Mercury Retrograde in Pisces

We are in the middle of a mercury retrograde, the first one of three this year, and I have to say, it hasn’t been quite bad! I have been enjoying it more than I usually do and my upsets seem to be related to technology only. Whew!

Definitely a treat compared to when Mercury was retrograde in Aries last year. Much different energy!

Today we will talk about what mercury retrograde in Pisces means and how to safely navigate out of one. This current retrograde period ends on March 28th and we have a little room to breathe before we are hit with three more planetary retrogrades in April.

If you have never heard of Mercury retrograde or understand the issues that tend to arise during this period, read all about it here.

Mercury Retrograde in Pisces brings about a conundrum of sorts. Mercury is at home in the signs of Gemini and Virgo. Virgoan and Gemini interest is in the details and well, that wouldn’t work in the watery sign of Pisces.

In Pisces, there is a need to take a wider, more expansive, mystical view of life. Most people do not like change, so if you tend to be rigid in thinking or controlling in thought, this can be a very challenging time for you. Expect things to shift to create chaos to get you to uncling from these hard and fast beliefs. Going with the flow is so necessary now and being able to change at a moment’s notice will make it easier.

I myself have had to reroute regularly, sometimes even hourly! But this is the beauty of learning about life outside of our viewpoint. In learning about retrogrades and especially this one in Pisces, it has helped me keep an open mind and see change as fantastic and not something to be feared.

Indeed I am an Earth sign and have a couple of signs in my chart that are mutable (non fixed) so going with the flow is easy for me. There are some signs that are definitely impacted more than most this season and they are:

Signs Mostly Affected this Pisces Season:

  1. Water Signs-Pisces, Cancer and Scorpio

As a water sign, you already know how to swim effortlessly through change so keep at it! Allow yourself to expand, redirect, change directions and take risks. Others may not support you or even doubt you but don’t let them! You are in swimming season, so keep your positivity up and watch some amazing things happen this retrograde season!

  1. Fire Signs- Aries, Leo and Sagittarius

Cool down fire sign! You may be struggling this season because there is an innate tendency in fire signs to want to WIN no matter what the cost. In this retrograde season you can expect to see your important relationships challenged. It can be home, personal, business or in the community. Before you make sudden and drastic decisions (impulsive much?), take a breath, CALM DOWN and wait this season out. If you don’t take this time out, you can create much damage that may not be repaired.

Tips to Flow during this Season:

No matter what sign you are, for the remainder of the retrograde season, do these three things or place some importance on them:

  1. Allow yourself to daydream

You are having a hard time with a project at work. Instead of contemplating the solution with what you have available (may not be much), imagine a different outcome if you lived in a “perfect world” and you had every resource available to you.

This kind of daydreaming is what Pisces energy is built on! Allow your mindset to drift and imagine bigger and better things than you currently have. You may be surprised to see some of your outlandish dreams coming true or heading in that direction!

2. Self Care focus and take breaks

Many of us have noticed with the advent of this retrograde period, we just couldn’t seem to get out of bed. Ohhhhh the energy drain! As much as we are SUPPOSED to take care of ourselves all of the time, it is especially crucial during a retrograde season.

I am pretty good about taking my daily multivitamins and probiotics but come retrograde time, I am fanatical about taking them every day! I also tend to go to bed earlier, have more nap times during the day and be willing to be break commitments to honor my energy.

Work at the pace that you can comfortably. A retrograde doesn’t last forever! With the incoming new moon in April, you can expect to get that drive back and have interest in all the things prompt and fast moving!

3. Hold space for others and/or limit social time 

Many people do not follow astrology or pay attention to these deeply impactful planetary movements. Forgive them anyway. ūüôā

The beauty of knowledge is that it becomes wisdom when shared or experienced. This information you learn, is not meant to be storehoused in a corner of your brain until you die! No, no, no! You learn, you grow and you expand…..this in turn helps you to help other people.

Maybe no one wants to listen to you go on and on about planets. Cool. When THEY start getting irritated or frustrated, don’t judge them or make fun of them, take a higher approach and hold space for them.

Also, it is ok and perfectly normal to pull away from people in general when you are in a retrograde period. It is a time of deep introspection so if you feel to curl up in your home and spend some time by yourself, have at it! Build your energy for the times you do feel social.

Tips to leaving a Retrograde Period: 

As we come to the end of mercury retrograde in Pisces on March 28th, here are some realistic expectations you can do to make it comfortable:

  • Be aware. Whatever you started in a retrograde period CAN end as life returns to normal. This is why it is suggested not to start a relationship in a retrograde peiod. If you did start something, then allow yourself to be flexible and ready for adjustments. It may not end, it can change in some other aspect. Whatever happens, be open and accepting of what comes your way.

 

  • I don’t know why but it seems like the end of the retrograde period tends to be the toughest! I can sail through a season easily until its last two days and then all hell breaks loose! Because of this happening frequently, I have learned to slow down and create space in between my TO DO list of things. When a planet ends its retrograde, the energy can be supercharged, so we can all be a little frazzled and exhausted anyway, and need the extra time to rest so we‚Äôre not completely burned out. Once the retrograde is over, work on replenishing your energy. Rest.

 

  • Pay attention to what areas are ruled by the house the planet retrogrades in (in this case Pisces) as they tend to get the brunt of the problems during the retrograde. Start to make plans for how you can right whatever went wrong, and get everything back to normal (or better than normal) soon after the retrograde ends.

 

So as we journey through this water sign, take your time, relax and breathe. You got this, sometimes you may forget but I am here to remind you, all the power lies within you! Now that you are armed with this knowledge, go forth and blossom!

xo Uma

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Uma Alexandra Beepat is an intuitive consultant, spiritual teacher and owner of Lotus Wellness Center in Northern VA.

To learn more about Uma, visit http://www.umalotusflower.com

 

The Path of Least Resistance

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I listen to a lot of Abraham Hicks recordings on YouTube. I am a big fan of the Law of Attraction (LOA) and while there are many speakers on this topic, Esther Hicks just hits home with it for me.

It is not uncommon for me to include the requirement of listening to Hicks YouTube videos in my clients’ weekly homework. It is so helpful on so many levels. Many times my clients do not know who Abraham Hicks is, and well, if you are in this bracket, let me help a little.

Abraham is a group of beings not from this world who use Esther Hicks as a vessel to speak their messages. Esther acts like a channel by first relaxing and allowing the Beings who are collectively referred to as Abraham to speak through her. You can find hundreds of FREE YouTube videos on this phenomena like this one. The messages are always positive and filled with love and compassion for us earthly beings. I find myself soothed after listening to one of their fabulous channeled recordings.

 One of the teachings Abraham Hicks stresses about 80% of the time is taking the Path of Least Resistance. At first, I just liked hearing it and repeating it to myself because it sounded catchy. It made me sound smart and like I knew what I was talking about. However as I started delving deeper into the world of LOA, I kept bumping up against blocks while trying to manifest my goals in life. What the?!

I decided one day to really ponder on the concept. The Path of Least Resistance. What does that mean? Maybe some of you might get it right away but to this Capricorn, it sounded like Greek. I couldn’t understand. Until I did.

I had a situation come up with a friend that I could not avoid. I had a different point of view than this friend and unfortunately it was a strong difference in opinion. So strong that we could not continue on the same path because our points of views were so radically different.

It was at that point that I decided to try the Path of Least Resistance. I mean, I wasn’t about to change my mind, it felt right at the time for me to do what I was doing and for them, well they were just as stubborn about their view point as well. We were at an impass and only because of that, this stubborn Cappy decided to try a different route.

At first I just stopped resisting her. I would state my point clearly and then also clearly let her know I wasn’t going to change my mind so the ball is in her court as to what she wanted to do. Well, it would have been a good end to a movie if it just ended there, but of course it didn’t. It escalated and quickly.

This person who was so loving towards me turned harshly and took to social media to attack my personal life and my business. Ouch.

All of me wanted to fight back. To defend, to fight and mostly to win, but I kept remembering Abraham Hicks words, “You want to manifest your hearts desires? Take the Path of Least Resistance. What you resist, persists.”

So I didn’t do anything. I left it alone. I hurt silently in private and then put on a brave face when I went out in public and did the best to teach my classes and see my clients for services, but always with the burning, stinging words in my back. I felt less than, unappreciated and betrayed.

Eventually the former friend grew weary of attacking me and moved on to something or someone else, who knows because I was unfriended on FB which suited me well, because if it is one pet peeve of mine about Facebook is all the passive aggressive posts people put up. I mean just say what you mean and mean what you say already!

Well years passed and I all about forgot about this moment in history because like the LOA promised, things worked out in the end. My decision which I felt strongly about at the time panned out and my business grew by leaps and bounds, despite all the negative publicity (or maybe because of it) she brought to me. What was even more special was her reaching out to me after the fact and asking for us to have lunch and sit down and talk a bit. I was reluctant at first because I wasn’t sure who I was going to get but I trusted and went with best intentions.

It turned out to be a good lunch! She apologized for her behavior towards me and went into some personal details of what she was going through at the moment and how it just made me the punching bag. I was floored because of course, when you go through something like that, you tend to think its all your fault!

The thing that did change though was my reactions to these incidences. The Path of Least Resistance taught me several things which has helped me with my confidence, self-esteem and in maintaining my positivity:

1) You are a Shiny Mirror for others

Many times when people are REACTING to you, they are really reacting to some aspect within themselves they don’t like but are seeing quite clearly in you. I mean think about it. What could you possibly do that would be so devastating that they have to cut you out of their life? When you see people cut you out of their life or block you on Facebook, it is because they don’t want to SEE you…a.k.a they don’t want to SEE the parts of themselves reflected back.

SO if someone says you are bossy (true story), they are unhappy with the moments in their life when they are bossy and they feel bad about it. They want to change it but instead of analyzing their own behavior, they tend to look at what you are doing instead. It stings less. Didn’t Jesus say it best? Worry not about the speck in my eye but the log in your own?

What do you do then? You take the path of least resistance. You do nothing and let them act out. I have lived long enough to see people who made a great spectacle of themselves over MY actions or MY words, come back later in life and apologize. And you know what you do then? You stay humble and be in gratitude that they can accept responsibility for what they did because that speaks volumes to their character. The most enlightening beings will come back and apologize because they have no ego, they truly are concerned with their growth and making amends as they go along. Stand up people in my opinion.

2) Don’t Assume. It’s not Personal.

Even though the insults hurled at you may seem personal, it really isn’t. Hurt people hurt people and the harder the insults come at you, the more hurt they are in. I remember one time a looooooooong time ago when I was a young girl, full of emotion and passion, I had a screaming match with my boyfriend. I mean I was 16 and I was full of RAGE (God knows for what) and he was the one I was mad at so……..BLAST!

¬†It’s funny that I can’t remember all the details of this particular fight, it was so long ago but I will never forget how he reacted. He too was only 16, a boy really but so mature. He stood there for the longest time, silently and watched me; then when he found a break in my rampage, he just slowly walked towards me and hugged me. Well he timed that perfectly because I was so winded from all the yelling and screaming, I couldn’t do anything but collapse in his arms and cry. And he just held me. It was one of the most poignant and tender moments I have in this life that I like to reflect on. He would be a prime example of the Path of Least Resistance. He didn’t take it personally anything I said. He knew I was hurt and he knew I was lashing out and he was committed to hugging me and being there for me despite it all. Wow. Talk about a classy 16 year old!

If only we could all be that poised…..but actually, we can. I believe tolerance of other peoples’ actions or words is a muscle that needs to be built up. If you grew up in a home where kindness and virtue were extolled daily then you might have a weak tolerance muscle. If you grew up in a rougher neighborhood, you may have a strong tolerance muscle. But like anything else, you can build it.

NOW I am not saying just stick around and be a punching bag for other people. No way! You have to also have discernment about situations. If your partner is usually cool, calm and centered and one day they flip off and start dropping F bombs everywhere, you might want to take that opportunity to build your tolerance muscle. On the other hand, if the partner is constantly letting you down, hurting you emotionally or draining you, this is not the time ti build tolerance. It’s another muscle you need to work on and its called detachment.

 3) Focus your Energy Elsewhere

It takes a lot of energy to stay engaged with someone who dislikes you. It is exhausting running those mental processes of what you could,should and would have done in a different scenario. Stop. Haven’t you read #1 and #2? It’s never about you and it’s mostly their own issues they are addressing.

So that frees you up now…what will you do with your reclaimed energy? For me, whenever I am “under attack”, (remember this happens quite a few times a year, and I find the more popular¬†my center¬†grows, the more this happens on the regular), it is the perfect time to take a hiatus from social media. I would limit my social media time to just posting for my businesses and then be off as quickly as I got on. I would also increase my meditation time to tune out those pesky negative thoughts and stay in my vortex of happiness, peace and joy.

It becomes almost a game, where instead of playing to win, you are playing for peace. What can I do today to have the easiest and most peaceful day possible? You start to plan your route around people or things that can trigger you, and you know what? It works. You become so focused on your self happiness and ways to stay peaceful, that you almost forget there is someone out there who is unhappy with you. I heard a saying that I really loved that went something like this, “It doesn’t matter what other people think of me, it only matters what I think of myself.” Well I tend to think I am just the cat’s meow, so negativity be gone! There ain’t no place for you here!

 4) People will talk, let them.

I remember one time an ex-partner and I broke up romantically but remained friends. It’s not uncommon for me to do that, I mean, just because we didn’t work out romantically doesn’t mean I stopped liking or even loving the person, so why not stay friends? Well we were living in a small community at the time where everyone knew everyone. I remember he went to¬†an event and these two nosy older ladies straight up asked him about our love life in front of everyone. He was a classy guy and he handled it well. He was able to answer their questions to tell them what they needed to hear without betraying our connection.

I remember when he told me I was so enraged. I mean what business is it of theirs? What did our love life have to do with the event anyways? But I did as my partner suggested and let it go. At first I let it go more for him because he was such a stand up guy but then I saw the reason in it. It doesn’t matter what you do or don’t do…people will always have some opinion about it.

You have to learn to take the path of least resistance and walk away from the drama without engaging. What happens when you do engage? It gets worse. Because that’s what unhappy people want. A reason to feel alive, a reason to DO something, a reason to fight for something because they can’t or won’t fight for their own self improvement. Ouch. I know it sounds harsh but trust me, I have seen enough of these depressing people in my life, and they all have a common thread which is unhappiness within themselves.

Now when I see other people nosy about other peoples’ businesses, I instantly recognize the core issue. They feel unloved or unworthy within themselves and feel the need to put down someone else to feel a little better. There is no helping these people because unless they accept responsibility for what they do, it wouldn’t change; so why even bother? I have learned to let people have the last say…not because I can’t debate them, but I just don’t have the energy or interest to. That revelation brought me so much joy and peace, it made the path of least resistance more irresistible.

I am aware that for letting go or taking the path of least resistance is either an entirely new concept or something you have dabbled with. My advice? Take it slow, do what you can and be easy on yourself. In the beginning if the path of least resistance is just you focusing on your breathing to feel better, then do that. In time, it will build to bigger and bigger steps to the point, you are completely not engaging and it becomes second nature.

Now isn’t that a nice concept? To live your life independently of others and be free.¬†¬†What a beautiful world that would be if we all could. Until next time, stay in your Vortex and always be full of love and light,

xo Uma

The Birth of Awareness

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Ever since I was a little girl I was chastised for the wrongness of me. At first I was confused. What do you mean I laugh too loud? What does it mean that I am too curvy for a 10 year old? Why do you want to tame my long, unruly hair and put me in dresses when I rather climb a tree and play football with my brother and his friends?

Eventually the confusion gave way to anger. I became angry and stayed angry for a very long time. Anytime I felt the judging comments or looks coming my way, I would block it off at the start with my own growl or piercing stare. I learned from an early age how to shut down opposition fast.

There is a right and a wrong, good and bad to this though. While I learned how to love myself unconditionally, I also avoided constructive criticism that came my way from well meaning friends, boyfriends and family members. I couldn’t take it as constructive, I was too burnt from the years of oppressive comments that burned me to my core. I was angry and if you were not in agreement with me, you were against me. And all of Uma, couldn’t have that.

¬†Fast forward to last year which I lovingly refer to as my “Dark Year of the Soul” and those unhealthy behaviors came full force. My anger cost me my relationship, friendships and created stress and strife in my life. I was not feeling the Zen I was promised from being on the Spiritual path.

I knew I desired change but I didn’t know how to go about getting it.¬†Abraham Hicks says all of your reality is your manifestation and everyone and everything in it is there to serve you, as it is about you, and for you because it is created by you. I like to use the terminology of a sandbox. When we are born, we are born into our own sandboxes. As we go through life, we invite people into our sandbox to play with us. Some stay awhile, some come and go and come back again and some come in quickly and never return again. Sometimes we leave our sandbox to go meddle in other people’s sandboxes, and that is ok. It’s all a circle of life. A circle of sandboxes.

I believe what happened last year followed this concept and the Law of Attraction. Me, the UMA that was born on this Earth Planet many years ago knew she was wanted to uplevel and be there before she turned 40. The UMA wanted to work on those few bothersome things that were still affecting her on a personal and emotional level, and take it a higher level. So the UMA invited in the contrast.

Abraham Hicks talks about the need of human beings to invite in contrast for them to transform. Contrast is all the yucky things- drama, strife, struggle, pain and suffering. At this moment in time, we cannot ascend or transform without the contrast, so according to their teachings, it is a beautiful thing when the contrast comes because it signifies growth.

There was a lot of strife and struggle last year with business as I created another two businesses in addition to the two I already owned. My health and weight was not in the best place and these things were affecting me and therefore leaking into my relationship with my soulmate. Eventually it led to our downfall and for his own safety (and sanity) he had to lovingly walk away from our relationship. That was the last straw and I broke.

In true Uma style, I didn’t break halfway or a little bit or one piece at a time, I broke completely. It was a breaking of my self. It was the beginning of my death.

I remember reading Eckhart Tolle’s work awhile back, “The Power of Now” where he talked about being suicidal because he was tired of being him. He reached the point where he thought about suicide and was seriously contemplating it and it was that one night, he experienced as he called it, the death of the Ego.

As Eckhart was muling over the thoughts in his head, “I can’t stand myself”, he realized there were two voices. The “I” and the “myself”. So which one was he? He was identifying himself all the time in his thoughts and he wanted to know, who was this person speaking? From that first question, he gained an incredible amount of clarity and awareness and it changed his life to take him to the level of success he is at now.

Some call this other voice a monitor, some call it the Voice of Reason, some say Higher Self or our Inner Being. It doesn’t matter, the understanding is the same in that we are always accessible to a higher version of ourselves, and that higher version usually comes out in times of strife.

Last summer, I had a breakdown myself like Eckhart and contemplated dark thoughts. It was a dark moment where I wasn’t sure which way to proceed. It felt like all of life was failing me. My businesses were becoming increasingly difficult to handle, I felt betrayed by the¬†disappearance¬†of my soulmate,¬†my kids were gone for the whole summer and I was all alone in my house with my thoughts. Yup, I was ready to check out feeling sorry for myself.

I remember one painful night very well. I drank a lot because I was trying to numb the pain of feeling alone, overwhelmed, fearful, scared, depressed and like a failure. I was in and out of consciousness and I faintly remember crying and talking to a friend about how this was all too much and I was overwhelmed. I went to bed feeling defeated and begging the Universe for another way.

I can’t remember exactly how the turn around came and I wish I did so I could share it truthfully here. What I do know, is that blessedly it came. I just woke up (literally) the next¬†morning and I felt….lighter. Something was lifted and something was no longer there but I didn’t know what. It didn’t matter though, I felt so good, I got up and did my morning spiritual practice, something I haven’t done in a long time. And then I¬†decided I wanted to live. Not just live day to day but truly live. I wanted to experience this life and expand my experiences as much as possible outside my previous circle of pain. I felt I could do it and I wasted no time getting to work.

I planned a girls trip to Mexico. I wanted to do one of my first loves, which is traveling. I also have a hobby of visiting ancient wonders of the world so Chichen Itza was on my list. In going to Mexico, the visit to the famous ruins wasn’t my high point. The high point of that trip was jumping into a cenote (an underground sinkhole) and swimming in the cool waters.

There were two ways to get into the cenote, either jump into the dark lagoon trusting there is no mythical water dragon there to eat you up or you can take the ladder down. I remember standing there with Julie and we were both contemplating it. It felt important somehow, me taking this jump, like it was representing something more than what it was.

As I stood there, I realized, “Uma this is what you do. You weigh the pros and cons of everything as life is passing you by. No more!¬†trust your intuition and the vibration of the moment and go for it if it feels right.” I stopped thinking and jumped into the cool dark waters. As I sank lower and lower and lower, I let go. It was only a couple of seconds but it felt like a lifetime going down in that water. I kept falling and it felt good. It felt free.

As I rose to the surface of the water, I felt all the heaviness of my problems stay behind in that cenote and I came up lighter, happier and free. I laughed out loud uncontrollably and was crying but no one could tell because I was swimming in a cenote, where there were tons of people, lots of whooping and yelling and my uncontrollable laughter and tears were part of the mayhem. I felt like me again.

Not me prior to my relationship or my business, big things that were part of my identity for such a long time. I remember specifically feeling like I was when I was 12 years old. I felt sassy and happy and content with who I was. I felt fearless and adventurous and always up for a good time. I felt joy.

When we returned from Mexico, I jumped into life. I took a spontaneous trip to Florida to see my babies and hang out with my brother, talking about life on a beach in Fort Lauderdale and just being in the moment. I went to a concert with friends high on life and heard my favorite all time song live. And met some interesting people that taught me some interesting things. I took another spontaneous trip to Florida to be in an advanced mediumship workshop with John Holland and met an incredible group of people and fell in love with the most beautiful Gypsy man I ever met. We became friends but knew we lived this life together before.

In living for myself and with myself, I became increasingly aware of what this life was like and what it was about for all of us. I developed compassion for myself and all beings. I stopped looking through the lens of hate, anger, fear, blame, shame, regret, doubt and all the other distractor implants we have to distract us from just loving and being love. I became love.

Now this love I was experiencing and being, was my version of expression of love. So sometimes I can say this and some people go “huh?” Uma is NOT what I would think of as love and light, and you know what? You are damn right. I am not.

¬†My expression of love is trust and allowance. My definition of trust is in alignment with the Access Consciousness founder Gary Douglas’s definition which states, “Trust is not about trusting in someone or in self, it is about trusting that person will act exactly how you know¬†them to act given their circumstances and their thought processes.” I became clear in my perception. I became aware.

In trusting that people were going to do certain things based on what they know to do, I relaxed and allowed. I held no judgment and I stayed in my sandbox.

People noticed a change in me over this summer. To some, they couldn’t understand me. Like literally. We would have conversations and they would look at me and say, “I can’t understand what you are saying.” And this is the second part of my love coming in. I allowed. I was doing and saying things outside of the comprehension of many and they couldn’t grasp what I was doing. For some, they were aware enough to know that something else was at play here so they accepted and allowed and some¬†turned to judgment. It was all okay.

Some went further and accused me of ridiculing them and being mean so¬†I got blocked and unfriended on FB.¬†I was accused¬†for being a “fake spiritual teacher” and I got ridiculed for being an emotional being. However none of these things triggered me. I didn’t feel dejected or rejected. The anger did not come nor did the pettiness, because I was just so keenly aware of what was happening and sometimes even on a cellular level. This is how I knew I gained enlightenment. Life was still happening all around me and to me but I did not have a charge, an emotional charge about it. I was in a state of continual perception.

The best part of this enlightenment happened in my workplace. I took this awareness into my work, and I spoke to bodies that were sick and dying and brought them back to functioning. Law of Attraction brought me terminally ill clients, more so than I have seen in years. Last year became the year I stopped being a massage therapist and the majority of my sessions were either on the phone or in person and talking. No touch, just talking BUT people were leaving healed. Lighter, free and more aware. I am grateful for this shift that has profoundly helped me and helped others.

It’s not miracle work, its awareness. When you gain awareness, you know what you need to say to everyone and everything to make it work again. And making it work again, work the way it was intended to work, that was my way of expressing love in this community.

So what was the point of this blog? The moral of the story? Step into the pain. Go into it willingly. Embrace it if you must because eventually, one painful day or night, it will lead to the death of the ego and in doing so, the birth of awareness can happen.

I am not saying I am perfect now. Hardly. I am however more aware of where I still have work to do and what I can work on and what needs to be left alone until another time. When I do make a mistake or hurt someone’s feelings unintentionally, I am quick to apologize. I am even quicker to listen and slower to defend. I am learning to accept that people will do what they need to do to comfort themselves without regard for others because truly, they have to take care of themselves.

I am also learning when to offer help and when to step back. I recently tried to help someone close to my heart but they responded with such anger and hate towards me, I stepped back immediately and stayed in a place of allowance and love for the person. This particular person and I¬†had a torrid past and they clearly were still hurting from my past actions. It is because of their hurt, I wanted to help, especially because I created the hurt in the first place but they said something that added to my awareness. “I am not ready”. I agreed and stepped back. I love this person for honoring where they are at and not judging themselves for still holding on to the anger. This is the version of super human I intend to be myself. To be ok with all the feelings and accepting of them all.

I see what people are doing, and I am seeing it clearly because I have no judgment into what they are doing. I want to help. Its part of my soul contract why I came here.

So in closing, ask yourself¬† if you are in the middle of depth and despair. And if you are, be honest and ask yourself, are you running from it? If a yes comes up, how about trying something different? How about leaning into it as¬†Pema Chodron¬†would say, or just letting go and allowing it? Maybe you will experience the great death I did and begin to feel the free-ness of being you and being aware. It is something I wish for everyone.¬†Awareness without Judgment. It’s a beautiful thing.

 Love and Light,

xo Uma

What kind of healing do you need?

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Let’s start with a hypothetical question. Let’s say hypothetically you were diagnosed with some type of cancer that could still be treated with chemotherapy. Do you think it would be one session of chemo that would fix it?

Better yet (and less serious), let’s say you need a root canal. Do you think your dentist would tell you it can be done in one visit?

How about we take it out of the medical/dental field and go somewhere more luxurious such as a beauty salon. If you are someone who gets color treatment on their hair to hide (ahem) their grays, do you think you can accomplish that in one session?

Do you see where I am going with this? The answer is NO to all of them.

Chemotherapy is a couple of sessions taken over a couple of weeks until they check and check again to make sure all signs of cancer are eradicated. I recently had a friend who underwent close to a year of radiation and chemotherapy treatments because they discovered a tumor on his throat. A year of treatments.

The dentist visit? At best, it is at least three visits. The first to take X-rays and talk shop. The second to repair the tooth and put a temporary crown on it and the third visit for the permanent crown.

Forget it about hair. Once you start, you are committed for the rest of your life. Or so I have heard. I wouldn’t know…..I heard it…..from a friend.

The point I am trying to drive home is this…….YOU¬†as a consumer and active person of interest into your own health and upkeep….you¬†already understand and follow the protocol for body and mind care and can handle the fact that it takes a couple of sessions to reach completion. If you know this, then why…..why do you hassle natural healers to perform miracles in ONE session?

Over the years I have had a surprising number of clients who have popped up on my schedule expecting nothing less than the impossible.

Client #1- “I have been suffering from a host of issues for over a year now. I have seen every kind of healer I could see and now I am here. If you don’t help me, I don’t know what I will do.”

Results- Client attended one session and wrote back after two days that “nothing is working.” She immediately cut communication and left the practice.

Client #2-“I have been under a psychiatrist care over five years now and am on medication. I don’t feel like this reiki or meditation stuff is working. I feel worse than before and feel like killing myself.”

Results- *The red card was pulled (because client mentioned possible self harm, I had to advise her to seek medical counsel and let her go.) and even though I had to let client go, she was upset she didn’t heal right away.

I am not sure why there is an influx of these clients (I call them “One and Done”) and I can only imagine it is either because:

1) My reputation as a world class healer (tongue in cheek) precedes me and now the stakes are higher for services.

2) People are getting fed up with their situations and want healing NOW.

I am leaning more to the latter and if that is the case….and you are identifying with this article, then let me clear up some things concerning natural healing and a client.

Your sessions depend on how long you have been suffering with the issue:

I once had a client come to me for a reiki session. She was on antidepressants for over 12 years! And clearly under the care of a psychiatrist. She was emotionally cut off from her husband and leading a dreary life in a dead end job. She had no passion and I could see the dull glaze in her eyes due to the constant medication.

After the session, she said she felt a little better and I looked her right in the eye and said, “Lady if you want me to make more than a dent in this energy fog, I need at least 10 sessions.” She was as surprised as I was because trust me, I did not plan to say that, it just sort of popped out.

Well I guess it was what she needed to hear. She signed up and came obediently every week. That was the longest I ever saw a client and you know, it was a learning experience for us both. She would show up and I would work on her and in time I got to know more about her through the sessions and small talk we would have. Her sessions started off as energy healing but by the end, it also included life coaching as well. We were tearing down the wall that was set up so long ago. The sun was peeking in and we were both loving it.

By¬†the end of the 10 sessions, she had come completely off her medication and she didn’t want to stop! She signed up for another 10 sessions and we kept going. Her relationship with her husband improved after they sought couples counseling and she even quit her job and started a new career. BY the complete end of the 20 sessions, she was literally a whole new woman. That client taught me alot. She taught me that through intent, strong willpower and trust in a process, we can all change our lives. I have not heard from her in years and you know what? I am happy. I know she is somewhere living happily and creating the life she desires.

THIS is the story I want to share with my clients, clients of other healers and potential clients to us all. We cannot wipe out decades of hurt, pain, fear and negativity in one session, we need more.

Many times my fellow healers KNOW you need more sessions but fear, anxiety and lack of confidence prevents them from sharing their truth with you. Many of us do not want to be seen as business people or doing this for the money (trust me we are not). So we try to keep it casual and say something like, “Ok well let me know when you would like another session.”

What we really want to say is, “Man you are messed up! You know I can help! You can see me for service A, product B, service C and a three pack of service D and we will be set to go!”

Ok maybe not as harsh, but you know what I mean. We would love to honestly tell you that you need more than one session, but our services has gotten a bad rep in the community due to some shady characters (think Miss Cleo).

But you know what YOU can do? You can help your healer out. First of all, you have clear intuition. Either before or after a session, you KNOW you are with the right healer. After a session, don’t be shy! Ask your practitioner, “So what do you think? Am I one and done or are we doing this dance for a bit?” Trust me, it will help you and your healer develop clear communication and a plan for your healing.

The first session with a healer is more like a consultation and general mapping, not the excavation of the issue. When a client comes in to see me, we spend quite a bit talking before they move to the table. Why? Because spiritual healing has less to do with physical symptoms and more to do with emotional and mental trauma caused over the years and stored in the body.

I want to know what you were thinking when the symptoms first appeared.¬†It is here in the knowing, that I get to empathically feel your pain and then the map appears…leading me to the energetic knot in your back that I can then remove easily. Of course, this is my method…and every healer is different! BUT it doesn’t matter. We all have our own process of working, and the magic lies in our unique ways.

When you come in to see us for a first session, we didn’t even crack the surface …especially if it is an hour or less. We got to stay above the surface…play on the sand on the beach…maybe we find a shiny, pretty shell or not…but in the end we all feel good for a little bit.

The more you come in for a session, the deeper you allow the exploration to go and its pretty much like giving a healer scuba equipment and saying have at it! We then can go the distance and find the buried treasure in the sunken ship at the bottom of the ocean. YOU are way more happier with gold and pearls than a shiny shell. It can be life changing.

There are different types of sessions. Know what you need¬†and the results will match your expectations.¬†Your expectations have to match the reality. With any client I see, I ask them “What is your general plan with healing?” Most times they don’t know. Well I am here to help you with that. As a client, you more than likely¬†fall into one of three categories:

 1) The Experimenter

 2) The Healer

 3) The Grower

The Experimenter heard of services through friends or media and want to try it to see what it is like. They are not committed to a long term plan because they are more interested in saying they had it done at least once than none at all.

*Healer friends, do not give up on Experimenters! I myself have converted many to Healers and Growers because they enjoyed the session so much, they kept coming back. Never say never!

The Healer is seeking services because they have an issue and they don’t want to go the route of traditional medicine and healing. Either they have gone that route and were let down or they prefer a more natural and organic type of healing. These clients are more open to a treatment plan and long term options of care. I reward these clients with package discounts and sometimes freebies depending on how often they come. I have a couple of people who have been seeing me steadfastly every month for years and they are close to my heart so I cater to them. This is the kind of privilege you can get as a client if you remain in good communication with your healer.

The Growers are people who are interested in their spiritual path and growth so they turn up every couple of weeks or months when they feel a “dip” in their energy and need a boost. I love these clients too (who am I kidding, I love them all) because they are more open to learning the healing modalities for themselves and frequently end up in my classes. They are not so much interested in starting a business but to learn self healing techniques for themselves and loved ones.

As a client you can place yourself in one of the categories and seek a healer out. This alleviates the pain of disappointments if results don’t come your way. If you have problems with bowel movements and decide to see a healer one time (experimenter), chances are you will be unhappy because your goals did not match up with your expectations.

Be proactive in your care, discuss with your healer what you are going through and then set a plan. Remember your healer is here to work with you not command you or work against you.

As with everything in life, healing takes time. If you are willing to give your healing process the time it needs, work and communicate with your healer ….you can expect to see the miracles come about. We the healers celebrate right alongside with you.

In love and light,

Uma xo

He who barks the loudest

One time while visiting my partner, I was greeted by loud barking as I pulled up in his driveway. Now I knew this wasn’t Silas! A friendly and warm Great Pyrenees who could not hurt a fly!

I was right, it wasn’t this sweet gentle giant but another dog half the size of Silas but with much more of a bark! My partner was babysitting another dog, Carter while his owner was away at the beach. This dog is nothing like Silas. He is half the size of Silas but louder and more barky. When I walked into the house Silas greeted me warmly as he usually does but Carter¬†was growling and barking in a very loud tone that was mean and menacing. I was terrified LOL.

After Carter settled down and sat quietly in the corner, I decided to go and be kind and pet him. It was a nice thought but the minute I tried to touch Carter he bared his teeth turned around and snapped at me! Thank God I have lightening quick reflexes! I recoiled my hand in horror and retreated quickly to the safety of the corner of the room.

After Carter attempted to bite me, he went to the closet and got his stuffed animal and then went under the desk and hid underneath my partner’s legs. I was completely perplexed by this seemingly aggressive yet vulnerable creature, what gives?

¬†Well I later found out that Carter was an abandoned dog and¬†because of his abandonment and hurt inflicted by the family who previously owned him,¬†he had developed¬†trust issues with humans. He wasn’t treated very kindly by the family before and there was a lot of pain and suffering still rampant in him.

¬†Ahhhh, it makes sense and I could see that now.¬†As I thought about this dog, I thought to myself….how many people are like this dog? We have heard the term before right? “Hurt people hurt people”…..its akin to a barking dog.¬†Sometimes the dog that barks the loudest…is the most hurt dog of all.

No there is another type of barking dog that demonstrates hurt and pain. The dog that is constantly barking…and that is the one I want to talk about today.

See aside from Carter’s growling and attacking anyone who comes close to him (outside of his inner circle), he is also constantly barking. And in hearing that, we can relate it back to¬†people we also know in life who are constantly talking about themselves right? Ahhh now¬†you get it.

As a teacher and mentor at Lotus Wellness Center, I frequently have one or two students who disrupt class flow with their personal stories, oversharing or wanting to discuss their own issues in class. For many students it is annoying and I frequently get a stern talking to from students after class either in person or through email.

¬†“Uma you need to be a better moderator in class. I didn’t come here to listen to someone else talk about their issues.”

“Uma I am paying for class to hear you speak!”

“Uma you need to talk to her and put her in her place. Why does she take up so much time in class talking about her stuff?”

Thankfully I managed to find a common ground between my need to let these people speak and also respect class time so we don’t run over or miss anything I actually have to teach on.

You are probably wondering at this point, but why Uma? why even allow them the chance to divert class attention? Because like Carter, the people who bark the loudest need the most attention and compassion.

See I realized a long time ago that people who take up class time discussing their life or struggles or accomplishments, just needed a place to talk….because more than likely they don’t have the support system in their own lives where they either are appreciated or honored for their gifts and achievements. In worst case scenarios, they may be in unhealthy relationships or surroundings where not only are they not recognized, but they are also criticized for every little thing they do. What a life to be in!

¬†I mean think about it, why would people want to willingly talk about themselves, share personal information or ‘brag’ about their accomplishments? What are they seeking?

Of course the first things that come to mind are fame, recognition and accolades. Yes that is true, but dig deeper. Why would someone want recognition or praise? Many reasons can come up but for me the most pressing ones are: Validation, Approval and Love.

¬†I had a friend who would constantly talk about her achievements to me and I would always respond with support and enthusiasm. Later on she confided in me that she frequently turned to me to talk about her accomplishments because she couldn’t do it with people in her inner circle as they would be negative or condescending. How tragic!

 Sometimes when people talk about their accomplishments in life, we tend to feel like they are showing off or bragging, so we develop hurt feelings or feel like they are trying to put us down. Maybe some people are truly like that (pray for them!) but for the most part, people just want to celebrate a job well done and receive validation for that.

 Can you give them the validation and approval they are seeking?

Test it out in your own life.¬†I am sure you have someone like this you know. An over talker, or over sharer that you¬†maybe¬†see in social settings, business meetings or even family gatherings. Wherever you see them, practice being¬†mindful,¬†develop compassion and if you can, hold space. Everyone needs love and attention, and if they cant get it at home, where else do they turn to? Which ever social situation where they feel accepted and safe. It is a compliment really to you…that someone feels safe enough to share what they feel or do. See the compliment behind the actions and respond by showing up and being supportive. I guarantee it will change the lens on your world view.

In closing, I want to address the people that read this blog and identify themselves as this kind of person. I know you are reading and probably thinking, “Oh my God this is me! Is this how people view me? as a nuisance and disruptive?” but I ask you not to berate yourself or feel shame or pity. Remember that we are ALL working on something or some aspect of ourselves that we are seeking to change. Today the focus is on you, but tomorrow the focus will be on someone else. There is no shame in learning, processing and growing, there is only encouragement and support.

The next time you feel the need to overshare or take up someone else’s time and feel it is inappropriate, ask yourself, “What am I seeking by sharing this story with the group?”

“How can I share the group so the focus is on the topic and not on me?”

And if you are really truthful with yourself, allow the question to come up, “Why do I need others approval and I can’t develop it for myself?” In that question alone, you will be amazed at what comes up and the growth that can develop for it.

 love and light,

xo Uma

5 Tips to a Mature Breakup

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A few months ago I experienced yet another breakup in my life. You would think I would be safe from this trauma/drama in making it to my 40s, but no life has other plans for me. Including heartache and despair.

The breakup I am referring to is one with a close friend of mine and not a boyfriend. It seems I have a lot more breakups with friends these days and I guess I should be thankful that it is not intimate love related, but still it hurts. It hurts just as bad.

However in this story, there is a silver lining. In fact the silver lining is so shiny, it just damn well blots out the entire dark cloud. Why? Because despite the breakup, my friend and I were able to leave on amicable terms and I thought that was pretty amazing.

I am pretty sure there are many people who face the same situations I face on a daily basis. However no one is talking about it or they are suffering quietly about it. No need! There IS a way to end a friendship/relationship when the time is up and there really doesn’t need to be any struggle.

Here are five simple tips to achieve the breakup of your dreams (seriously) so you can walk away feeling lighter and free:

  1. There is no Right or Wrong, Good or Bad. It just is. 

My friend and I had a good run in our friendship for a couple of years but with the start of 2018, we both¬†knew the change was coming. We weren’t sure what was about to happen but we knew instinctively that things were about to change and we needed to proceed with caution.

As the months progressed, it became evident that the change was about¬†US. We no longer could be in each others’ lives the way we had been. Life was pulling us in different directions. I am a middle aged mom to two young boys, in a committed relationship and working full time in my three businesses. To protect her privacy and identity, I wouldn’t describe her situation but let’s just say, it was different from mine. And the differences were becoming increasingly more obvious as the months wore on. What drew us together in the first place was now vanishing quickly and we were clasping at straws desperate to save our friendship.

When our breakup finally happened, I am relieved to share that neither of us thought bad things of the other. In fact it’s the opposite! We layered praise upon praise to each other in our last breakup communication to the point where it was comical! I laughed a little, imagining someone reading our texts and thinking in a thought bubble, “Are they breaking up or making up? I can’t tell!”.

But it wasn’t for show either. We meant it. We meant every word we said when we said we enjoyed our friendship and our memories would be kept close to our hearts.

When you breakup with someone, more often than not, it is because life pulls you apart not because you stop loving that person. The love is still there but it’s not enough to sustain a relationship. So you end amicably and don’t point fingers. No one has to be the bad guy and for that, I am thankful to her for not making me out to be one.

2) Be Honest and Communicate

When we hit a rough patch we did the worst thing we could do. We holed up in our respective corners and avoided each other like the plague. Great. Of course it didn’t solve anything and it only made the confusion and discomfort worse.

When we finally decided to come out of our shells and talk about it, we felt immediate relief and peace restored! We were both feeling the same way but out of love and respect for each other, we didn’t want to say anything! We didn’t want to hurt each others’ feelings. Aww.

In finally communicating our personal truths, we realized just how much we had drifted from each other and how we could not fulfill each other needs list anymore. It made the breakup much more easier as we realized it wasn’t personal.

Sometimes when we go through things, we can only see it from our vantage point. When you communicate with someone, you can learn how they see it too and most times, its not the way you see it. It’s a valuable learning lesson that has helped soften the blow of a breakup and helped me to see things from someone else’s perspective. A game changer so to say.

3) Be Open and Be Vulnerable 

While communication is key to having a successful breakup, it cannot happen this way if guards are up and barriers surround each person. Space needs to be created for open and honest communication where each person is wiling to be vulnerable to share how they are feeling.

Rough stuff! I decided in the conversation to be the first one to open up and talk about how I was feeling. My vulnerability caused her to let her guard down and speak truthfully about what I did that hurt her for which I apologized. She too apologized for things she did that hurt me and was clear to let me know that she didn’t mean to ever hurt me. It was one of the most profoundly touching moments in my life. Two women, speaking from their heart with care and concern for the other. Powerful.

Hurt people hurt people. When you want to end a relationship with someone, attacking them will not make it an easy process. Instead of pointing fingers to the person and playing the “blame game” try speaking only to your hurts, feelings and emotions. Let them SEE you and what you are going through. Chances are, your vulnerability will cause them to be kind to you and also be honest.

4) State Clearly the Goals and Objectives
Sometimes the end of a relationship feels ominous. No one discusses what the actual outcome will look like or feel like, so then situations come up where you run into them at the local coffee shop and everyone feels awkward and out of place. Reminds me of my first school dance. Awkward.

When we ended, we noted that due to business relations we would still see each other from time to time and we were both ok with that. By acknowledging the social/work/family obligations you have with them, it makes it less awkward when you do see them at these social events.

I also stated my objectives for the breakup because really, what kind of b***h would I be if I just broke up friendships for fun? There were specific reasons for this breakup with the most noticeable one being that I was holding my friend back. She is meant for great things and in her need to help me with my businesses and my dreams, I saw too clearly she was sacrificing her own. She needed to go, even if I had to kick her out, she needed it because she deserved so much better than what I could offer her.

In being that open and honest in communication about my objectives, it brought her alot of relief and happiness. I could FEEL her exhale and feel better within herself. At the end of the day, a breakup is rejection and no one likes to feel rejected. Once she realized that I wasn’t rejecting her or her friendship but actually supporting her in achieving her goals and dreams, she felt so much better. And you know what? That made me immensely happy! Like I said earlier, there is no good guy or bad guy here. We are all just walking each other home, and sometimes we chose not to walk together.

5) Still be their Cheerleader 

After all the heart wrenching talk, it was time to bring the conversation to a close and I could feel the sadness from her as I did from me. I vowed to myself to still be on the sidelines cheering her on because truthfully, there is no ill will here. She is a great person and I was so lucky to have her in my life for the time that I did. I was blessed.

The next day I woke up and sent her a motivational FB meme in a private chat. I wanted her to smile and know that I still believed in her. Even though our lives are taking us in different directions, it doesn’t mean I will stop caring or loving her. I truly will continue to do so, as I know she will for me. It’s just not in the cards for us at this time.

In the end, we never really know what’s to come in our lives. Sometimes people circle back into our lives and sometimes they came for a season and left when it was over. Despite the differences, if you chose to have a mature breakup, then you create a world of love and care, connections and possibilities. Just thinking of those things make me feel joyful, light and peaceful. I think everyone deserves to feel this way, don’t you?

Here’s to happy endings (smile) and joyful beginnings. May we know them, have them and be open to receiving them.

In love and light,

Uma

 

 

Getting through a Psychic Attack

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What exactly is a psychic attack? 

It is an occurrence that happens to you without your consent and meant to bring harm directly or indirectly to you. From what I have learned, there are two types of psychic attacks out there:

 1) Intentional/Direct attack:

This is the attack we dread. Someone intentionally sends bad energy, thought forms, words or actions in your direction. Ooooohhh it gives me the creepy crawlies to just think about it! I mean, you got to be a very unhappy or vengeful person to intentionally want to harm someone right? I shudder to think that there are people out there in the world like this, but hey, we turn on the news everyday and witness it on a physical plane (mass murders, suicide bombers etc..) so why should it be so hard to believe there are people who would do bad to someone on an energetic plane?

 This kind of attack is not limited to witches. Yes there are absolutely witches who can cast spells or perform voodoo on others to create a psychic attack either for personal or financial reasons (paid to do this work) but the majority of intentional psychic attacks come from regular people. It is so easy these days to google stuff. Your boyfriend broke up with you? No problem, find a bonding spell out there and cast it. Because your intention is strong, it will most likely work. The thing to note here is that while you may have your short term gift received in him coming back to you, it will most likely not last long term (he has free will) and also the Universe is taking notes. Nothing ever happens without retribution. This is what we call karma.

¬†I remember I had a young male client come in to see me for energy work. In receiving his weekly treatments, he felt comfortable to open up and share about his life. He said he was a wizard and worked with black magic. I told him good for him and to be careful because karma is in full effect, what you put out there, you get back. He didn’t listen to me and continued on his path.¬† I heard from him months later and was sorry to hear that life had crumbled around him. He was in a stressful situation and he couldn’t even afford to book a session with me and asked if I could just give him some free advice. I said sure, stop dabbling in black magic, pray for help and trust and wait on God to provide. I don’t think it was what he wanted to hear as he never called back but you know that is really the best advice I could give.

 2) Unintentional/Indirect attack:

 The majority of psychic attacks fall under this category. It is made up of regular people not getting their way and being immature about it.

 Think about a time when someone really hurt you emotionally. Yes absolutely, think of a breakup or a falling out with someone close to you. If you have ever uttered one or more of these phrases, then chances are you sent a indirect attack to another person:

– Oh she makes me so mad, I wish she would get what’s coming to her!

– He broke up with me, fine, I wish his life is miserable without me

– I can’t stand to see her with someone else. I hope she dates a loser worse than me.

– I wish a car would run her over and just end her life!

Sounds creepy right? Even now reading it, I bet you are going “Oh I would never say that!” Honey, of course you would. When people are mad, they say the craziest things. This is why in spiritual communities, we talk about being careful with our words. Our words have vibrations attach to them and when we send it out, it has the possibility of manifesting especially if you have the right combination of:

– The sender has a high frequency/vibration and a strong emotional charge about the matter

-The receiver is weaker and worn down therefore their psychic defense system is lacking

Clearly those two people sound like the aftermath of a breakup, right? One is stronger and one is worn down and most times is the strong person sending the attack.

It is easy to fall in this category and this is why it is important to be super vigilant about your words and thoughts. A couple of years ago I wrote a blog about a situation between myself and my boyfriend at that time. We had a troubling argument that ended with him hanging up the phone on me. OOOOHHH I was livid! I called him back and told him, “Fine! Have it your way, we are done and I hope your life is s**t without me!”

Well weeks later when we reconciled and talked (with cooler tones) he brought it up and said that day was the worst day for him! After he got off the phone with me, he was racing to work because he was late and he got pulled over and got a speeding ticket. He got to work and then his supervisor docked him for being late and he was suspended for three days without pay AND when he went back to his car, he had a flat tire! OMG I felt horrible! I had noooo idea because I definitely didn’t want any of those things to happen to him! So ever since then, I am VERY mindful of my words and even when I am in a heated discussion, I am sure to wish the person love and light. It may be through gritted teeth, but hey! I said it right?

 SO now that you know about the different types of psychic attacks, you need to know what to expect when under an attack. There are definite signs and you have to be able to tell if this is indeed from an attack or just having a crap day or week.

 Symptoms of a Psychic Attack:

– Anger and Irritability

– Anxiety and Restlessness

– Sleeplessness/Insomnia

– Losing appetite/not eating

– Plants dying

– Dead insects around the house

– Miscommunication and frequent quarrels with the loved one in question

– Heart racing or chest pains

– Headache or pressure in the head region

– Stomachache or feelings of nausea

– Feeling lost, confused or disoriented

– Feelings of sadness or being under a heavy weight

The thing to keep in mind is this: these symptoms have to come out of nowhere. If you experience these symptoms on a regular basis, then that points to something deeper and you should not be reading this article but seeking medical attention from trained professionals who know how to respond to these symptoms!

One time I was under a psychic attack, I had no idea and it was a very strange situation for me. I am sharing it here in hopes that someone can learn from my situation and in case it happens to them, they will have an idea of what to do!

During that week I was out of it. So much so, my students were worried because I was not my usual self. I had a lot of anxiety and I felt like throwing up. My heart was racing and I couldn’t concentrate, I felt all over the place. What was going on?!

It was on a Saturday when I finished teaching my last class and after the last student left, I went out to my deck to go and sit in the Sun. I prayed and asked for guidance. I was led to create a Reiki ball and infuse it into my solar plexus region. I did it and felt a little calmer. With this tiny bit of calmness I was given the message to call my spiritual advisor.

¬†I couldn’t get a hold of my go to advisor so I did some research to find someone else. I was drawn to this woman who did tarot readings and I called her to see if she could help me. I had to think about what to ask because I was in such a cloud of confusion, I didn’t know where to begin…but as soon as spoke to me, she went right to my relationship with my partner. I thought that was uncanny for her to do as at that time our relationship had volatility and we were arguing a lot. She said he was under a psychic attack from someone from his past and it is affecting me too. Wow, this was validation because my partner had told me just days ago he felt a psychic attack around him when he was doing his energy work on himself. Amazing.

After talking to the reader, I alerted my partner to his accuracy in picking up on it and then I went to work on myself. Here’s some things I did:

Defending yourself in an attack:

1) Warm bath with Epsom Salts:

I immediately went to the bathroom after the reading, put a mix of epsom salts and lavender in the bathwater and sat in it. I made sure my toes and fingers were submerged so as the bonds began to break up, they could leave through my extremities. I sat in the water for about 10-15 minutes, until I felt calm and peaceful. Afterwards, I let the water out and then took a shower to wash off all remaining traces of negativity.

 2) Prayer, Affirmations And Intentions:

While I was sitting in the tub,¬†I prayed the Lord’s Prayer first then I prayed my own prayer of protection and removal of curses/attacks and then I went on YouTube and found another prayer to remove curses. I ended all prayers by saying, “I send back this curse to whence it came sevenfold.”

See even though my reader named the person sending the attack, I did not name them. Why? Because it is not 100% known. What if, this person did not send it? Then you would be directing negative energy sevenfold back to them! That is some karma you have to deal with later on! It is best to say “whence it came” so it correctly goes back to its rightful owner.

3) Saran Wrap the Belly! 

This sounds weird I know but it is an old belief that power comes in and goes out from your solar plexus which is the midpoint of your upper part of your stomach. So when you wrap it in plastic you are not allowing your energy to go out or new energy to come in. Also if you couple this with the statement above, then you are removing the block and sending it back to its rightful owner.

 4) Protection Stones and Crystals 

The usual protection stones to have are the ones related to the root chakra meant for grounding and protection. These are generally black stones such as hematite, onyx and tourmaline but can also include tiger’s eye ¬†and obsidian.

I took three grounding stones and placed them over my solar plexus under the wrap and slept with them that way. I also laid out crystals on the bed to my right side, I included rose quartz, clear quartz, amethyst and tiger’s eye.

Aside from doing these things you can carry the stones around in your pocket and it is said to block an attack, carry it on your left side because that is where attacks come in from. You can also wear the stones in jewelry around your neck, wrist, fingers or ankles.

 5) Aromatherapy 

I have a diffuser in my room and I put in a blend of oils known for their spiritual protection and grounding properties. The oils I used were frankincense, cedarwood, sandalwood and clary sage. (need oils? buy quality oils here)

6) Chakra Clearing and Reiki

At this point I have spent two hours of protective rituals so now I am sleepy…which is a good sign because remember I haven’t slept in a week due to the insomnia! I took a selenite wand and went through each chakra clearing them using intent and Reiki and by the time I got to my root, I was so exhausted I knocked out. I woke up eight hours later feeling so refreshed, peaceful and calm. Wow an experience.

So whatever you are going through, take some time to process and tap into the universal consciousness to read your situation (like I did sitting in the sun and connecting in). Once you get directed into what you need to do, don’t be lazy! Get up and do it! And always, always have faith and trust that you will be taken care of no matter what.

 love and light,

Uma