FB) and started minding my own
and the list goes on. I am not one to have habits but meditating is a habit I just can’t seem to break. SO being that it is stuck with me and I am stuck with it, I decided to do a little research into what meditation can do for me.
Of course this idea came to me today (the day I wrote this blog) on the 100th day of meditation. Well played Universe, well played.
So this is what I found. Read on and learn. Keep this question alive as you read, “Where do I see myself in this list?”
It is in Vedantic philosophy and Vedic Psychology of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi we can find knowledge on something called the seven states of Consciousness. Maharishi Mahesh Yogi is the founder of the Transcendental Meditation (TM) movement. He describes the seven states of consciousness as:
- Deep Sleep
- Dream States
- Waking Consciousness
- Transcendental Consciousness
- Cosmic Consciousness
- God Consciousness
- Unity Consciousness
The first three states of Consciousness are accessible to every human being with a nervous system. They are part and parcel of the whole human existence thing.
Deep sleep we know (or would like to know some nights!) because we all sleep. What is interesting is that even though we sleep, we still have some level of awareness. Take for instance if there is a fire or the alarm goes off, most of us, if not under the influence of drugs or alcohol, can and will wake up. It is almost as if the mind and body are asleep but the Spirit is still awake and ensuring our safety.
In dream states, there is much activity that plays out in stories our minds create from our subconscious realms. It feels real! Even though we are dreaming, they are so vivid and real that we cannot tell it is a dream until we awake.
Waking Consciousness is supposedly our awake and aware state. I say supposedly because I actually prefer Vedanta’s take on it. According to Vedanta (Hindu philosophy), in life we wake from the dream states and enter another dream (smile). All of life can be seen as a dream! What is real and not real depends on the viewer and how they respond to it….just like a dream.
The fourth stage and above is not available to every being. It is only available to those who go higher. Mostly this means meditation and self awareness.
A large body of research has indicated that during practice of meditation a fourth major state of consciousness, transcendental consciousness, is produced (Chalmers, Clements, Schenkluhn, & Weinless, in press; Orme-Johnson & Farrow, 1977).
This level of consciousness represents a state of restful alertness or awareness without drama as I like to call it. It can be seen in someone with a calm mind, peaceful purpose, inner knowing and contentment.
It is wholeness, aware of itself, devoid of difference, beyond the division of subject and object—transcendental consciousness.
In this state, a person is in company for blissful experiences not bound by thought or perceptions that create division, suffering or judgment. This state differs from the waking consciousness where the person perceives objects of experience as external and separate from himself. The individual self is experienced as localized or bound in time and space. This is why Maharishi (1969) refers to the status of the self experienced in the normal waking state as the small or lower self. This lower self is only concerned with egoic desires such as money, career, relationships, clothing, etc….
A person who wants to master themselves have to master the lower self first and this means taking the mind from the gross fields of existence to the subtler fields, until the subtlest field of relative existence is transcended.
The fifth level of consciousness is often referred to as the “Witness Consciousness” because it is here that you determine the consciousness is YOU everything else is your Self.
When you meditate and achieve transcendental consciousness, that is the first step beyond the normal realms of living. When you consistently meditate and stay in the fourth level, your nervous system stays in contact with this state of consciousness and you develop the ability to keep that inner silence while you perform other things such as thinking thoughts, being active and participating in life. Eventually it stabilizes and becomes a permanent state of consciousness which is this fifth level or Cosmic Consciousness.
Everything becomes….quieter. The Ego that was raising hell to be seen, noticed or heard now dissipates. You begin to see the transitory state of everything, people, life, relationships, material possessions.
As uncommon as this state is for most people, it is still only one of the unfoldments in consciousness development. It is in fact the first of the permanent awakening but it is the beginning step.
The beauty of unfolding is that there are still deeper layers to go and this is the case of the 6th Consciousness or God Consciousness.
As you transcend thought, you reach the inner Self, the Atman as Vedic Studies refer to it. It is here that you find the deepening of the bliss received from the 4th and 5th levels.
Your perception changes. You no longer see the surface issues presented to you and this is why you become Love. Your heart is expanded and your knowing is increased. You can only find joy and delight in everything, including the uncomfortable or setbacks in life. You are able to see how everything plays a role in the grand opera of life and this knowledge brings peace and bliss to you.
As this develops, so too does devotion. Devotion can be seen in a religious, spiritual, universal way or even more generalized. You have reverence for everything and everyone, every experience in life and this is why we call it the God Consciousness.
In Unity Consciousness, we see no difference. I am myself and myself is All. “Where once was the inner and the outer, the real and the unreal, the Self and the non-Self, the absolute and the relative, the eternal and the temporal — there is now only One.”
It is the full awakening where a person can be at peace and love with life wholly and fully. Completely engrained within the living of life and also completely engrained within all.
“This seventh state of consciousness could very well be called the unified state of consciousness because in that state, the ultimate value of the object, infinite and unmanifest, is made lively when the conscious mind, being lively in the unbounded value of awareness, falls on the object. The object is cognized in terms of the pure subjective value of unbounded, unmanifest awareness…. In this unified state of consciousness, the experiencer and the object of experience have both been brought to the same level of infinite value and this encompasses the entire phenomenon of perception and action as well. The gulf between the knower and the object of his knowing has been bridged. When the unbounded perceiver is able to cognize the object in its total reality, cognizing the infinite value of the object, which was hitherto unseen, then the perception can be called total or of supreme value. In this state, the full value of knowledge has been gained, and we can finally speak of complete knowledge.”(Maharishi)
I have to say that even though I am an avid meditator, it is only now (ten years later) that I am reaching if not fully engrained on the last two stages. It took awhile, but I am not hard on myself about it. I am just glad to be here.
Some of you might ask me, “What does it feel like Uma?”
While I cannot be a spokesperson for everyone who has touched the last three levels, I can speak from personal experience and this is what I have felt myself:
- I am happy
All of the time. Even when my water heater breaks down in the same week my dishwasher sprung a leak and after I worked eight hours to produce 85 slides for a class and none could be shown because the laptop wouldn’t connect to the TV…..all of the time happy! I know, sounds weird, but truly I floated through all of it.
2. I am peaceful
My partner and I have been together for four years now and those early years were rocky! I needed and required so much of his attention. Now it’s different. I no longer require him to be part of my process. I in fact am quite happy by myself. There are weekends I actually request time to myself for no particular reason. I just like the presence of me, and this (for a recovering codependent personality) is refreshing.
3. I am more intimate in my connections
Having touched the deeper parts of my Soul somehow makes it easier for me to do the same with other people. People have always been drawn to me because of my personality but I have noticed a shift. It seems like people are drawn to me now by my presence. I can feel it too, it feels like I emanate love without trying. From my limited perception, I would say that in my successful quest to knowing myself and knowing the world intimately, I have maintained the essence of that journey and it is a scent picked up by new hunters. They thirst for the same experience and I exude a fountain of it.
4. I am Aware.
The best part (to me) of reaching higher states of consciousness is the amount of awareness that I have about myself, people and life. I don’t fall for the *bs* anymore. Even better, I realize the *bs* is most times unknown also to the person feeding it to me.
This proved a dilemma in the beginning of my awakening. How do I proceed?
At first I would call people out on it. The lack of comeback because they were too stunned to respond made me realize that I was calling people out on things that they themselves did not realize. The reality of my words hit them so hard that it made ME feel bad.
So then I stopped doing that and instead tried to tell them what I knew and what I saw. This backfired too, because I was speaking to most people in a waking consciousness state. I literally had people say to me, “I don’t understand the words coming out of your mouth.” Even though I was speaking casually and normally, it sounded like a foreign language to them. Interesting.
So now, with my state of awareness, I say nothing. I do not engage. If I see someone acting from a place of unconsciousness, I leave it be. If they ask my opinion or want to know what my perspective is, I am happy to share. Otherwise, I keep my mouth shut, my heart open, my awareness on fleek and continue to have a peaceful existence.
It is with consciousness my life has improved. And now because of how much it has helped me tremendously, it is my deepest desire that we have the majority if not all people living from a state of consciousness. I can imagine what this world would look and feel like if we were all consciously living. It would resemble something like this:
Husband and Wife having a disagreement:
Wife: “You are so lazy, I can’t stand it.”
Husband: “Are you saying I am lazy because there are things to do around the house and I am not doing as much as you think I should?”
Wife: “Yes that’s it. I do everything around here and you just sit around and watch t.v”
Husband: “Do you think I can do more than what I currently do so you can have the opportunity to relax in your own way as well?”
Wife: “I would love to relax! But I am always working! And yes seeing you relax makes me angry because I have no time to relax.”
Husband: “Ok what can I help you with today in this moment so you can take some time for yourself to relax?”
Wife: lists all the things she has to do and works with husband to finish them or put off until tomorrow.
Husband: “Now that we have created some space before dinner, would you like to join me in watching this show?”
Wife: “Actually no dear, you continue. I am going to draw myself a nice bath and soak for a bit before dinner. And I apologize for calling you lazy. I am projecting my own issues onto you instead of taking the time to communicate with you about them.”
Husband: “Apology accepted and I too apologize for not tuning into your frustration and stepping up to talk with you about what you were going through. Let’s make the rest of this evening a peaceful one.”
Hey I can hope and dream right? 🙂
Well, I can do more than that….I can educate, inspire and gently nudge people in the right direction….the path to meditation and unfoldment.
So here is your gentle push. Start today. Start with five minutes a day of complete silence and work your way up. I now meditate 30 minutes a day sometimes twice a day. I am working my way up to 40 minutes. You can be here too. Trust me, just start with 5 minutes and see what happens.
In the meantime I am going to go back to my regular schedule of staying in a state of awareness. Love to you all and blessed be
Uma Alexandra Beepat is an intuitive consultant, psychic medium and spiritual teacher located in Northern VA. To learn more about Uma, visit http://www.umalotusflower.com
This is an important time in history and by that, I am referring to the Dr. Christine Blasey Ford’s testimony against Brett Kavanaugh. It is important on a personal scale between these two people, on a community scale as the decisions are made to appoint or not appoint Kavanaugh and on a global scale as the Divine Feminine energy rises around the world.
Whichever side you are on, whatever your beliefs or opinions, it’s about to get ugly….. and not for reasons you think.
- The pain is still fresh years later
For many women and men who have been sexually abused or put in uncomfortable positions, this case is reopening old wounds. I have heard the testimony from Dr. Ford myself and it created a lot of discomfort and unease within me due to my own sexual abuse history. I watched Brett Kavanaugh defend his name and deny the claims, and it angered me as I personally thought of my own attacker and how he would act if I called him out.
Even though many of us suffered sexual abuse or misconduct at the hands of another many years ago, no amount of time or healing will wipe that memory clean. It still hurts on some level.
I have been active in my personal healing concerning this issue and for many years I thought I had a grip on it. I was able to heal my past, forgive my attackers, cut old cords and even get involved in a loving relationship with my soulmate. I am the mom of two boys and I am able to provide unconditional love and acceptance to them as boys who will later become men. Life was rosy, clean and full until….until it wasn’t.
As I sat glued to the TV screen watching in discomfort as Dr. Ford rehashed her memory of the event, I felt sad. As the senators grilled her and asked the questions, I felt anger. Many of those questions I could have answered myself.
“Yes I didn’t come forward because I didn’t think anyone would believe me or it wouldn’t get addressed.”
“Yes I only came forward now because circumstances created forced me to.”
As you can see, I am writing from a personal perspective….and this is what I want you to be aware of. That everyone who is watching this unfold, will come from a personal perspective.
- People who have been abused will identify with this event in support of Dr. Ford
- People who have been in Kavanaugh’s shoes or close to it, will try to simmer it down or be less involved with it, hoping for it to go away.
- People who have not been abused but have loved ones who have, will be in support of Dr. Ford.
The list can go on. On some level, it affects us all. Whether it affects you personally or you are a parent of daughters and think of their lives….it will affect us.
So my request is for us to be kind to each other. As we create space to hear each other’s viewpoints on this matter, let us not only see from our viewpoint but from others as well.
2. Men are being held accountable
It is no coincidence that Dr. Ford’s testimony came the same week Bill Cosby was sentenced to prison for a number of years. The Divine Feminine principle is on the rise and many are already hearing and feeling her call. Women are being asked (no longer politely) to stand up, unite and fight back against the men who were not honoring the Divine Masculine principle in healthy ways.
Not all men are to blame. We KNOW this. If you are a man and worried about being attacked for being a man, you are not getting the idea. ONLY men who have abused the privilege of masculine energy, love and higher principles are being called to the bar right now. Only those who fed on the weak, are on trial right now. So let’s not make this a divide between the male and female societies. It is a call to conscious trial for those who have abused power. Innocent men are not blamed or called up and for innocent men I thank you for living in unity with the Divine Feminine principle within yourselves and with the women in society. May you continue to grow in love, strength and spirituality.
This call to trial is not to humiliate or demoralize the accused either. At least I don’t believe so. I believe it is the Universe’s way to get the wayward Soul to go straight again, at least before they check out of this earth school.
Bill Cosby will have alot of time to think and hopefully make amends with his past behavior while in jail. No interviews, shows or books to write-just him and the walls. May he come clean to himself at least and receive his awareness at the age of 81. Better late than never.
The same for Brett Kavanaugh. At some point, I hope he is able to look at his situation from another perspective and see why his actions were hurtful to another. Ego will probably keep him from sharing that awareness with anyone else and that is fine. It takes a big person to admit their mistakes. If he can at least see it from Dr. Ford’s perspective and from the perspective of others who have come out with allegations against him, it may be a big learning lesson for him.
Let us not allow this event to divide us, but to unite us in compassion for each other and for ourselves. Women can do the same things men can do. They can abuse the Divine Feminine principle as well. As we continue to watch events unfold, let us remember this. One bad apple does not ruin a barrel of apples. Similarly we do not throw out a barrel of apples over one bad apple. It is about justice within reason, compassion and servitude. May we work together to heal our society.
3. Awareness is growing in our society
I know for myself I am becoming much more mindful of my own behavior and speech towards others. I liked to call myself the “truth teller” or the “strict teacher” because I am passionate about helping people move past their excuses and getting on their path of success. I love hearing people talk about their goals in life and even more so when they make me part of it. I feel its my duty to help them get there when they entrust their lives in my hands.
As these worldly events unfold, I am taking a deeper look at myself and how my passion for helping may come across to those I am helping. Is it really helpful? Is it actually hurting more than helping?
I can see awareness growing in myself as I ask these questions and I know that other people in society are also having the same awakening.
We will never be perfect, we don’t need to be. What we need to do though is understand our roles, be compassionate with ourselves and others and do our best every chance we get.
Whatever the outcome with Dr. Ford and Brett Kavanaugh, I am praying for both of them to receive healing, grow in awareness of self and contribute this new awareness to society. For me, I am going to do the same.
I am aware enough to know that I have not hurt people purposefully. I am aware enough to know that my drive and passion in thoughts, words and life can inadvertently hurt people and for that I am sorry. I am sorry for anyone who has come in contact with me and left with a bitter taste in their mouth. I am sorry and it is my promise to do better.
I do not need the Universe to make me take a stand for my actions, I chose to do it now with my awareness and I hope I can motivate others to do the same. Let us be accountable for our actions and make amends. We are all in this together and it is time for us to stand together as an united whole not parts divided. We are stronger as a collective and together we can rise.
May you all be well.
xo Uma Alexandra Beepat
I fear the path of spirituality and where it is leading to.
From my personal observations, the scene has changed quite dramatically from the time I entered almost thirty years ago and I am almost positive the old timers….those from decades past, probably thought the same of my generation.
Are we getting better or worse in our hidden agendas, motives, secrets and lies?
Are we truly living to Be or living to get ahead?
What are we avoiding so much by pursuing our new found Spiritualities?
As much as I am outgoing and love to be in large circles discussing everything and anything remotely interesting….I also am quite introverted, concerned with deeper thought about the natural of our reality.
In my introverted moments, I have taken to observing people and matching what they say with their words to what their body shares with its language. Arguably, 90% of the time it doesn’t match up.
I am trained in body linguistics and I notice that there is tension, stiffness and unease when some people are making statements that are not in alignment with their higher truth. I don’t say a word to them about it.
Why? Well it is said in communication, be the observer not the evaluator; meaning that if you mix the two, the communication becomes unhealthy and violent with others.
For example, this is a mix of observation and evaluation: John is a lazy man.
This is an observation: I have noticed that when John is not working, he likes to lie on the couch and watch his netflix shows. He will invariably do this every night when he comes home from work before having dinner and going to bed.
So why am I worried about the spiritual path? Because it seems more people these days are making statements where they combine the two-observation and evaluation- and then pass it off as the Golden Truth or the only way it is. This coupled with not enough shadow work is seeming to me to be the downfall of the Spiritual generation.
There is a term for communication with observation and evaluation; it is called Violent Communication and it is named so because it brings pain, harm and threat to those receiving it.
As a mentor in psychic spiritual development, it is imperative that I teach from this concept because it keeps our “egoic” self out of the reading and allow Spirit to work through us.
As a spiritual teacher it is imperative that I teach from this concept because truly, there IS more than one way of doing something. My way is one way, the student’s way is another and there are plenty more where that came from.
I am being triggered by those in our community that take a stance, have only one perspective, create a lack of choice, create fear or disgust and bring heaviness to the divine path of spirituality.
It needs to stop.
As most of you know, I own a holistic wellness center and massage school in Northern Virginia. I hold about 10-20events/month and I am receiving new faces at many events. Within this population of new faces, I would venture to say that about 75% of them have come from another group or school that taught in such a way, it broke their Spirit, their confidence and their interest in evolving spiritually. It breaks my heart.
Of course, I say nothing. It is not my agenda to discuss another teacher’s work or get into the “WHY” of what they did. That would be observation with evaluation. No, instead I focus on what is presenting before me-the meek, the broken, the hurt and the confused; and my agenda is simply to clarify, to expand, to inspire and to create.
I frequently encourage my students to try out other Meetup groups and teachers in their Spiritual journeying. It is important to get a well rounded flavor of spiritual thought, actions and processes so the student can decide what works for them and what doesn’t. I am neither offended or proud when a student leaves my practice or joins my practice respectively. I am concerned on what they are receiving and how they are presenting in life.
A long time ago, someone had said that I was more committed to someone’s spiritual path than being liked or appreciated. That stuck with me because that is my Truth. I do not say things just to be on your good side, I say things to invoke thought and perspective on issues you are stuck on.
I am not here to be liked, I am here to be respected for the outstanding work I do and how I have helped you on your path in some way.
In communication, I have also noticed that people are not listening as much to listen but instead to respond. You can tell by the quick answers they provide without even hearing out the question. They have already formulated what is to be said. It is to be said because it is to match the ideal they have set. The ideal they have set is to match the picture in their head of who they are.
It sounds amazing for LOA but for digging deep, it is a nightmare.
When Rob and myself book packages with clients, many times it is because that first session or two is spent peeling back the layers of ideals and grand schemes. Yes I understand you want to get there, but before we do, I need to understand the shadow self and what you are capable of when you self-destruct.
And yes you will self-destruct. It happens in all of us and I would like to think it is a fail safe mechanism instilled in us to prevent over-anything. Over-success, Over-fame, Over-fortune, Over-joy, Over-pride, Over-greed. You get it, all the overs and overs.
The “Overs” take us out of this moment and to a place far, far away. It stops us from being in the moment and learning how to accept something as is, without evaluation.
There is no right and wrong, good or bad…it just IS.
Lastly, as I see the growth of spirituality rise, I see the darkness of the shadow self shrink. And it is not shrinking because people are doing the work; no in fact, it is shrinking due to ignorance, non-acknowledgment and drive.
- Ignorance: If I ignore those deeper feelings and keep chanting or saying positive affirmations, all day every day, things will change. I call this the ‘Fake it Till You Make It” method. Many new age Spiritualists are using it and while it feels fresh, positive and upbeat….because of its hidden agenda to hide the darkness undertone, it just comes across as an uncomfortable dinner with family who is fighting but putting on a show for visiting friends and loved ones. It feels fake and then it gets awkward because I realize that these people are really believing they are putting on a show and I am buying it, but I am not buying it and then I feel guilty about that because there is so much effort here to convince me and I really should make an effort to believe it…..sigh. This is what happens when I get around these kinds of people and then I start to act strange around them because all of this is going on in my head.
- Non-Acknowledgment: I can deal with the ignorant because at least they KNOW they have a dark side but choose to ignore it. A certain group of people I cannot be around is the non-acknowledgers. Oh boy, this is a doozy. It is a doozy because they don’t even know they have a problem. It may sound shocking but not quite..think of the friend who is in an abusive relationship or has a pattern of dating the same men. Think of the person who is always losing their job and sleeping on couches from time to time. With this group of people, I feel compassion for them because they are unaware of the problem they are experiencing which is creating the life situations they are in. It would take me a good year of working with one of these people to get through and even then, success in a turn around in not quite guaranteed, We normally tend to fight going into our shadow work and when you have someone new learning about their shadow self and then told it is responsible for the majority of decisions they are making? It might be brain overload!
- The Driven: There is a definite change in culture as of recent; with recent being about 3-4 years ago. When my partner and I came to holistic study and learning, we came to fix ourselves. It was not even a thought to become a healer, own a center or create spiritual community. We were selfish! We wanted the healing for ourselves and we bonded over our respective pain bodies. We motivated each other and Rob did an hour of energy healing on himself every day and I did two hours of spiritual practice on myself every day. I called them my MERCY mornings which stood for Meditation, Exercise, Reiki, Card Reading and Yoga. I latter moved away from that description and changed it to MERRY mornings and created a workshop out of it to help people develop their own spiritual practice. In doing our hourly self-healing practices every day, we were facing our shadow self head on. We were not hiding, dismissing or creating goals to avoid- we were facing our demons head on and mostly by ourselves without the help of others or community. These days I meet people who recently had an awakening, stated taking a couple of classes and have decided they want to be a healer or own a center. I would be a millionaire if I collected money from people who told me their goal in life was to own a wellness center and do all the things I did.
The thing is, if you really want that, then you have to go get that. BUT, one favor I am going to ask you….is to go within, spend some time with yourself and ask yourself truly, “What is it that I deeply desire?”
I once had a student remark that I made everything look effortless and when she looked at me, she thought Effortless.
I will tell you now that it is such a nicer feeling (and an effortless one!) when Spirit has something planned for you and you discover that as you grow and mature on the Spiritual path than if you decide something is for you and it may not be for you.
In owning a wellness center, Spirit deemed it necessary for me to have this. I have not ever thought about owning a wellness center in my life. As I started to grow and develop, I started seeing visions of this wellness center. I doubted it. Then Spirit sent messages through clients and friends who also had the vision and then I doubted less. Then Spirit brought the money, people, location and business to me. So I accepted.
Everything I have on the Spiritual Path came to me easy, in perfect timing and with abundance. Why? Because I had no agenda. LITERALLY.
A brief synopsis of my journey thus far:
- Had two kids –> realized I did not want to use my Master’s degree in Health Care Management to work the regular 9-5 anymore. I wanted to be home with my babies! So what next Spirit?
- Spirit pointed me and paid for massage school outright! A year of learning, making new friends, growing and evolving. I need a job now Spirit! What’s next?
- Hired at my first spa job a month before I graduated massage school. Pointed in the direction of Reiki and Reflexology. Love this! What’s next?
- Spirit created enough income for me to leave the spa jobs (3 at the time) and work full time from home. Yaaaah! This is what I wanted! To be accessible to my kids. Awesome! What’s next?
- Spirit created enough income for me to rent space outside of my home to regain privacy of home. My popularity started growing and I had to relearn boundaries and professional separation between my personal life and professional life. Lots of lessons, I am humbled. What’s next?
- Lots of requests from clients to write a book with all my sage advice and wisdom. Spirit woke me at 3am and we wrote the book and was done by 11am with the outline. Within two weeks, the book was completed. Sold and is a big hit with readers. Wow, how humbling, I am a published author now. Thank you Spirit. What’s next?
- Lots of massage school closings in our area, we need massage therapists on the forefront of healing and self-care. Spirit provided the means and resources to open a massage school. Location? Spirit created space down one floor in the same building I am in! Yaaah! Ease and Joy! No commute!
I will stop there, because you get the picture! I had no plans. If you talked to me 10 years ago and told me all the things I would accomplish by the time I turned 40, I would have thought you were on something.
In each scenario, I am happy and content with what is in front of me. When I take a class, I take it for the love of learning not to reteach it at my studio. There are so many modalities I am qualified and certified in that I have not yet taught at the center. Why? Simply because Spirit has not deemed it necessary yet. And if and when they do, I will be ready to do such a thing.
If you are reading this, and you are triggered in anyway by what you are reading, I do apologize for how you feel. I recommend you go into those feelings because that is the beginning of the shadow work. To understand your triggers and why you feel pain from my words or anyone’s words. It can only sting if there is some element of truth in it that you are denying yourself from seeing. See it, deal with it and work through it.
In closing, I would like to reiterate with what I started with. I fear the path of spirituality and where it is leading to.
When I started out in spiritual community ten years ago, I was spoiled. I had the most delicious experiences with people who were vulnerable, raw, open, honest and authentic. No one sought to be on a pedestal above others and no one was learning or attending events to become a healer. We were rejoicing in learning and sharing space, digging into our shadow selves and learning from them. This was my experience and it proved invaluable in making me the person I am today. I wish this for everyone too.
I will keep observing and paying attention. I may not say much but I will continue to think alot. It is my deepest desire we return to a state of vulnerability and humility.
Where we can show up for each other with compassion and love, instead of envy or entitlement.
Where we can listen to hear and not listen to respond.
Where we can be the constant student and step up to the path of the teacher when we are called to it by Spirit.
Where we can sit at the feet of teachers we hold in high regard not because of the number of certificates they have but because of the beauty of their words well chiseled over time from pain, suffering, learning, growing and sharing.
Where we can exist without an agenda or need to be something we are not.
Where we can stop degrading ourselves by “searching for a purpose” and revel in the joy of living.
Because truly there is no greater purpose than that.
Until next time,
I will see you and see you xo
Uma Alexandra Beepat
I write to you from the Dulles airport as I wait to board my plane to L.A. I wish it was that short of a journey but I am actually preparing for one of the longest flights of my life (aside from Egypt). I am going to Australia.
It has been a dream of mine to go to the land down under since I saw Crocodile Dundee! I have met a few Australians here and there on my journeys and I have always been fascinated by the culture which seems so similar to Americans but yet, different. I love their accent, their seemingly carefree attitude and love of life. What what a whole country and continent of this be like? And so the journey was decided upon.
Thankfully, I am not doing this alone. I have my two best friends Rani and Jen traveling with me. Well Jen is traveling with me as Rani is an Aussie! We are going to see her in her home town of Cairns and learn about the Aussie culture from a true Australian.
I am very thankful for these girls because we have this deep soul connection based on our spiritual paths and combined interest in growing and learning everyday. We first met at the Omega Institute back in 2015 when we each showed up for the Dr. Brian Weiss workshop on Past Life Regression. We each had our own backstory for being there but yet as different as they were, we still had similar interests.
I am happy to say that despite our locations in VA, CA and Australia, we have remained best friends ever since 2015 and have met up every year since then! In 2016 and 2017 we met at the Arthur Findlay College in Stansted, UK for mediumship training and now in 2018 we are meeting in Australia for Shamanic healing and extractions. How does it get better than that?
I spontaneously decided to write this blog because in the days leading up to this big trip, I realize, I have been more than nervous, I have been downright scared!
I have traveled to over 30 countries and five continents but this is one of the biggest trips I am taking. My actual itinerary getting there takes three days with the two different time changes. I leave Dulles at 7.25am and get in to L.A at 10am. I then have a loooooooong layover as my flight to Sydney leaves L.A at 11pm. That flight is a 15 hour flight and I am having all sorts of nerves about not sleeping and being awake the entire flight (flashback to my trip to Egypt). Yes the Egypt trip was a harrowing one as I was in coach class for the entire 18 hour trip WITH my 3 year old and 1 1/2 year old boys who decided to stay up the entire flight. Can you feel my nerves yet?
So as I sit here preparing for the first leg of my trip with this three hour flight across the US to California, I am reflecting on how in life, we tend to stay safe and keep it easy. I think it’s a natural thing really. If you look at life, we tend to strive to reach a comfortable level and once we get there, it is comfortable to stay there. We look to be in the right relationship, right job and right home. Once we hit that trifecta, we tend to stay there for the long haul.
I have forgotten how exciting travel can be because I travel so much on these smaller flights (VA to FL or VA to CA) that the fun of traveling has been taken out as I literally am on automatic pilot, the entire way. Now I am being challenged to pace myself, set myself up for a long trip and be on the lookout for unexpected surprises and challenges, I have to admit the adrenaline rush is now more exciting than frightening. What else is possible? How does it get better?
In life, it is ok to work hard to get to the comfortable things we want and need. However, every now and then, it is imperative that we also include a little adventure to keep the heart going, blood pumping and the thrill of living alive. You really don’t appreciate life until you test its boundaries from time to time.
Ask yourself these questions and see what comes up:
“When is the last time I did something daring?”
“When was the last time I took a great trip or had the adventure of a lifetime?”
“What can I plan for next year?”
I say next year because you need a good couple of months to plan a trip of a lifetime or great adventure. This trip to Australia has been in the plans for a year now and I can’t tell you the satisfaction and sense of accomplishment I am feeling now that it is coming to fruition. Carpe diem as my boyfriend says! (Seize the day!).
So dear reader, as you read this quick airport blog through, I ask you to feel the fear of the plans you have waiting in the wings and despite that fear, do it anyways.
In fact, you can choose to witness the feelings in your body about these ideas as fear…..or you can convert it to excitement. They both FEEL the same but one fills you with a sense of dread and the other, a sense of wonder. Which do you choose?
For me, as I get ready to board this first flight on my journey, I am choosing excitement over fear. Life is meant to be lived and that is for us all.
Until next time,
Uma is the owner of Lotus Wellness Center in Northern VA where she practices as a psychic medium, healer and metaphysical teacher. Uma loves to travel and is happy to say she has visited six continents now with her eyesight set on the last continent of Antartica before 2020! To learn more about Uma, visit http://www.umalotusflower.com
One of the beautiful things about being in tune with my psychic senses, is that I get visions and warnings from the Spirit world that tends to keep me ahead of the game. These warnings typically come in the form of dreams.
I know some of you might wonder, “Can you take that stuff seriously?” I am here to tell you, yes you can and I do very seriously.
When my beloved grandmother whom I adored and learned much about the spiritual path from, was about to make her transition; Spirit started sending me messages. I dreamt she passed at my mom’s house and in the bedroom she was staying in. I had this dream two weeks before she passed and it allowed me to take a flight down to see her and spend some time with her before she made her journey.
My deceased uncle Abe came to me in a dream to warn me about a family member who was making some bad decisions. I spoke to this family member and helped them through a rough period in their life. They were surprised I knew something was going on as they were keeping things quiet and no one knew.
I frequently get dreams about people I know in life and meet through my business Lotus Wellness Center. I would love to say that it has been all peaches and roses over here in my line of business but interestingly enough I have met a few shady characters under the “Spiritual Tribe” banner. It makes for an interesting ride.
At first I would be dismayed when things go wrong, people attack me or my business (sometimes even my kids). I would take it personally and feel helpless and defenseless. It’s a bad feeling when someone doesn’t like you, even worse when they talk about you from their perception and then the absolute worst when you can’t do anything about it.
Or can you?
Spirit is always with us and is our family, friend, loyal companion and protector. We always have the choice to pray for help and guidance and ask the Angels for protection. I pray to different celestial beings for particular requests and when it comes to protection, I love to request Archangel Michael’s assistance. When I pray to Archangel Michael, I envision him surrounding me with bright blue flames and using his sword to cut ties to negative situations and circumstances. It feels freeing.
When I call in Spirit in times of distress and upset, immediately I get signs and “advice” on how to proceed. I like to say, “I work for Spirit” but I believe Spirit works with me as well.
One of the ways Spirit communicates messages to us is through dreams. These dreams can either be visionary or symbolic. Both are prophetic.
A visionary dream is where you “see” things as clearly as they are going to happen with no need for interpretation. For instance, when I saw my grandmother deceased in a room in my mother’s home, that was visionary. Exactly as I saw it in my dream is how it happened in real life.
A symbolic dream includes photos, pictures and scenes that need some deciphering to get the message. Most people receive these kinds of dreams and feel unsure how to proceed. Well, there are many ways including hiring a dream analyst to interpret your dreams for you. I prefer the old fashioned way (and cheaper way too) which is to interpret them myself. I do that by looking up online dream dictionaries like this one here. If I see animals in my dream, I look up the meaning of that particular spirit animal. It is called animal medicine and it comes at a time when we need a message or warning.
One time I had a dream about some people I no longer socialize with. In my dream, they were sabotaging my house and I saw an alligator on my lawn. I saw my partner handle the situation and as we were walking away, two hawks flew above us and we each received a hawk feather. I looked up the meanings and sure enough, the alligator signified deceit and secret betrayals and the hawk’s message was to have greater awareness and warn us of incoming drama. My partner and I heeded the message, cut some people out of our lives and soon after, we found out what they were doing which was unknown to us. The dream saved us the feelings of betrayal because we knew ahead of time it was coming, so we were able to prepare for it. Spirit animal medicine works!
If this article intrigues you, I suggest you try it! While it is not a guarantee that every time you set the intent to dream, it will happen there are a few things you can do to help this process along:
- Try to go to sleep around the same time every night. This gets your body use to a schedule and will get you into the deep sleep you need to have dreams.
- Set the intention before sleep. I like to ask the Angels to bring clarity and understanding to my dreams about situations I am facing. I also ask to remember the dreams when I awaken.
- Get in the habit of writing down your dreams in a journal. I like to keep a pen and journal handy by my bed so as soon as I wake up, I can write down what I remember. When we do this, we train our minds to remember what we see in our dreams and our bodies to record it by writing it down.
It takes some time to get the hang of, especially if you have viewed sleep only as a divider between today and tomorrow, but once you do, you will be so thankful! The messages that stream through from the subconscious to the conscious mind with the help of our Spirit friends is simply astounding and helpful. I wish for you to be as aware and enlightened as possible, and interpreting dreams is one of the best ways to do so.
Until next time,
A story for the history books, Meghan Markle married Prince Harry and became the Duchess of Sussex. Well done Meghan, well done.
A few weeks ago we had the royal wedding and even though I knew I would watch and be moved, even I was a little shocked at how emotional I got over it. I mean, I cried for goodness sake!
It wasn’t just a cry about true love or romance or fairy tale endings. It was a cry of relief and a cry of hope because you see the Meghan Markle story is so much more than a story of true love against all odds. It’s a story of someone becoming something she and everyone else thought was off limits to her. It’s the story of Ascension.
As we all know, Meghan did not fit the traditional mold of women that marry in to the royal family. Let’s see how many strikes were against this woman shall we?
- Even worse, American Actress
- Age wise-37 years old is an old maid status
- And let’s not forget, biracial.
Yet despite the glowing and obvious “problems”, Meghan was allowed in to the Royal family and is now the Duchess of Sussex. We can only speculate to that process but I am sure it wasn’t all rosy and good times for sure!
This IS history in the making, not only for Meghan but for her future children (if an option) and the Royal Family as well. Her lineage will now always be tied to the Royal family in some way, talk about a game changer situation! Way to go Meghan!
So what is the take away about this? More importantly why is this fairy tale story making me cry and why is it important to YOU?
Because it is a live and direct reminder to us all that at ANY time in our story, we can change our outcome. We can change our trajectory and become something bigger, greater, stronger and happier. We can ALL have fairy tale endings for ourselves and our generations to come. That’s why tears flowed freely for me.
We are only a product of our past if we choose to remain in our past. I don’t think for a second Meghan sat and thought about her past life or how much of a non-fit she was when Harry asked her out. I am pretty sure she said Yes without hesitation and without thinking too much about it.
It’s about living in the moment and living from your heart. It’s about choosing to see the beauty in you that others see in you. It’s about saying YES to life and all the choices and possibilities that come your way. Without hesitation. Without review. Without judgment.
It doesn’t matter where you started. Start Again. It doesn’t matter who you have been. BE who you are now. It doesn’t matter if you feel less than. Fake it till you make it. You have the power inside of you to recreate who you are at any given moment. It is all up to you.
So take a page from Meghan’s playbook will you? Go for gold, accept opportunities sent your way and who knows? Maybe you too can change your entire life and create a lasting legacy for generations to come. Dare to be bold and dare to dream. You got this,
Love and Light,