Today it is Thanksgiving 2020 and everywhere across the US, people are celebrating things to be grateful for. As am I……but today my mental processes took me back to the beginning of this year and throughout it. So here is my truth, I am thankful for the pain of 2020.
Let me explain the many ways (briefly) I was hurt this year and what I gained of it.
In January I had a surgery that went wrong and I nearly died. It was supposed to be a simple surgery of thirty minutes but two hours later it wasn’t and I lost more blood than the medical team accounted for. I couldn’t wake up after surgery and lost a lot of blood, so much so that it took 6 bags of blood to pump into me to bring my heart rate back. I was not coherent for most of this but from the stories of my partner, family and staff, I understood it was a close call. While I may not remember all the details of this experience, I very vividly remember being on the other side temporarily and meeting my beloved grandmother who passed away a few years ago. Aside from the excruciating pain of surgery and trying to come back, I had to deal with the emotional repercussions of losing my life and being on the other side for a brief moment.
After that scare, I suffered with mental pain as I had to adjust to being back here on the earth plane. I was depressed. Seeing firsthand how fleeting life is and seeing the other side of life (the beyond), I suffered with depression for a few months because I felt so…..lacking. Was I proud of the life I lived? Did I help enough people? Was I more kind than angry? I fell short in all of these areas and judged myself tremendously. I also missed my grandmother who was and still is an important figure in my life. To see her even so briefly invoked a lot of the old pain of losing her and I had to grieve for her again. Painful.
Then I caught COVID. Yup, right after I came home from the hospital. They didn’t know to test me then for it so they tested me for influenza and everything else but it came back negative. I knew it was COVID because I had a fever of 103 for a week, no taste and no smell and no energy. I just wanted to sleep forever. The pain of COVID drove me over the edge and at this time I also had suicidal thoughts because I felt like life would never be the same for me. I felt so beaten down first by the surgery and then by covid that I started entertaining thoughts of ending my life really to end the pain. Painful.
After I recovered from both the surgery and COVID, I was ready to go back to work but of course the state mandated quarantine came in and I was out of business for three months. In those three months I had to let my whole staff go and downsize from two offices to one. I moved classes and services online and survived but the intense work of completely reorganizing my life and career while still having fresh stitches from my surgery proved too much and I broke the stitches. I now had a very LARGE open wound that put my health back into jeopardy. Doctors were throwing around words like second surgery and at home daily nurse aide which did happen. Everyday I had to endure a nurse pushing a cotton swab INTO the open wound to check the length of it before she cleaned and bandaged it. I remember I would lie there and not cry but tears would silently roll down my cheeks.
You reach a point where there are no more words beyond the pain, you just accept it and receive it without objection.
I recovered. Took me four months but the wound healed, no second surgery was needed and then the business I own somehow miraculously thrived. Whew. We are now in the middle of 2020 and I am beginning to feel……hopeful. Life may get back to what it used to be right? We will come out of this right?
Of course we will but not before one last painful experience, the biggest one of them all-the end of a 5 year relationship with my soulmate, my business partner and my best friend.
I called it off in August due to private reasons and it….broke me. Beyond painful. Gut wrenching tragedy is how I would classify it. This man was MY man and to be my man for all of eternity. But as incidents go, it wasn’t meant to be and when it was time to go, I did. Obediently but not willingly. He was my everything and I really at this point wanted to just give up. Really give up.
I made a will and I made plans with the Universe to check out. No I wasn’t contemplating suicide (heck no!) but I was just in a place of….. acceptance. I couldn’t see how I could move forward in any area of my life- health wise, career, personally or romantically.
Everything died in 2020 and I wanted to die with them.
And this is where my gratitude came in.
Because the pain that was constant for 8 months did something to me. At first the pain did just that, caused me pain! Hot seering, burning, blinding pain where you rather die than continue on.
But it’s funny being human….we tend to adapt.
After a few months of some of the most excruciating pain I have ever felt (my wound healing needs a seperate blog), I learned to live with pain. It no longer bothered me. I awoke with it and went to bed with it. I made peace with it and pain in some ways even became my friend.
I learned how to read pain. Seering pain meant slow down Uma. This is all you can handle. Constant pain became the backdrop to my life and I learned to smile while gripping my leg to ease it. I learned how to carry on a conversation with a nurse while she jabbed cotton swabs into my open and raw flesh without wincing or screaming. I learned to share love with others even when love left my bed. I learned how to give this year.
That is what pain taught me, how to give.
And I gave. Oh God how I gave.
I gave money to help struggling families even when I was struggling.
I gave my time to arrange house visits and meal plans for struggling families even when I had no time or meals for myself.
I gave tears for others’ pains over mine.
I gave energy to keep others going even when I was drowning.
I kept going because I was going to be damned if pain would win over me.
And you know what? It didn’t.
It gave up and in giving up, it released me to a whole new life. A life I couldn’t see because I was too steeped in pain. A life that is so much different than before. A life I dreamed of.
My health is better than ever and I’ve lost quite a bit of weight and continuing to drop as my new body gets into the flow of LIVING.
My career started to flourish because as I let go of things and people, the presence of ME became more apparent and who knew? The people wanted ME all along. I started booking up and classes were filled again. I was in awe.
My relationships got interestingly better. I now surround myself with girlfriends who are open to authenticity and vulnerability. We don’t hide who we are from each other. We share our mistakes openly and our regrets as much as we do our joys and happiness. I feel supported and truly loved for who I am not who people want me to be.
And love…..well in the love department, that door is still open but I will say this. I have met some incredible men that have motivated me to believe in love again. One in particular opened my heart so wide, it shocked me. I feel like a teenager in high school again when I am around him and that in of itself is worth the experience of dating him regardless of if it works out or not. He gave me the desire to love again and I will be eternally grateful to him for that small mercy.
So this Thanksgiving I am alive and healthy, I am with my family in South FL and I am surrounded on a daily basis by love and truth. I am so incredibly thankful and grateful for the pain of this year.
Friends, we all went through the ringer of 2020, but after reading this little blog of mine, I ask you…..are you grateful for your pain too? Can you see the rainbow after the dark clouds? What did this blog mean to you and what awareness do you have now of your own pain and the lessons it brought?
I hope you do take the time to reflect on these questions because whether I know you or not, this is my prayer for you. “Be happy, be healthy, be peaceful, be love and in the end, do not fear pain, embrace it.”
I had a friend who was a bit of a cynic (well he still is) and he said one time to me, “You gotta love the Spiritual people. It’s pretty much a bunch of lame-Os who are too lazy for religion and too scared to be atheist.”
After I had a good belly laugh about it for oh say two hours, I had to stop and think about it….I mean it had some truth to it, didn’t it?
I spent the next few days testing out his theory by asking innocent bystanders (ok my clients and students at Lotus), if they were religious or spiritual and what did that mean to them.
I received interesting feedback with the majority of answers corroborating his theory. Most people don’t know or have an explainable idea of what it means.
The most popular answer I got was, “Well I am definitely not religious, I would say I am more Spiritual because I believe in a God or the Universe.”
Me: “Ok do you have a set practice as a Spiritual person?”
Them: “No not really, it’s what I feel like really. Some days I meditate, some days I go to the yoga class at my gym and some days I eat cheetos on the couch. It’s all about balance!”
Me: “Uh huh got it. But is there something specific you do that can identify you with other Spiritual people?”
Them: “Well I do wear mala beads and most Spiritual people wear mala beads. It’s a sign of our Spirituality.”
Me: “Do you know how to use a mala bead?”
Them: “There’s a use for them?!”
Trust me when I say she is a sweetheart. A bumbling sweetheart but sweet nevertheless.
I had a bit of shell shock and identity crisis as I realized I was probably seen this way as well! I mean I own a Wellness Center and Massage School and wear mala beads! OMG am I a Spiritually Unevolved person? Is that how the world sees me?
Cue *dramatic fall to the floor with hand covering my eyes*
Back then I took a whole lotta offense to what my friend said, to the answers I got back and to somehow me being lumped in this category. I decided then and there that I needed to have a firm answer on what being Spiritual meant for me and to me so if anyone asked, I would be better prepared to answer.
I came up with 3 reasons why I am Spiritual and I am sharing it here in case it resonates with you. Feel free to use them! I have no rights over these ideas, and hey maybe if we were all well-equipped with answers, the rest of the world will take us seriously, have a green tea and calm the f**k down. Here we go:
I believe in All the Religions
In my younger years (ages 9-28) I studied most of the major religions. I read the Bible front to back (twice), Koran, Bhagavad Gita, Yoga Sutras and the Tao. What I found was similarities amongst them all. More similarities than differences. Later on in my 30s, I found Wiccan and Paganism and noticed similarity in dates to Christian important holidays (Christmas and Easter) and similar symbolism.
As I matured, I realized I didn’t feel comfortable owning a title. You could call me Christian because I liked to go to Church (still do occasionally). You could call me Hindu because I practice yoga and meditation daily. You could call me Muslim because I enjoy fasting during the Ramadan season. You could call me Pagan because I have a deep love of earth rituals and Mother Nature. If I identified with one religion, I would neglect the other spiritual practices I employed.
2. I am more concerned with my Purpose than my Needs
Now this is in no way a jab to anyone, it is a revelation unto myself. I grew up in a typical family with two siblings and parents who were striving for better things. We all do. My family like everyone else wanted a better future. My family unlike some families came from humble beginnings in a third world country.
Somewhere along the way, i got sidetracked, bamboozled, led astray by the sirene call of the Spiritual realm to seek my path and purpose in life specific to me. I didn’t want to exist on the earthly realm anymore for pain and pleasure, I wanted significance in finding a way to make a living that contributed to the wellbeing of others. I opened a Wellness Center and then later a Massage School before personally venturing out to speak, teach and write on what I know. The call of the Divine to help, uplift and inspire others was a deeper call than the need for public fame, fortune and membership in the right clubs and societal groups.
When I refer to myself as Spiritual, I refer to this need, this desire to find out my purpose in life and live it accordingly. Again I will stress the importance of recognizing that it is a focus on what I do want and not what I am moving away from. Many of my loved ones still pursue a materialistic life and you know what? I love them immensely and have no judgment. Being Spiritual for me in this aspect is about learning to understand me and why I am here, not about judging someone else’s path or story.
3) The CIA is everywhere
Living the Spiritual life means coming from a place of CIA all the time everytime. What is the CIA?
It is so easy to get caught up in the drama and trauma of life, to take things personally, to get easily offended, to make judgments and to develop this us vs. them mentality. I didn’t want that anymore. I did it for a large part of my life, and it brought nothing but dissatisfaction, hurt and envy to my life. My anger raged and this fire consumed me all the time. I wanted out and I got it when I started living with a CIA perspective.
Compassion teaches me to see things from someone else’s perspective, to continue to love them where they are and to hold space instead of react when things aren’t going right.
Intent teaches me to have intention before I DO ANYTHING! Whether I am about to eat food, cross the sidewalk, take a drive or speak to a class, I remind myself of my reasons for doing so and maintain intent in the transactions.
Awareness teaches me to continuously watch, observe, monitor and eventually self-correct on my behaviors if they are out of alignment with my path and purpose, if they are hurtful to others or if they could be done better. This last one is a doozy. I have time and time again reached out to people I have wronged and apologized. Sometimes it is accepted and sometimes I am the receiver of a verbal lashing out. It is hard work to admit you are wrong and even harder to be penalized for it, but yet my awareness will not let me off the hook. Into the darkness I must go to apologize, yes for them but mostly for me. I need to be better, do better and live better everyday within my conscience.
There is one more big reason why I call myself Spiritual instead of a follower of a particular religion or an atheist. In realizing it, I guess in the end, I have alot in common with the bumbling sweetheart from earlier who couldn’t put it in words what she knew in her heart to be true. In the end, I am like her Spiritual because I Believe.
I believe in a Higher Power, God Consciousness or The Universe.
I believe we are Souls having a Human Experience.
I believe in the sanctity of Life, the harmony of man and the peace of a utopian society.
Hmm, sounds like the decree of a new religion, possibly Umaism?
Nah. I think all of the religions currently existing got this Belief thing covered.
I rather say I am Spiritual, live a decent life, don’t worry what others are doing and focus on how I can be of contribution to society.
Wear your Spiritual badge proud and loud. Let’s all share our love of all things Spiritual with pride
Uma is the owner of Lotus Wellness Center and Lotus Signature Massage School in VA. To learn more about this crazy Spiritual chic, check out http://www.umalotusflower.com
I first met my dragon in 2015. I remember it because I awoke one morning and “saw” a purple and green dragon lying on my roof. I knew it was female and she acknowledged me very sleepily by half opening one eye to look at me and then promptly going back to sleep.
I thought I was losing my shit.
I told my boyfriend about it, expecting him to laugh me all the way to the asylum but he just shrugged and said, “Oh that’s cool. I have one too.” and began to describe how his dragon protects his home, his children and keeps him safe.
What the what?
At first I thought the dragon on top of my house was possibly his and maybe she came to stay with me now that we were dating? Kind of like a bodyguard if you will?
As the months wore on and she wasn’t moving, I began to realize that she was mine. She wasn’t sent to me by my boyfriend, she came to me because of my ascension.
See at this time I was doing a-lot of inner spiritual work and self-healing. I was clearing MOUNDS OF CRAP from previous lifetimes, my early childhood and the mini disasters picked up along the road of life. I was in pretty deep.
The clearings got rid of my clutter yes, but it also invited in my Twin Flame and now my Dragon.
Fast forward to 2018.
I have seen my green and purple Dragoness from time to time but we never had illustrious, long winded conversations. In fact, she was pretty easy to get along with. I know from past life regression, I have BEEN a dragon in a previous lifetime (my friends might argue I still am) and so having a dragon roommate was not too unpredictable. We like our own company, we keep to ourselves and the only time we really rally together is when my anger is incited by injustices done to myself or others. Oh then she comes out in her full glory.
I haven’t really thought much about her or me or our connection until this year. It seems, this year 2018 is the year of the dragons re-emerging back into the Earth space and while that is all fine and good……for me, I need to know what does it all mean?
My first inclination that the Dragon era was re-emerging came from social media as several of my friends started talking about dragons and falling in love with the dragon power. That didn’t alert me too much, I have seen cycles come and go as people find information and pour over its newness to them while the novelty wore off on me years prior.
It was my second inclination that did me in. It came from my 11 year old son Joshua and his dreams.
See Joshua and I play this game every morning where he comes in to my bedroom to hug me and I ask him, “Joshua what did you dream?” Oh boy he has the best dreams! Whether it is in actuality a dream or a fantasy, it doesn’t phase me because I like to hear where his mind has been or where it is going.
Recently, he came into my room and after our hugs, I asked him, “Joshua what did you dream?” And what came back, I was not prepared for.
“Oh mommy it was wonderful, I went to the dragon land!”
“The dragon land?”
“Yes the land where the dragons live and guess what? A yellow dragon came to me! He is young like me and he said it is time for him to come with me and work with me. So I asked him, where is your mommy? He said she is over there and mommy you wouldn’t believe it, she was beautiful and green and purple! The dragon kid said his mommy works with you mommy and she is with you all the time and now its time for him to be with me.”
If you could see my face, it was drained of all color. My son, who I never had a conversation with about dragons, correctly identified the colors of my dragoness and now has his very own dragon.
When we visited LilyDale a couple of weeks ago, BOTH my sons were in the gift shop admiring the dragon figurines. Nathan liked the red dragon and Joshua of course liked the yellow/gold dragon.
SO…..interesting right? And that is what I chalked it up to….interesting and didn’t think to write about it or address it until today.
Today I received the third inclination and within it, is a message for us all.
See every day I do a reading for myself before going on LIVE YouTube to do the daily reading. Today I decided to do a reading using the dragon deck I have. I didn’t really have a question, more so a request for advice from the Dragon Realm about what is going on with me. I recently came out of a self-imposed hermit mode I placed on myself for the past three months and now that the clouds were clearing, I wanted to know, what was that all about?
I expected to have one card jump out but instead, there were six. Immediately I received clarity and guidance about the past few months of my life, the present and where I am suppose to go in the future.
I am sharing my personal spread with you, because I feel the Dragons will start to call on everyone in a matter of moments, and if this is true, then be prepared. They come with requests a little bigger than your dreams and they are about to shake things up!
STOP READING AND LOOK AT THE DRAGONS!!!!!!
WHICH ONE CALLS TO YOU?
This blog entry is about to become interactive!
So this third inclination is what blew my mind. See for the past few months I have been doing color therapy and healing on myself and a few of my clients. In color therapy, Spirit picks a color for me for the month and I wear it or visualize using it in healing. In August I had purple, September was Orange, October was Tangerine and November was Amber. The last three months I had different variations of orange….so the first card that flew out of the deck of course came from the orange dragon.
After you have picked a dragon or two that seems to “call” to you, read on below and see what their hidden message is for you as it was for me xo.
Orange Dragon’s message:
Fifth dimensional orange dragons emit flames of joy, warmth and acceptance. They come to us when our orange Naval chakra is open as this indicates that we are ready to spread joy and oneness. As the world moves towards the new Golden age, soul families are drawing together. Orange dragon help like people up so that they recognize each other and enjoy a sense of belonging. They bring fifth dimensional communities together, communities where people cooperate, and and help each other and practice harmony and oneness.Many of us need to work with them to bring this about. The guidance here is to look for the divine light in everyoneAnd look for the bonds that link you.The orange dragons will help you to spread their light of warped, welcome and acceptance to all people. Let that light shine through you.You will feel a sense of belonging and oneness in your heart will open.This will help you develop your abilities of higher manifestation.
When you visualize the peoples and animals of the world coming together in harmony and acceptance, the orange dragons will flood your vision with their light. Archangel Metatron himself will then take it to energize the plan for Earth. So hold the highest vision for the Golden Age that is being prepared and do your part to bring your community and the world into spiritual accord.This is a message of higher peace.
This message was right on time. I started forming new friendships around September that seem more in alignment with my higher goal and purpose of love and unity. I felt free and I felt loved, more so than I ever have and I wanted to share that love with everyone around me. I unfortunately have had the sad experience of attracting people to me that took from me but had no interest in contributing to me as well. Since the arrival of the Orange dragon, I have attracted many people who contribute to my happiness on the daily, and in turn, I am too happy to give to them as well. Well played Orange Dragon, well played!
Earth and Fire Dragon’s message:
The fourth dimensional Earth and fire dragons are calling on us now to help them clear and light up the new Ley lines of our beautiful planet. The original ley lines were called Dragon lines for they were maintained by the dragons of old. Now a new fifth dimensional Ley line system is being placed into the earth to carry golden Christ energy and prepare the planet for the new Golden age. The dragons of earth and fire move through these lines, creating a path of light through which the higher love frequencies can flow.
Humbly in both these dragons and have a sense of the power of the flaming orange fire combined with the grounding brown earth. Reach out a hand to touch the dragons. Then visualize earth being crisscrossed with lines of gold light. Picture these dragons anchoring this golden Christ energy where ever there are sacred places on the globe. Mentally place a golden flame at each of the sacred portals until you sense our planet lighting up. When ever you are out walking or driving, ask the earth and fire Dragons to travel along the ley lines below you. Bring the Christ light down through you so that they can distribute it where ever it is most needed. When you give, you receive. The earth and fire dragonsWill illuminate the challenges on your route aheadAnd as soon as you have acknowledge them, they will dissolve them. This will smooth your path.It will also allow you to step lightly into your role as a master as a new Golden age approaches.
So excited about these dragons as this literally happened from September-November! I had a series of mishaps that could have affected my health, my business and my car! But somehow as quickly as they came up, they dissolved and the only suffering I experienced was delays or changes to my schedule. Thank you Earth and Fire dragons for keeping me safe and sane!
Orange-Gold Dragon’s Message:
Arcturus is one of the most advanced star systems in this galaxy and a prototype of earth’s future. Seventh dimensional orange gold dragons come to us when we are ready to become a walking master and help to usher in the new Golden age. When a spiritual army of these dragons moves to a place, They stimulate great evolutionary change in all that they touch.They are flowing into Earth now to help us during the exciting years ahead.
It is not by chance you have incarnated during this extraordinary twenty-year period When our planet is undergoing double dimensional shift. Earth needs spiritual leaders and light bearers. These dragons are blazing their light towards you, for it holds the vision of our fifth dimensional future. They are inspiring you to do your part for the new Golden age on earth.
Receiving this card indicates that it is time to stand in your power and fulfill your destiny. Allow the dragons to enter your energy and breathe into you the vision of earth as it will be. They will give you the strength, wisdom and knowledge that you will need for the transformation ahead. You have much to do and many people to help, and a beautiful seventh dimension orange gold dragon will stay by your side as long as you need it. Be a guiding beacon of light for many.
Now this dragon brought interesting energy with it. As I was up leveling, I remember feeling a sense of isolation and loneliness. I felt the world was too consumed with social media popularity, expensive things and living lifestyles that did not reflect our true nature. I didn’t feel moved to speak out about it so instead, I cowered. On my couch by myself and lamented the state of affairs that have us pushing, shoving to get ahead and not caring for each other or looking out for each other’s best interest. Even when I was getting bookings to work with clients, I was just in this state of analysis that prevented me from responding. Instead I referred out to my team, to my partner or to other healers in the community. I didn’t want to entertain the societal desire to be a part of something that was false or untrue. I was losing hope in humanity as it is.
In time the energy cleared and I am happy to say I am now more lively (thank Goodness) and back to my usual cheery, optimistic self. What this dragon taught me is that yes there is that need for attention and popularity out there, but to look past the glitz and the glam of self worship and instead draw attention to the little girl or boy in that person who is only asking for love and support. I learned to go into the deep, dark places with this dragon but yet, how not to be consumed by it.
Dark Blue Dragon’s Message:
These dragons shimmer with golden sparkles of cosmic wisdom for they harness the light of the stars, planets and constellations. When we are ready, they touch us with this light enabling us to embody the illumined energy and wisdom they contain.
While many of us are now able to attune to the ninth dimension, it is still an awesome light filled with joy, love and wisdom beyond our current comprehension. Dark blue galactic dragons can send bursts of this cosmic searchlight through us to ignite the hidden codes of our master blueprint, the seventh dimensional light of our soul, so that we can listen to the voice of the universe. Remember our soul must be at least seventh dimensional for us to receive permission to incarnate on Earth.
This dragon invites you to communicate with the masters of the Universe, the Intergalactic Council where you can contribute your energy for the smooth ascension of the planet. It is time to listen and serve.
Ask the wondrous dragon who has come to you, to tune you in to the Intergalatic Council where you will be offered the honor of petitioning the council. Decide whether your petition is for the welfare of animals or humanity or to assist the ascension of the planet. Then ask the dragon to take you to the council to present your petition.
Dark blue Galatic dragons will also instruct you during meditation or sleep. This will enable you to serve in a galactic capacity and will hugely expand your energy fields.
One of the few things I have said these past few months was in secrecy to Rob, my partner. I said, “I don’t know what is going on, but I am having insights into most of the people we know and some that we barely know as well.” It was just flooding me! It didn’t matter what I did, a picture of the person would pop up and a narrative about what was happening in their lives. Later on, I would see validation on social media from their posts. It was wild and interesting at the time and now I have closure on it as I understand it was a time of the Dark Blue Galactic dragon working with me.
I have to say, that in working with this ninth dimension being, it hurt my head! I was having constant headaches and feeling nauseous most days. As I ascended so did my twin flame and he was experiencing a bout of pneumonia! Now I understand that we were clearing as we purged the past and became lighter to the ride of ninth dimension to communicate with these amazing beings. Rob was channeling too! He began to have visions of others and know on a deeper level what was troubling them before they reached out to him and validated it!
Silver Dragon’s Message:
Fifth dimension shimmering silver dragons radiate divine feminine light and gentle qualities.They bring a harmlessness, love, peace, tranquility, balance, gentleness and calmness.If we are ready they surround our aura in a soft pure silver light that enables us to retain these divine feminine qualities. They also reflect our true self and highest potential back to us by coming to us and looking deep into our eyes. This enables us to see the essence of our soul and discover aspects of ourselves we did not know existed. We are reminded of our divine magnificence and may catch a glimpse of the mighty soul that belongs to us.
Your fifth dimensional soul blueprint contains the keys and codes of your gifts, talents, wisdom and power. Receiving the card suggests that it’s a time for some of this potential to be ignited and brought forward into your life. You’re ready to reveal yourself and be who you truly can be.
Sit quietly and see the shimmering silver Dragon who has come to you. Allow it to reflect back to you the hidden aspects of your soul and your higher possibilities.This may or may not be a conscious process but it will inspire you to express your essence and transform your life. Be ready to develop any gifts or qualities that the dragon draws to your attention. You may surprise yourself.
Omega White Dragon’s Message:
Ninth dimensional Omega dragons carry the Divine feminine vibrations of Shekinah, the universal energy that created our world. Shekinah is the feminine counterpart of Archangel Metatron’s Higher light and represent pure creative vision. These powerful beings are assisting the birth of higher consciousness on earth. Collectively they hold the vision for the new Golden age and this will enable us to achieve the intention set by Lady Gaia for the evolution of the planet.
These beautiful silver white dragons will also help us hold a personal vision for the highest good. Everywhere she starts with a thought that is translated into a picture.These dragons can see into our mind and will hold our vision with us.
When an Omega dragon comes to you, it is time to give birth to a special new project, pathway or aspect of yourself that has remained hidden. Call upon these dragons to fill you with the power of the Divine Feminine. This will enable you to hold your vision and bring it to fruition in a wise, balanced and harmonious way.
Most important of all, ask the Omega Dragon to look into the greatest desire of your soul and hold the vision of bringing it to Manifestation. These dragons can be any shape or size so just still your mind and give them permission to merge with your energy. Ask them to soften your path and the paths of all who hold the vision of the new Golden age.
Between the Silver and Omega dragons, I can see and feel their presences currently with me as I work to revamp my work and change direction in time for 2019. I have been toying with several ideas of massive expansions and now I see where the insight is coming from. Thanks Dragons! Yes it is time to ascend and be more vocal in the public. I have hung back awhile now, letting others direct and lead but as each of these six dragons have reminded me in the past three months, there is no one quite like me and they can’t do it the way I can do it.
The dragons have spoken and it is time to share the fruits of our time together with the world. Look out for it, it will be coming in soon!
As we come to the close of this blog, you either think I am a lunatic or you are quietly interested in what this is all about. Don’t second guess either way! Book me for a 15 minute reading and let’s see which dragon shows up for YOU. You never know what they might have to say or how they can make sense of what is happening to you in your life.
I know these six dragons who have been working with me for the past three months have explained A LOT of unanswered questions I had. Don’t hesitate, book your reading today and let’s see what shows up! I am as interested as you are!
I love myself so much that sometimes people get offended.
They get offended because in loving myself, I fail to love them as hard as I love myself.
That is a fact.
There is a large population of people who are looking and searching for the best answer to the age old question, “How do I love myself?”
I am sorry but I am not in that group of people.
I somehow seem to be lumped in with the narcissists and vain, the “uppity” and snooty crowd because I have never doubted my brilliance, my divinity or the Goddess who resides within me.
However, because I honor that divine Spark within me and think of myself in a glorious way, I have been called the above names before. It’s a catch isn’t it?
I don’t need classes or books to tell me how to overcome my shyness or connect with my Inner Goddess. I don’t need workshops to help lift me up. I am already there. But because I am already there, and don’t need help on how to get there, I am outcasted and ridiculed. I am either the anomaly or a fraud; however I am not the real deal in self love, because well, I don’t look like what self-love is meant to look like. I am TOO confident, TOO good with my boundaries and TOO self involved.
In this blog, I am addressing a small, overlooked issue that remains (to this day) overlooked because it seems insensitive to talk about it when clearly there are other people (the majority) on the opposite end of the spectrum who do not face this issue.
What is the issue?
The issue is that we have created a world to be in constant need of something and to deny the existence of those who have no need of anything. Specifically in the issue of unconditional love.
See, I love myself unconditionally. What does that mean to me?
It means that no matter what I do or say or think, I still love me. I love me in spite of my faults, my glories, my weaknesses and my strengths.
I understand me and I know me. I know that despite what is exhibited on the outside, or what people’s perceptions are of me, they don’t know me like i know me. That’s why someone else cannot tell me MY truth or what I meant by what I did. That is their perception and they are entitled to it.
I love myself so hard that even when people tell me their perceptions of me and say it like it is fact not opinion, I don’t correct them, get defensive, attack or withdraw. I have enough love within me, that I can listen to what they say and still hold space for them and their opinions of me without feeling the need to respond.
When someone loves themselves unconditionally, they are afforded a freedom to live in the moments they create without guilt or regret over past mistakes or anxiety and restlessness about the future. They are able to navigate through life easily because they are peace with it all. Loving yourself affords you a freedom to be happy; despite what other people feel or think about you. It’s worth the isolation if anything!
So in realizing my super power (loving myself and accepting myself regardless of what the world thinks of me), I decided to share some tips if I may with you. Whether you are already in self love with yourself or asking that question, “How do I love myself?”, from my humble opinion here are some ideas to start with:
Recognize that you are complete and whole already
In my opinion, the first step to self-love is realizing that there is nothing to fix or wrong with you. You are already there. Think of buying a fixer-upper first home. What are the feelings there? Excitement to own a home? Check. Excitement to renovate and recreate the original model to what you want? Check. Excitement of all the possibilities that will come by this purchase? Check.
The idea is that you are that original canvas sent from the master architect himself. You get to create the mural you want on it! However if you start off by denying the existence of the original architect, or doubting his work, or picking at perceived flaws with the canvas….then you are off to a rough start!
A better idea is to accept what is your canvas, what the master Architect has sent to you and create your mural as you wish. No doubting, wishing for something different or being critical. Instead be in a place of acceptance and love for what IS there as opposed to what isn’t. Get my drift? Self-love is about acceptance that you are quite perfect and stunning as you are, with no need to change, mimic or be someone else.
2. Choose your cheerleading squad carefully
As I have said before, I don’t give much thought to what people think about me. I am living this life for myself and by my terms. That being said, I tend not to associate with too many people. My acquaintances circle is large and my inner circle is a few I can count on one hand. I like it that way.
I once heard that Oprah is particular about what she hears, to the point when a car service picks her up, they are instructed not to engage in chit chat and not to play music. She doesn’t want to listen to the wrong stuff.
What is the wrong stuff? Gossip, slander, cursing, derogatory remarks. All these sounds can mess with your vibe, your vision, your flow. The same thing with having friends who cannot support you or stay in low vibe behavior.
“Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events and small minds discuss people.”- Eleanor Roosevelt.
I once had a friend tell me I changed friends as often as people changed underwear. Ok, she exaggerates but there is a kernel of truth in there. My truth is I can be the BEST of friends with people, but once it goes south for me, I am out!
Now some of you might think, “Oh Uma but that is such a lonely road!” Nope, nope, nope it is not. See I have friends since elementary school days that are healthy, positive, successful and thriving. They keep me entertained.
I have parents, siblings and a whole host of cousins and relatives that flood my life with positivity, happiness and joy. They keep me laughing.
I have an amazing partner who teaches me, learns from me and grows with me. He keeps me in love.
And finally, I have my kids who mentor me in the new ways of the new world from their perspective. They keep me inspired.
You can mourn the few you lost along the way or you can celebrate the hundreds who are still there, still positive and still rooting for you. Choose wisely!
3. Understand it is all just an opinion
One defining moment in my life is when I stood up to a bully a couple of years ago (yes I was an adult and bullied!). She was supposedly a friend in my life but her behavior and actions were anything but. She was always critical of me and my life and one day, I had enough and looked her square in the eye and said, “That sounds wonderful, but you know what? It is your opinion I should do it that way and I don’t want to do it that way because my opinion is to do it differently. Your Opinion is Valid BUT YOUR OPINION DOES NOT DEFINE MY REALITY.”
I think she was shook up by the yelling part but it was part frustration and part epiphany when I said it. It’s true! She had an opinion. It wasn’t God’s truth and she didn’t get divine wisdom from the heavens into my affairs. It was just her thought process based off of the way she does things and thinks about things. Its ok, but it’s not gold.
As you learn to see everyone as opinionated people, it helps you tremendously to ease off them and not take it too seriously what they say.
Even if their way saves you $2.34 or 4 minutes, who CARES? Is your aim to get to your grave on time and saving money? Of course not! Your aim is to live your life YOUR WAY and you get to choose whose opinion you take into consideration and whose you toss out with the trash. Either way, don’t feel guilty about it. Just do you.
I can keep writing on this topic because it is my cornerstone of my work. Living authentically, boldly and by my rules and my decisions is important. I hope that this blog touches at least someone in a positive way. What I really want to say to you, is that you are perfect just as you are, you are loved and you matter.
Love and Light until next time,
Uma Alexandra Beepat is a Consciousness Speaker, Metaphysical Teacher, Intuitive Consultant and Psychic Mediumship Mentor. Uma owns four businesses, is a single mom to two pre-teen boys and lives life large!